i genuinely want to cut my parents off from my life (engineering related mods dont delete)
i currently have a dell inspiron 5590 (i5) and i have been using it since 2020 it is slow asf cant open more than 4 tabs and laptop hinge is broken (my mom broke it twice) i am always physically abused by my mother and she hits me for every small thing and just 10 minutes back she was going to hit my sister with a stick.
it has become so normalized for her to hit us that her friends and our relatives everytime they call us and talk to me they says "Last kab maar padi thi".
she recently hit me with a jhaadu 2-3 days ago because i told her to speak softly because my ears hurt when she speaks (she speaks very loudly and so does my dad)
my dad bought a laptop 5 months ago saying it was for his personal use for stocks etc, and now he wants me to use that laptop (i3,512 gb and 8gb ram). i said i cant use it because it wont run properly for my use case (docker, etc) and he said ki what if they dont allow laptop to college
genuinely what the fuck?? engineering college me no laptop (and keep in mind he is a software engineer)
i have met in a few days and i dont wanna give it because i know i wont get cse and my mom started swearing at me saying iska khoon kar do to my dad (m*rd*r him i dont wanna see him again in my life). and she called me worthless because i cant crack met (she thinks its like a board level exam and her friends are fucking idiots who say haan ye exam toh easy hai woh exam toh easy hai)
and my dad has been saying start learning for college so i started c++ because what else would u understand from that. and he meant start learning engineering math so u can be ahead of ur peers
because of which he didnt let me go to the gym cuz i couldnt read his fucking mind
im not getting anything new for college
phone ka battery is fucked up
laptop wont run shit
and they want me to makedo with the clothes i have jisme abhi color bhi chhut ne laga hai