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Is there any tool, site, or method to check them? I want to study what creators are posting as trial reels

Is there any tool, site, or method to check them? I want to study what creators are posting as trial reels

Is there any tool, site, or method to check them? I want to study what creators are posting as trial reels

My girlfriend broke up with me 2.5 months ago after being together for 2.5 years, and the pain still feels the same as day 1.

I hurt her a lot. I took her for granted. I messed up. She loved me genuinely and I acted like an asshole sometimes. It was my first real relationship, the first time I truly felt loved by someone. I had been with other women before her, but nothing even came close to what I had with her.

I grew up pretty messed up emotionally. My mom left when I was 2, my household was chaotic, I was never close to my dad, and most people I thought were my friends eventually left too. So I became used to being alone. But then she came into my life and loved me in a way I had never experienced before.

And I ruined it.

Since she left, I’ve genuinely been trying to become a better person. I started therapy. I go for runs in the morning, gym in the evening, I’ve tried social gatherings, meeting new people, even hooking up, but none of it fills this emptiness.

Today especially, it hit me hard again. I miss her so much. I wish I could fix things. I wish I had realized earlier what I had.

I feel alone. I feel like I’m drowning in regret and guilt all the time. I don’t know how to move forward when the person you hurt was also the person who made life feel okay for the first time.

How do you forgive myself when I was the reason I lost the person I loved the most?

My girlfriend broke up with me 2.5 months ago after being together for 2.5 years, and the pain still feels the same as day 1.

I hurt her a lot. I took her for granted. I messed up. She loved me genuinely and I acted like an asshole sometimes. It was my first real relationship, the first time I truly felt loved by someone. I had been with other women before her, but nothing even came close to what I had with her.

I grew up pretty messed up emotionally. My mom left when I was 2, my household was chaotic, I was never close to my dad, and most people I thought were my friends eventually left too. So I became used to being alone. But then she came into my life and loved me in a way I had never experienced before.

And I ruined it.

Since she left, I’ve genuinely been trying to become a better person. I started therapy. I go for runs in the morning, gym in the evening, I’ve tried social gatherings, meeting new people, even hooking up, but none of it fills this emptiness.

Today especially, it hit me hard again. I miss her so much. I wish I could fix things. I wish I had realized earlier what I had.

I feel alone. I feel like I’m drowning in regret and guilt all the time. I don’t know how to move forward when the person you hurt was also the person who made life feel okay for the first time.

How do you forgive myself when I was the reason I lost the person I loved the most?