u/AnnualTwo1701

Been with my twin flame for 12 years. He recently fell into drug habits about 3 years ago. The universe has constantly been pulling him back to me ever since. So much push and pull - hes the runner and im the chaser. Long story short he most recently went to jail for 8 months and got released in April. He called me the day before but i couldnt pick him up due to financial issues and distance. (he was a 7 hour drive) i asked him to call me when he got out. Its been 4 months and i haven't heard from him. I'm positive he relapsed but this has been super hard on me because i am feeling his pain/hurt so much. We have 3 kids together. I feel like I might need to let him go but I am unsure how to.... He has so much trauma and pain and I just want to love him but he pushes me away. At this point I dont know if hes even alive as this is the longest I havent heard from him.

my children's father is MIA for about 4 months now. This is the longest since I've heard from him. He got out of jail and I think he relapsed. Why does meth make people disappear and isolate? I've been having trouble navigating this emotionally.

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Love of my life, father to my children. He has been missing for 3 months. I've gotten mixed feedback from different people. I was just hoping someone could pick up anything. He was last seen in northern California and our last date of contact was 4/5 the night before he was released from custody.. Last date of food stamp use was 4/19. This is the longest period of no contact. He had no phone when he was out and i am a 7 hour drive away. is he alive? any feedback?

I met the love of my life 12 years ago. He was a meth addict before we met. He was sober (minus weed) and we had 3 beautiful children. Unfortunately in 2022 he relapsed. It has been an on going struggle. I've had to get restraining orders, hes been homeless, in jail and just in and out. I tried so long to help him, with me finally realizing i cant. Most recently he was incarcerated since August 2025 and got released in April 2026. He called me the day before release but i couldnt get him due to long distance and it being easter weekend. Ever since than, i havent heard from him. It's been almost 3 months and i am worried he went straight back to drugs and the streets. No one in his family has heard from him either (and yes they would tell me as we are very close). I have been the only one willing to hear him out, but im the only person he would always call even while on the streets. Im worried sick, sad, angry, lonely. I cant understand any of this. How can he just disappear? He didnt call for my 3 kids birthdays. When will this ever go away? I feel so attached to him, i feel i wont ever move on. I have seen him in almost a year and have spoken for 3 months, even before he called me we had spoken for 3 months before that. Every day seems harder and for some reason i tell myself if he called i would answer. How to get over this especially when we have children together?