HAPPY DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!

Happy July to all disabled ppl :3
Personally im level 2 autistic, probably with ADHD, and i have severe anxiety if that counts. I also have dyspraxia and hypotonia so its a bit hard for me to move around lol

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u/BasilikStudios — 2 days ago

Im so fucking scared.

Im going to animation school next year and of course im overjoyed bc im finally gonna study something i actually enjoy. HOWEVER. Im terrified bc no matter what I do in social situations idk why but i feel like i always end up left out bc OF COURSE im always gonna be left out. Even when i think i found likeminded ppl they still seem to not like me as much. Like i literally struggle to interact even with OTHER AUTISTIC PEOPLE thats how bad it is. Im starting to think the problem isnt my autism its me.
Plus im sure everyone there will be cool kids. Weird kids but like the cool kind of weird. While im just the loser kind of weird, the kind that makes people uncomfortable and annoyed. Im a social disaster. I know whats gonna happen it will be the same as every time, I will try so hard to get even a bit of affection from other ppl while they all become close friends with each other and talk all the time and invite each other while I’ll never be the first choice. And then ill end up trying too hard which will make people hate me EVEN MORE bc im too self centered and needy. Chat i might be cooked.
And whats worse is that I have no one to talk to abt this stuff bc my parents dont take me seriously and just scolded me bc others have it worse and my friends are tired of listening to me talk about myself.
I hate myself so much i hate myself I hate myself i will always fucking end up alone

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u/BasilikStudios — 2 days ago

Hazbin sourcecall

Helloooooooo im kinda missing my sourcemates so uhhhhh sourcecall time!!
Mostly looking for Cherri kins, Emily kins and Egg Bois kins (even tho idk if ill ever find anyone who kins them loll) but anyone PLEASE interact!
Doubles are okay!

u/BasilikStudios — 3 days ago

I think i miss my eggs :(

Recently I’ve been having a lot of parental feelings (even tho i dont even want kids) and I think I kinda miss my egg bois (sourcemates) bc they were basically like my adoptive kids. We used to cuddle so much :(
I wanna find my egg bois again but i dont even know if anyone kins them :(

u/BasilikStudios — 3 days ago

Uhm… guys? What exactly is this feeling? …is that a shift?

Okay so I just watched the pilot ep of my source after years of putting it off bc it kinda… triggers some feelings i can’t identify? Anyway i finally watched it bc im currently trying to explore my kin identity, maybe uncover memories or get a clearer idea of whether or not i had a past life.
And… i don’t know how to explain it, but I felt a really strange feeling in my mind and body. Maybe comparable to physical effects of stress, but even that is not a very accurate description. I know you won’t really be able to help me if i don’t explain more clearly, but i really can’t put it into words 😭
Yeah it gave me this weird physical/mental feeling that i can’t describe, especially when my kintype was on screen. I don’t know what that means, maybe it just means im being weird about it, but,,, yeah. Im thinking maybe that was a shift but it kinda went away now, it was really intense when i was watching the ep but now its mostly gone. I don’t really know what is a shift and how to recognize when you get one, I don’t even know if i ever had shifts (i think i have, but i don’t know what even qualifies and how to recognize one), so im a bit lost.
That was a really weird feeling to experience but at the same time it wasn’t completely unpleasant? I hope i can find ways to trigger something like that again because now im feeling more connected to my kin right now and it feels kinda good.

(Not gonna lie I feel so cringe saying this and im scared of just being delusional 😭😭)

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u/BasilikStudios — 3 days ago

My very first Kandi bracelets!!

Im so proud of myself :3
i made them while listening to my scene playlist, life is good
Those on the 2nd slide are inspired by my fictotype!

u/BasilikStudios — 4 days ago

Kin-inspired Kandi!!!

The 2nd one is a bit hard to read, it says « im a good boy now » (as a reference to one of my lines in s2)
I listened to my scene playlist while making these. Life is good.

u/BasilikStudios — 4 days ago

Kintype-inspired outfit (loosely)

I tried my best to find something that matches my canon « vibe » with what i had in my wardrobe, and honestly im pretty happy with it!

u/BasilikStudios — 5 days ago

DAE have STRONG headcanons about their kintypes?

Okay so I don’t know if any of this makes sense but here we go:
Personally I’ve pretty much always headcanoned Pentious as autistic, mostly bc im autistic myself and I was discovering it when i first watched the show. Before kinfirming him, my reasoning behind this was mostly « im autistic and i heavily relate to him so it would make sense that hes autistic ». I mean I could list so many things in the show that make me think hes autistic (his social awkwardness, his special interest in building, the t rex arms…) but we’d be here all day x)
But like, usually when i have a headcanon abt a character, it doesn’t feel that strong, like sometimes i see a character (that i dont kin) and i think « yea this characters definitely autistic » but i don’t really have any feelings attached to it ykwim? Like, its just something i think, with no strong intuition behind it? I mean it makes sense that this HC feels more personal bc it’s about ME as opposed to being about a character I have no ties to, but idk I feel like it’s the truth, that it’s undeniable in my mind, that I just somehow KNOW he is autistic like I am in this life, and it just really feels stronger than a normal headcanon. I feel so silly (in a bad way) and ‘cringe’ for even saying this and caring so much and idk if i make sense.
Ive been thinking, maybe this is some kind of kin memory, if that even counts? Like, how I just have an undeniable intuition about a fact about my kintype, so maybe it counts as a memory? Or it could just be me projecting? I don’t even know if im a past life kin but I’ve recently been having a sort of intuition that i was him at some point, but im still not sure. I really like the idea though.
Does anyone experience something similar?

u/BasilikStudios — 6 days ago

SO HAPPY

YAYAYAYAYAYAY im almost done with school i just need to do an oral exam and then im FREEEEEE FOREVER!!!!!!! And then im gonna move away to Paris to study animation!!!!!!!! Im FINALLY gonna study something i actually chose instead of something that im forced to attend!! I had so much trouble with school (tbh i had good grades but it was so hard to get things done bc of my (possible) adhd) bc i was just not interested and physically couldn’t bring myself to work, but now IM ACTUALLY GONNA STUDY MY PASSION TO FULFILL MY DREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One day im gonna become a famous professional animator and make famous cartoons mark my words >:3c
Im gonna live alone!!! Well not completely alone I will have a caretaker to help me with everyday tasks bc of my autism but STILL!!!!
IM SO HAPPY THIS IS A BRAND NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE I CANT WAITTTT
YIPPEEE

u/BasilikStudios — 14 days ago

Ita bag!!!

Ita bag of my fav character ever (Sir Pentious) bc I relate to him a looooot and I headcanon him as autistic like me which brings me comfort and when I see him I feel like im looking at myself :DD he is very dear to me and he is literally me

u/BasilikStudios — 15 days ago