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Oh my god im gonna kinfirm him aren’t i…… oh well. I can always dekinfirm later.
Any gameoverse kins pls interact!!! I know u guys are there /silly

So yeah i might be Fold Gameoverse. I know i said i would wait until episode 2 comes out to kinfirm or not, but animation takes time and I’m not very patient. So AMA! The weird thing is that it feels like Pentious (my highest kin and only kin atm) is the one who kins him. Like maybe i kin him, but « i » specifically as Pentious. Idk. Brain weird.
Oh and also this is also an AMA as Anxiety from inside out because I’m a copinglink of her! (I voluntarily identify as her for coping reasons)
Ask me questions as Fold, as Anxiety, or both if you want! In any case, I’ll reply with a question for you!

MY BABIES……….. MY BEAUTIFUL PRECIOUS BOYS!!!!!! AUGHHHHH
I love my eggs so much. They’re my kids. My babies. They’re so smol i have to protect them.
I miss cuddling with them :’)

Tastes so good…….. it’s like sour candy……….

Original pic on second slide

Im lowk so hyperfixated on myself lately like wtf

Hello its me sir pentious from hit show hazbin hotel

(Im sorry if this doesn’t fit the sub btw, please tell me if so)

Okay so, I saw a post on the fictionkin subreddit asking what does fictionkin mean. I looked at the comments and this person seemed pretty much unwilling to learn, despite being told what it means, and that it can be spiritual or psychological (im going to focus only on the psychological part bc its my experience and idk much about spirituality), and then I saw them saying “well psychology would say it doesn’t exist”. I’m still trying to figure out wtf did they even mean by that. Why would psychology say that involuntarily identifying as a fictional character wouldnt exist? The human brain is very much creative enough to do that.

So of course, as a psychological fictkin who loves to yap about themself, I decided to join the conversation because i was already feeling spiteful. I share my own experience as to my psychological kin identity (as shown in the pic), and then they call it “roleplaying as a comfort character” (I’m already fuming), and “nothing psychological” (this is probably what makes me the most angry about this).

I didn’t reply i just blocked them, cause I knew it would be a waste of time and energy, but omg i need to rant because i am fuming. Despite me explaining that I believe my identity is psychological, and related to my autism and the identity issues i had at the time, they have the nerve to say “nothing psychological”.

Okay, for starters, let’s pretend for a second that my identity is just “roleplaying as a comfort character” (which it is not), why would it not be anything psychological to even have a comfort character that I “roleplay as” to cope with my autism and identity issues? Do they even know what psychological means?

And I also wonder why it seems so hard to understand that your brain can project onto a fictional character you relate to, especially when (in my case) you have a pretty fragile and still forming sense of self, so your brain wants to solidify your sense of identity, right? And it projects so hard that you actually identify as this character now, and it becomes a part of your identity. As I said in my comment, we shouldn’t underestimate the human brain. Maybe by “psychology says it doesn’t exist”, they meant that it’s not a known psychological phenomenon, there are no studies about it, etc. But there are still so many aspects of psychology we don’t know about! We’re far from knowing everything about the human brain!

Anyway I really needed to rant. I have a special interest in psychology so when i start to yap about it im not stopping.
I pretty much know I’m not just “roleplaying”, but it gave me a bit of imposter syndrome unfortunately. Another reason i needed to rant about it.

Hehehehehe im so proud of myself I love it so muchhhh
The song is My Machine by Paranoid DJ (it is a banger and gives me so much kinfeels) I love it so much!!!!
Lowk feel super connected now i think im shifted??

(This made me realize that I had SO MUCH AURA in the pilot-)

Obviously this is exaggerated for comedic and simplicity purposes, but it kinda happened like that. I didn’t realize i had formed a kin in the moment (I thought i just liked pentious a lot) but it was a feeling that something clicked in my brain in that instant, even though i didn’t consciously know what it was yet

Idk if thats normal. Its a very strange feeling and very hard to describe, but im gonna try anyway. It often doesn’t feel like that, its actually pretty rare for me, but for example when i watch clips of the pilot episode of my source, or when I listen to the fansong i love (im actually making an edit of that song, thats why I thought of making this post), i get like a sense of dread, its mostly a physical feeling in my chest or my stomach, like when you get slight stomach pains from stress, and i feel really connected to my kin i guess? Idk, I’ve been labeling these as strong kinfeels. I like this word because its vague. I don’t know why some media of me do this to me while most don’t. It’s not a very pleasant feeling but at the same time i enjoy feeling connected to my kin and often find myself seeking that feeling of connection. It’s pretty complex. Sorry if this is hard to understand, i did my best to put it into words.
Anyone else feels this way?

Ask me anything i guess c:

I look like my brain is empty but its actually the exact opposite. Adhd brain wont shut up :’)

Hi everyone, I brought cookiesssss!!

Im Sir Pentious from Hazbin Hotel, im a psychological fictionkin, im 17yo and also im autistic (moderate support needs) with adhd plus i have a lot of anxiety and rejection sensitive dysphoria so im gonna ask u guys to please be patient with me :’3 im still learning, i might make social mistakes

Im sssso happy to meet you all!!

And i almost never even look at them bro its just for the joy of collecting more and more pics of him i love him so much he is me he brings me comfort aaaaaaaaaa

I love my eggs so so much!!!
(I know i got their design wrong i drew them from memory-)

For the most part i think im a psychological fictionkin. I like the idea that I was Pentious in a past life, it’s a fun and comforting idea, but I think in my case it’s more likely that I’m a kin because of psychological reasons, such as my neurodivergences and mental illnesses, which made my brain go « okay thats me now » upon seeing him. Especially because i first watched hazbin at a time when i had a lot of identity issues from being a then-undiagnosed autistic person, and Pentious was the first character that felt like I was looking in a mirror. I saw so much similarities between him and me, and it really felt like seeing… me.

And I’m fine with being a psychological fictionkin. I always labeled my identity as psychological, but i used to feel like I was less valid if I wasn’t spiritual, so i guess i maybe felt some sort of pressure, but I’m starting to accept myself. I used to be very misinformed about psychological kins, for some reason I thought you couldn’t have memories or shifts if you were a psychological kin. But now that I did more research and interacted with the community, I’m more open-minded and educated.

So the way I see it, my brain decided one day that Pentious was me, and I was him. He became a very important part of my identity and an important comfort character and coping mechanism for me. I’m not very canon divergent at all, I’m very canon compliant, but I don’t think im 100% canon compliant, because the part of myself that is him, is mostly based on my own perception of the character, the fan content I consume or make, and my own life experiences and issues. So that’s why I think my canon is something my brain has slowly been constructing over the years, and still is constructing, based on all these things. I dont see a lot of differences with the actual canon, but I’m starting to get tiny « memories », based on the perception my brain is creating.
My strongest mem/headcanon is that I was autistic as him, just like in this life. I just know it deep in my soul XD And also I guess I’m kind of partly unconsciously, partly consciously building my own canon in my head. For example I like to think I got an autism diagnosis in Heaven, and I wrote a fanfic about it, so I guess I consider it part of my canon now, even though I consciously decided it.

Also my relationship with some sourcemates was a little bit different, though not by much, than in the show, for example Emily and Cherri were a little bit more chill, Emily was a bit less hyper and listened to me more, and Cherri was a bit less harsh with me. Because that’s how I instinctively write them in fanfiction. And also I was a lot less harsh with my Eggs and was a lot more gentle with them.

I guess it’s a bit sad because those versions of my sourcemates only exist in my brain, so that means I guess I’ll never find them out there, only people whose memories are similar. On the other hand, this realization is very calming and freeing for me, because I’m realizing I don’t have to worry that much about faking, and it’s okay for me to talk about my canon and memories as if they really happened, because even though I believe they’re only in my brain, they still feel « real » to me. Just because it’s in my mind doesn’t mean I’m lying.
I don’t know if anyone’s gonna read my rambling, idk if it makes sense, but i feel better now that I wrote this. Feel free to share your own experience if you relate