u/Asshatforlife45

And its scaring me.

I wanted someone to talk to me becsuse im going through alot. Im angry becsuse I feel i cant talk to no one I feel sp ducking alone especially i dont have anymore am I turning worse

Edit: I want to think krowphace100 for talking to me. I heavily appreciated it

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I need to talk to someone on two things regarding SA. 1.)

as a survivor who is finally reporting tomorrow on an ex partner after almost a decade. I dont have a friend to go to because I am currently on a distance break from a friend who i live with, due to a disastrous trip we took to Germany. Few friends I have that I would talk about this I already talked about me living with said friend and everything else that happend. I feel if I keep asking for to update on more serious things it will support my friendd view that i am emotionally unstable.

He is thinking of cutting me off but claims to still want to be my friend. He intially advised me to wait a year to report my ex. I decided to do this while on vacation.

2.). That friend I live with has a love interest with someone with sexual assault allegations. I dont know how much thing this person has done other tha n what my friend told me. The guy is working on himself and is hiding. He has a sex addiction. Me and this friend had several arguments pertaining to this guy. Including that he picks and chooses who to tell about these allegations.

They both are withholding a mutual former partner and friend about this. Friend tells me his love interest should tell her himself. Doesn't know how she'll react because he states ' She is too overtly P.C"

Prefer someone is 25 and older

Hello,

I was flying with Aer Lingus, I used the disability services with a travel partner going from Dublin back to Chicago. I was all the way in the back of the plane despite having bad knees and a brace.

So far I was thinking they were nice until I got on said flight. I was watching the movie The Drama, and finished it and got emotional. I decided to go to the lavatory to decompress and have a cry.

I thought I heard laughing from the the crew and their area. Im also hard of hearing and I have an audio processing issue. I did not have my hearing aids on.

I was going to file a complaint and even asked a staff member to file one. But decided not to because I dont want to get someone fired.

I took a nap and woke up and I heard the crew talking how they talked to my friend/ travel partner and how according to them he said to them that " He told me he founded me sexy and he has been a mess and he was talking about his past having been SAND so that is why Im sitting away from them" To which it baffled me becsuse not once did he mention anything to me. Or I have never told him I found him sexy. We have been having several arguments including how he, even, before this trip has been extremely unfair to me , and despite him telling me Im one of his best friends, I feel he has been doing everything to hide me. But he can act caring snd nice but I get so hesitant asking him for anything because either way he will complain about it, he is known to act passive aggressive, etc.

So Im hearing from tje crew how they dont want to go near someone, debating to mention anything , not mention anything becsuse we were about to land. And it felt weird because I would try to ask them if everything was ok, am I causing issues? And they would say if anyone said anything, they were trying to be nice to me. And then I would hear them say how its confirmed ' they were tired, etc, stuff doesn't make sense, should we mention anything. So throughout the rest of the flight I'm going back and forth between ignoring them or not, and since I am in the back I'm trying to hear them and I'm also trying to assure myself maybe I am hearing things. Then I hear them try to lower their voices, because they saw me. And how Im just standing over there, how they dont want to go near me.Then I hear them complain how " I hope I dont get fired because of this"

Then I hear how they are going to place someone on the no fly list. They even brought their flight manager ( a more husky gentleman) to talk with them. I also see them doing calls.

At that point I'm trying to tell myself it's someone else. I know Im not doing anything.

Was anyone else on this flight?

I tried to make a complaint about this, but i tried to make it in a way I wasnt accusing anyone because I dont want anyone to get fired if it was someone else or a different situation.

I have a another issue like this with my travel partner but pertaining to Heathrow to Frankfurt with Lufthansa.

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Was advised fo post here

My friend and I are heading to Munich on the 4th getting there in the evening.

We decided to go clubbing there, which I wasn't familiar that Munich has a clubbing scene.

I know it won't be exactly the same as Berlin, but what is to be expected?

Do Clubs go as late as in Berlin?

Are drinks expensive? Is it LGBTQ friendly?

Dress code?

Would we, a mixed black Trans man and a Hmong Trans man be fine there?

Also would we be better off going to Berlin?

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Hello,

It's me again.

My friend and I are heading to Munich on the 4th getting there in the evening.

We decided to go clubbing there, which I wasn't familiar that Munich has a clubbing scene.

I know it won't be exactly the same as Berlin, but what is to be expected?

Do Clubs go as late as in Berlin?

Are drinks expensive? Is it LGBTQ friendly?

Dress code?

Would we, a mixed black Trans man and a Hmong Trans man be fine there?

Hello,

It's me again.

My friend and I are heading to Munich on the 4th getting there in the evening.

We decided to go clubbing there, which I wasn't familiar that Munich has a clubbing scene.

I know it won't be exactly the same as Berlin, but what is to be expected?

Do Clubs go as late as in Berlin?

Are drinks expensive? Is it LGBTQ friendly?

Dress code?

Would we, a mixed black Trans man and a Hmong Trans man be fine there?

My friend's German friend recommends we use the Flix bus from Wetzlar to Frankhurt but I am hearing the D pass is much more efficent.

I see the prices for the Flix busses and trains and they dont even have a pass. According to his friend the Flix trains and busses are faster and they cost less. But i look at the prices and it feels more expensive to pay per bus/ train ride than to get a pass that covers alot of the trains and buses.

I see the D pass covers all the trains and busses accept for the bullet trains and Flix buses and trains.

Which would be more cost effective and worth it? My friend told me his friend says Flix is faster and cheaper. But wouldnt it be more sensible to buy the D pass?

Edit: Sorry yall I meant Wetzlar!

Hello I am a mixed ( black and white) trans man who is visiting here for Pride. Sorry if this has been answered before.

Is there any places people recommend that are for black LGBTQIA folks?

I am 31, and a mixed black trans man. I have constant trauma my entire life. I had several times people had walked all over me, or I have affected others, or being misunderstood. I feel I have so much empathy and understanding of their side of things but they dont with mine. I have been called childish, being labled as stuck in high school, how I only " logically understand things", dangerous, sex addicted, addicted, stupid, naive, etc you name it.

Like if I do things to protect myself Im labled as childish, but then they act in high school behavior through gossping, gaslighting, and lying to my face blaming my mental health especially when I try to stick up for myself.

I will point out b.s in others and I am labled as intense. I try to listen to myself to keep to myself and not get close, I do thr opposite thinking " maybe it will be different " and then what you know same.thing happens and i blame myslef or acting a fawn response to make myself look bad to not make them look bad ( I learned its a thing I do for safety which I feel Ive known in my mind, but didnt know if thay what is was). I'm always the one impacted or affected by my action but those who have done me wrong never get their reprecussions. I felt so much shame and guilt for things for YEARS.

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I feel undermined for my effort at times. Shit, I graduated from my recent IOP program and I hear from both the group therapist and my IOP how only recently i have been improving and it feels like a bit of undermine, but I try not to care.. and before then my IOP therapist was treating me like I didnt want to do treatment, she even called the cops to my place when I didnt answer her call after emailing her saying I was tired and just needed sleep from going to group in the morning, going to my one person class, doing online courses, working on few 10-15 final papers, going to work, doing physical therapy, mind you I dont have a car. And ever since the cops were called my Turkish roommate acted even more distant with me..

My friend even commend me ( agreeing how I have been feeling more confident )and stating how people get stuck in shame was trying to take it as at least some form of compilment and recognition but I feel split on it? Am I being too senstive here?? I do feel like I am but also not? I do feel happy to be recognized as such, though.

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I just feel like I wish people would know I am very capable of things and a mature adult who has the emotional intelligence instead of thinking I am this naive, emotional, lazy man child. Assuming they know me how I am or think or feel about things. It's like everyday im constantly feeling I have to explain myself and I feel like an imposter despite my brain screaming at me otherwise. This isnt even getting to the whole gender dysphoria I feel at times.

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Im getting to the point I want to go fuck it, and stop catering to people and not give a fuck about being assertive ( not aggressive). But i dont want to push others away and scared of being alone again and not having a community to rely on. I have an extremely hard time keeping and making friends. Im tired of sticking around with people that are I feel are bad for my mental health .

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When I am distracted, and by myself, in a more healthy situation and when people are accountable ( like my younger sister) dont get as emotional, Im able to stick up for myself. I dont even think about except for " Wow my sister admited that... I feel I can consistently trust her", and then i go about my day feeling content.

I have trouble verbaling saying things and expressing them ever since I was a child ( my mom referred to it as jibber jabber).

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Am I ever going to feel happy and stable? Will i ever truely and completly forgive myself? Will I ever stop thinking of the past?

I have hope one day I will get to remission. I wonder if at my age it's too late? I feel I am growing and have been growing for a long time now that I'm in a somewhat healthy environment and finished my program. I try to congratulate/ comme d myself for being able to accomplish alot.

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TL:DR: I feel undermined in my efforts to clean especially with doing alot outside of the house, but I dont know if I am doing enough.

We had a house meeting with our landlord and we were discussing chores. We get assigned chores, but I feel it has become a problem. The second bathroom upstairs was assigned to a roommate that has recently moved out, and he never did anything. I deep cleaned the entire bathroom in January and even asked him if we can take turns and he didnt do anything. We also had another roommate that was barely there and also didnt do anything, he was the one who offered to get a new toliet seat, but he works at a ER.

. The toliet seat upstairs was finally fixed, as I put in in myself. I also recently wiped down the toliet, and then wiped down the sink, because I figure I might as well. I even wanted to clean the entire bathroom late at night, but I had group therapy in the morning.

At the meeting, I had asked why dont I clean the upstairs bathroom? I have been assigned the downstairs bathroom. And she just kinda stared at me and gave it to a different roommate who is new and couldnt make it to the meeting. She still assigned me the first floor bathroom, and I feel bad. Its like my brain screams at me to do something but I feel physically exhausted. I even asked my friend once and he rudely goes, " Because me and W shouldn't have to be doing everything " and I didnt say anything. W, who is a older white man stated how him and my friend do about 80% of the shoveling, a task assigned to me. Its not like i didnt want to do the shoveling, its more like, by the time i get the energy to do so, or I come home W or my friend is doing it themselves. And i feel this sense of dread because I know they are going to complain about it and claim they did it themselves I hate when they do my chores, and I know they probably think Im being lazy and that I'm not clean.

I offered to clean the entire fridge, because my friend and I have to switch to the second fridge. Our lady bitched in the group chat how it should've been handled two weeks ago. Again me and my friend have both been busy.

This is not the first time I did this. He asked but I told him I would do it because it kept me focused because we had an argument that day, but thats not relevant to this subreddit. Only time I had him help was to rinse off the shelving I wiped with soap and water. He is mostly focusing on making a bracelet for his friend for his bday. He goes into the group chat mentioning to the landlord about the fridge. At first I did get a little annoyed he didnt mention how I did most of the cleaning, especially after the landlord thanked him for it. But im like you know what that is not relevant, Im just happy it's done.

So my roommate / friend has pointed out my cleanliness before and I get confused because I wash his and mine dishes and wipe the counters in the kitchen. But he always go how he likes to keep his bathroom clean. His level of clean is like if nobody lives there. He says he is hesitant to move out with me because it and mentioned my old room and doesnt know how clean it is. Thing is he had his friend come over to help him clean his room. I had cleaned that room by myself in January but I was still under alot of stress etc to maintain it.

My friend could didnt come in to at least keep my company while I cleaned mine. Though when I needed to switch rooms he and a mutual friend, helped me switch over things. I have come in his room at times, ( he lets me, there is a hangout area he has, lets me come in there while he is away or ifnI ask), when he is organzing his room. I cant say he does the same for me but it might be different. I asked him once and we both ended up being tired.

He also told me in front of the roommate that recently moved out how I forget to do chores and need a reminder in front of the roommate that recently moved out. My friend mind you has long COVID and ADHD. I also have ADHD and on the spectrum. We both get executive dysfunction. I dont remind him things because I know he will get to it. He really doesnt do the same for me.

From that point on, the other roommate would send me texts that dishes are in the sink. He even got mad at me a few times. I went to study aboard for two weeks and have never done it before, and was stressed on not having money, getting stranded in France, and not having cell service I forgot to ask someone in the house to take out the trash while I am gone. I come back to the house with tons of dishes piled up, and this roommate sends a picture of said dishes. Mind you he forgets to do his dishes and wipe down counters. I did them anyway.

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I have struggles with maintaining chores because I get easily tired. I learned recently its a vitamin D deficiency. Not to mention I have been trying to deal with my mental health, dealing with my physcial health, going to school, doing health appointments all with no car. I take a 30+ min ride with the community rideshare, and then an hour+ bus ride to campus. And then back, sometimes I dont get home until 3+ hours later especially in the winter.

I wish my efforts were recognized sometimes, but I know I could be doing more. I just dont liek.being perceived as not doing my part. i also feel terrible most if not all the time that I cant just bounce up and clean all the time. I also dont want my roommates to do things for me or say ' Oh look you finally did this". I dont want to feel like im doing it because they told me to, rather than me wanting to clean. In fact when I do chores I feel a sense of accomplishment and worth that I went through and did what I needed to do.

Im finally have less on my plate, outside the house. School ended for the year, im finishing my group therapy program, and Im now on LOA and doing physical therapy.

Idk am I making excuses?

I also apologise if this isnt as organized

Back in March I had another mental health emergency because I stuipidly admited to a IOP program that I attempted to a psychiatrist, and it was my second day in the program. It was last minute and was about to go home and they told me I had two choices between inpatient or have the cops sent to my house. They told me I could not go home and i was extremely pissed because I had work that weekend. They did not give me a clear answer to how many days I would be in inpatient. I had to quickly make a Sedgwick claim on my phone and I had no access to my phone for 4 days. I came home on a day I already was late for work for one day.

Now I get a call from Sedgwick telling me that I cant even file that claim as intermittent because i dont have 1100 work hours. My points have increased since then from 2.0 to now 4.5 because I have been feeling sick, and now I am on another leave because both of my knees and my feet have been hurting so bad I had to get an injection and partake in physical therapy. I have doctors noted for both LOA claims. For the last claim Sedgwick advised me to call the facility.

I only got 1 15 min break if I worked 4 hours, 1 30 for 5 1/2 to 6 and 2 15s and 1 hour break 7 at my store. And the last time they never enlisted a break and my Coach keeps stating how " We like to make sure your break is in the middle of the shift". I think my Coaches want me fired. I have to sit at times and use a ice pack for both knees as told by my doctor.

Im currently looking for a new job that isnt as physically demanding plus the issues of how Walmart is running things and the strain of working retail. I understand the job market is terrible right now and my friends and everyone around me. Including my DVR person keeps encouraging me to stay at Walmart until I find something. But every time I have done that it has lead to burn out and then I get fired.

Im worried its going to happen again so Im heavily considering quitting ( which I have been thinking about for a few months). I'm just tired, I feel so defeated.

Idk what to do.

I honestly don't have a lot of friends and my reputation is so bad no one wants to deal with me . Even people younger than me and complete strangers know about me when they see me in public. People would have conversations about me as if I was this big talking point. I felt constantly watched and judged.

I always felt I knew I did wrong but no one never heard my perspective. I'm always seems as someone who has to be accountable yet I keep fucking up. People are scared to be around me or are cautious of me. People justified me being bullied because in their eyes " it wasn't really bullying". No one from my past wants to associate with me.

I had to survive a D.V relationship with a man who.threatend to kill me and my family ,rape, child abuse, family abuse, cyber bullying, revenge porn, bullying in college, and homelessness; alot I had to deal by myself because I chased everyone away. I had no one my side

I ran to another state for 5 years I coped with weed a lot after my DV. it's gotten better and I mainly use edibles now. But people think Im on much harder drugs.

I have attempted suicide multiple times. The one time I almost succeeded it felt very calm. And since then nothing has ever made me feel as calm as when blacked out after O'D on pills.

I have a lot of mental health issues and is possibly on the spectrum.and BPD. I have constant PTSD and frequently freeze and fawn. I get flashbacks including how I treated people, and lots of very traumatizing events that happend to me.

Im in a situation where once again I have a person who tolerates me and treats me like I'm super sensitive. I feel I dont know how to view this person, despite talking to therapists about him.

Last time I mentioned about this person, i suspect he overheard me talkabout a post I said about him on reddit ( we live together). I cant tell if I feel disrespected or I am splitting.

I need to talk to someone because I feel alone. Idk what it will solve. I know that the problem is me and that I'm most likely feeling sorry because of how my actions are being known by other people. Whenever I had tried to work on myself I got placed in another situation where I got triggered and I reacted poorly.

I'm just insanely tired of having to defend myself. I can say all I want that I have tried to be accountable but if that were true I'd have more people in my life to rely on.

Please be around my age.

Lately working OGP has been getting harder in ways I didn’t expect. Ever since the new pull rule, it’s been a struggle just to do basic things. The carts are way harder to control and I’ve had multiple issues even when I’m not going fast : knocking items down, bumping into aisles, struggling to turn, and having carts randomly stop or spin mid-aisle. I’ve even had to take weird routes just to avoid hitting people.

And it’s not just me. Other coworkers have been ignoring the rule too because of how difficult it is.

The biggest problem is my knees. They’ve been hurting bad, especially my left one. I’ve been pushing through it because I’m scared of losing my job, but it’s gotten to the point where I’ve had to sit in the bathroom just to get a few minutes of relief. One day I sat for 10 minutes near the end of my shift because I literally couldn’t keep going.

We only get one 15-minute break on 4–5.5 hour shifts (which is really more like 10 minutes), and it doesn’t feel like enough time to recover before going right back out. Even with longer shifts and a lunch, I’m still struggling between physical pain, getting overstimulated, and other health issues.

I just got back from medical leave not that long ago, and I’m still pretty new (hired during the holidays), so I feel like I can’t say anything without it looking like I don’t want to work. I already feel like I’m overextending myself just to prove I’m not lazy.

On top of that, I’m dealing with school, finances, and everything else on my own, no car, and I’m constantly exhausted. I only work three days right now and I still feel drained, which makes me feel guilty.

I’m grateful I have this job, and picking itself isn’t even that hard. It’s everything around it that’s wearing me down. Im constantly worried as being perceived like I dont want to work or taking advantage, even though I know I'm not trying to do that.

I just feel stuck between needing the job and feeling like it’s slowly messing me up physically.