u/CaptainUtin

First of all- as an Israeli the name Malka Levanna is 🤢

I have been following her for years- since she was actively posting about her conversion. It was a huge topic for her.
Recently I looked up Bal Teshuva and a video of hers came up where she said she’s a BT, which confused me.
I obsessively did a deep dive (all the way to the end) and it appears she deleted all videos about her conversion, as if she’s hiding it!
But she did leave a video making fun of her “Jew nose” which I think is a little messed up for someone not ethnically Jewish 🧐

Anyways, that’s my tea. I never really liked her but I was always fascinated if that makes sense

Been casually, trying for two years, testing ovulation for five months.
In those five months, I’ve only ovulated once.

I have PCOS

I’ve been doing everything right, my diet and exercise and just everything. I wish I had the same chances as everyone else.

I know this gets posted all the time

I have been following ToT for years- one of the earlier followers.

I immediately bonded to her as I have been dealing with infertility for 5+ years, and she made me feel like I was not going through it alone. She also said we had the same diagnosis and had a whole hour story about it.

We began messaging, and found out she lives a 5 minute walk from my husbands family. We began messaging and she always seemed off, and very confrontational, but also asked me to bring her stuff?? I never met her irl though.

I deleted IG for a few months and came back to find her in her third tri, I literally cried of happiness. At this point my life feels empty and my infertility is controlling everything.

I messaged her a very heartfelt message to congratulate her, and how she gave me so much hope with my diagnosis. To which she responded “ I do not have that diagnosis, and I will not be talking about my diagnosis online.”

I then quickly responded to apologize for bringing up her medical history, and that I only did because of what I’m going through, and her response was “this is not an infertility page”

I’m just feeling a little hurt, especially when you make your entire identity about infertility online and share intimate details, like it’s hard for me to imagine that you’re strict about those boundaries when you yourself have crossed them constantly every day.

Not to mention, since she’s had her son, all mentions of infertility are gone, besides to tease us with a possible diagnosis in the future. As a fertility nurse, I have a couple of hunches. I would think that she would at least try to send some positive messages to those of us who have been struggling, and try and support us because she’s now doing to us what she complained about for so many years

I think she just confirmed to me what I have secretly felt all along, she is very power and fame hungry.

Hi!
How do people handle boredom? I have a 7 month old NK who is very content to just be, and play by himself. I do interact with him a lot, but I feel independent play is very valuable.
This is the first time I’m on camera 24/7, and can’t take my NK anywhere.
My shifts are also between 8-14 hours.
Any advice?
Any time I have Nannied a baby ther was always at least one toddler in the mix which kept things interesting.
The family also doesn’t give me chores even when I asked for them.

I have pcos, so my cycles range from 60-120 days

I confirmed an LH peak, that was accompanied by cervical mucus.
I have been testing my pdg since 3 DPO using the easy @ home strips, as well as getting a blood draw. So far they have all been negative, and not getting progressively more positive 😭
The first two DPO I had breast soreness, that went away 3 DPO and now I have 0 symptoms.
Is it possible I didn’t ovulate?

I have pcos, so my cycles range from 60-120 days

I confirmed an LH peak, that was accompanied by cervical mucus.
I have been testing my pdg since 3 DPO using the easy @ home strips, as well as getting a blood draw. So far they have all been negative, and not getting progressively more positive 😭
The first two DPO I had breast soreness, that went away 3 DPO and now I have 0 symptoms.
Is it possible I didn’t ovulate?

I had all the ovulation symptoms, dark LH strip, cervical mucus, no temp though.
A couple days after it went down.
Today I tested my LH at night for fun, and it looked like it was starting to get darker again.
Does that mean I didn’t ovulate?
It was 0.27 on the Premom app

Hi!
I have been making lifestyle changes for the last four months as well as myoinositol.
I have been testing ovulation for the last month and a half (I get three or four periods a year) and I got a positive LH test today!!! I had a period mid June.
However, I have zero other symptoms. No cervical mucus, no sore boobs, nada.
Could this be a false positive?

Just as my title asks.
I’m wondering if anyone ever notice a difference after cutting things like nonstick pans, or fragrances.
I’m trying to figure out if making my life inconvenient will be worth it

Hi everyone
I have had a herniated disc since the age of 14, at 28. Ia chunk finally ripped out and lodged in my recess nerve canal, so we did a micro discectomy on my L4 L5.
I was amazing and pain-free after, which unfortunately led me to do bad movements and re-herniated it a couple months later, so I had a revision

I’m now 10 months from my revision, I’m still in a significant amount of muscular pain I’m wondering if this will ever go away I’m so defeated

Hey everyone, I need some encouragement
I don’t ovulate, at least I’ve been taking LH strips with no positives ever. I get two or three periods a year, and I’ve never been pregnant despite years of unprotected sex.
My BMI is 32.6 which I’m working a lower, I’m a very active person and I eat decently.
I just really need some success stories or advice because the online world seems to focus on negativity

Hi folks
I’m about to turn 30, I have PCOS and don’t ovulate. I’m doing a lot to take care of my health, however, even with that I will definitely need fertility interventions.
I married the love of my life almost 4 years ago, and I truly never thought of Prince charming like this could exist.
I’m currently in the process of trying to complete nursing school, it should take another year and a half or two years.
Until I do, I’m nannying full-time for many different families as well as running a dog boarding business in my house. My husband just started a company which will pay out the costs a lot of money in the beginning.
I feel like I’m losing my mind, especially since I started nannying three years ago, I just want a child so bad sometimes I just cry and cry.
I feel like I might actually lose my mind, I did have a mini manic episode a year ago when two of my friends who were on the fence announced their pregnancies to me on the same day, I couldn’t sleep for a week.
Waiting is agony, I’ve wanted to be a mom my whole life, I’m doing everything I can in the meantime, like balancing my hormones as well as getting my body strong so I can carry my children with ease. I listen to parenting, talks and nannying, as well as working in a preschool. I’m also learning to cook and clean and take care of my house better for when the day comes.
I know that 30 is still young, it feels like most people are starting at 35 where I am because it’s a high cost of living area, but when you want three or four kids and have fertility problems. It’s scary.
Rant over. It’s just the thing I want most in this world, and it’s definitely the most meaningful and important thing. A person can do, yet everyone seems to get it but me.

I have had a herniated disc since 14, I will always have it. I have had two microdiscectomys- best decision I ever met.

I used to be a big time contributor to this group, just a reminder when people heal they stop participating here, so don’t let all the negativity make you think that this is forever, because that’s what happened to me.

I will always have some degree of pain/maintanence, but it’s totally okay.

That’s all folks, listen to Stuart McGill if you can.

Hi everyone

I have known about my PCOS since the age of 13. All the classic symptoms, beard, acne, huge gut skinny legs, and surgery to remove 6 ovarian cysts
From the ages of 17-23 I had 4 different boyfriends all of whom I had unprotected sex with, and never got pregnant. (Stupid on my end of course)
My husband and I want to start trying in a year (I’m 29) and I recently started trying to get my hormones in check, for the last two months I’ve been eating healthy and exercising.
Last year on my labs came back as completely normal, except for elevated testosterone which was 85 (normal was supposed to be under 45)
Today I got checked and my testosterone is 35, and everything else is normal as well. So I’m hopeful, but also cautious.
I guess I’m posting to see if anyone is similar to me and what they experienced.

Hi everyone

I have known about my PCOS since the age of 13. All the classic symptoms, beard, acne, huge gut skinny legs, and surgery to remove 6 ovarian cysts
From the ages of 17-23 I had 4 different boyfriends all of whom I had unprotected sex with, and never got pregnant. (Stupid on my end of course)
My husband and I want to start trying in a year (I’m 29) and I recently started trying to get my hormones in check, for the last two months I’ve been eating healthy and exercising.
Last year on my labs came back as completely normal, except for elevated testosterone which was 85 (normal was supposed to be under 45)
Today I got checked and my testosterone is 35, and everything else is normal as well. So I’m hopeful, but also cautious.
I guess I’m posting to see if anyone is similar to me and what they experienced.

Hi, just sharing
I took the test two weeks ago and got an overall 70%, with science being 56.
Today I re-took it and got an overall 78, with science being 72.
I have studied a lot these last two weeks, and I skipped two things that ended up having a lot of questions about them lol.
While my grade is not competitive, I’m glad to know that it’s acceptable

My husband has always told me that he wants to be a dad and he wants a family, and family is the meaning of life.
His dad spent his entire childhood complaining to him about how hard his life was, they were extremely poor with a very large family, so my husband internalized all of that and now he’s terrified to have a kid if we’re not completely set financially, to a much higher standard than I would.

Beyond that, though, he will never entertain me with coming up with baby names or getting excited about kids or anything like that. When I bring it up to him, he says how many 28-year-old man do you know who have baby fever and think about their kid all day. When he thinks about his kid, he just thinks about how much work it’s going to be.

He knows my entire purpose in life is to be a mother, I nanny and work in preschool full-time, and I remind him of it every day. So if he truly didn’t want Kids, he would have broken up with me. (he’s definitely the guy that would break up with someone over in compatibility.)

But yeah, I’m just curious as to that part, like I wish we could have a conversation about our kids. The only thing we’ve done so far is agreed to put them in a specific school, but that’s the most I’ve gotten out of him. Not even a baby name. We also agreed to vaccinate. lol

Hi everyone,
My testosterone levels are quite high. I’m at 84. The rest of my hormones came back as completely normal though. I have been taking Inositol for months and it hasn’t made a difference for me, so I’m looking to hear success stories and how people were able to lower their testosterone because that appears to be what’s causing me to not ovulate, I get about three periods a year.

I got a 70% today and only 56 in the science portion. I watched nurse cheung nonstop. Any other advice on how to study? Feeling really discouraged.