u/Apprehensive-Cap2453

I'm not talking about the stuff with his daughter but more so the stuff with him lashing out at his employees. I know he died quite a while ago and it was before "cancel culture" and all that, but every story I've ever heard about that guy makes me so confused as to how he wasn't publicly outed way sooner. He would apparently explode at random people based on what they were wearing and even fire them on the spot, he would take credit for other people's ideas, he would randomly decide to back out of major nine-figure deals at the last minute because he simply wasn't feeling like it, he made a deal with other companies that they wouldn't hire each other's past employees, and he would bring up a person's personal trauma just to fuck with them and see if they were tough enough to work at his company, among so many other horrendous things. I don't think I've ever heard a positive story about him. Obviously most CEOs are pricks, but Jobs sounds like a whole other level.

When he died, everyone went on and on about how he was a genius and the world was now a much worse place without him. It took several years before the general consensus became that he was an asshole. Why was that the case? why was his shitty behaviour not revealed at some point in the 90s or 2000s? he seemed to have such a strong reputation until like 2015ish.

There's been a lot of complaining about Zoe's exit and for good reason. It's been handled really poorly, just like all of her storylines over the past year have been.

I have to say though, the aftermath episode yesterday was some of the best EastEnders I've seen in a while. When it started, I assumed they had skipped ahead and that everyone found out about her death off-screen, but then I realised Alfie didn't know yet. Say what you want, but Shane Richie's acting was absolutely incredible. The whole cast nailed it. The writing was also really strong, which is something I haven't been able to say for a very long time.

I can't remember the last time I've enjoyed a whole episode from beginning to end. I'm usually interested in one or two storylines at a time and find the other stuff to be a drag, but this episode was captivating all the way through. I loved it.

I've been taking Ashwagandha for the past two weeks and the effects have been wild so far. For the first week, it was just a cheap bottle of gummies I found in a random shop and I was taking one a day along with some Saffron. Interestingly, it didn't seem to have any effect whatsoever. The second week was a (slightly more professional looking) bottle of Ashwa that I found next to a bunch of vitamins and whatnot in a supermarket. When I tried the second brand, I started to notice a profound effect pretty quickly, but I wasn't sure if it was the expected placebo effect that comes with trying something new. I think it's genuinely been working though.

As someone who deals with extreme social anxiety and depression, it's been pretty insane feeling so much more...normal recently. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm nowhere near being "cured." My anxiety is still pretty bad, BUT I feel like I care a lot less. My thought loops are the same, but the feeling itself is different. It's a difficult thing to describe. I'm not constantly buzzing with joy or anything, but I just feel kinda numb. Not "numb" as in "I can't feel any emotions whatsoever and I'm on the path towards doing something dangerous" but just less reactive. Over the past week, I've gone from not being able to wear what I want outside due to fear of embarrassment to wearing sweatpants with holes in them because I fucking feel like it lol. I've noticed that I just kinda do things without stopping myself. Someone asked me a question earlier today and I not only gave a quick response back (which is what I would normally do) but I also expanded upon that and kept the conversation going in a room full of people. For me, that's extremely unusual.

This all probably sounds pretty dumb, but it's been a big step for me. I have no idea if this is going to continue or if my body will start getting used to it, but I'm having a great time right now. It feels like I'm finally making progress and not just rotting away.

So yeah, just wanted to share. Ashwagandha is the real deal.