u/Basic_Egg_5281

My self concept is pretty good but overall I have sm trouble with identity shifting… shifting to the person that has the version of the sp that I want. Yes my sp wants me but whenever we’re in contact he’s just so ignorant and not the version of him I want. It’s giving f boy and he’s always lying. Yes I have him back and had him begging for another chance but I don’t want to be with someone who’s a liar.

I believe I’m always chosen and I’m amazing and whatever but I also have the deep rooted belief that the guys I want don’t rlly like me back and if they do it won’t last. Or that if we do date they’ll still be stuck in their old ways (like sp)

He was practically begging me to take him back but he was being a liar, a bit misogynistic, and overall just bad… like he was trying but the real him makes it hard for it to be the way I wanted it to be. Idk how to get into detail without not getting into too much detail but yes he likes me but the way he is isn’t good. How do I manifest a good mature version of him? Him to change?

Hello, what does the Texas rda exam look like? What should I study the most

Idk if I could say “I lost him again” but the situation we were in was unfavorable so I cut him off. Idk if I did the right thing. I only want to accept the end I want. Please tell me if I overreacted. I feel like maybe I assumed the worst when what happened happened

So we were fwb and he had me blocked. I wanted a real relationship and for him to unblock me.

Well… that’s what happened. He unblocked me and said he wanted a relationship with me once I told him I’m now looking for a relationship.

Things were great. Right after work he’d call me and we’d fall asleep tg on the phone. He always called when he could.

I told him I wanna wait for sex and he said he’s in no rush. I was worried he only wanted sex bc we started off as fwb

So our first date I feel like he could’ve got me drunk to sleep with him but idk? I got drunk at the bar and he started becoming more touchy. He then said I can cool off in the car which I thought was weird but idk.

We ended up sleeping tg😓

Idk I didn’t rlly want to but to be fair if I said no he probably would’ve agreed to no intimacy. I’m not trying to paint him out as a bad guy but I did have a feeling he got me drunk for a higher chance of that happening… idky I didn’t say no when I didn’t want to. I guess I just wanted him to feel good idk. Not saying he’s a bad guy bc how is he supposed to know my thoughts? Maybe he thought I wanted the same thing and changed my mind on wanting intimacy but idk

immediately after he dropped me off, I texted him sayinf I felt like he got me drunk to sleep with him and how I said I wanted to hold off on sex. It just upset me at the time but now I’m thinking ab it and it’s not his fault bc even tho I didn’t want it, I did go along with it and I could’ve said no. He can’t tell what I’m thinking but at the same time I feel like he could’ve wanted me to get drunk so we have a higher chance of doing stuff idk. it’s not his fault tho since I could’ve said no but chose not to even if I didn’t want to

so yeah rn idk what to do with my sp😭I manifested him back…with what I wanted and I got him back but then that happened…it made me think that he just wanted me for intimacy so I cut him off but now I’m starting to wonder if I did the right thing/overracted bc I thought his intentions were bad or that I didn’t manifest the version of him I wanted