u/Cat-Woman4848

Vallatha oru pedi and oru unsafe feeling🤧. Future alochich pedi avunnu😮‍💨. Studies, career, relationship and life as a whole, will I be able to make it in life ennokke ulla thoughts. Especially LinkedIn open cheyyumbo, it really humbles me😑.

The thing is enikk kazhinja sem il njn expect cheytha sgpa kitteela. It was not that bad. Oru 0.35 nte korav undayirunnu🫣. Maybe ningal chindikkum njn overreact cheyyuvann. But it did affect me. Now that I have entered into the core of my subject, everything is getting serious. Padikkan kore ind. And I am so scared🥹.

Also enikk ippozhathe teachers ne areyum ishtappedunnilla😖. College il povan thanne thonnunnilla. Previous sems was too gooood🥹🥹

I am on my shark week. Athukond anenn thonnunnu everything is heightened🫠

How do you achieve that bouncy, shiny hair? 😭 I don't mean the unreal shampoo ad kind 🙄.

My hair used to be okayish, not super smooth or glossy, but it looked decent. Now it literally looks like a chakiri 🫠.

I've never grown my hair past chest length before, but I'm finally giving it a shot. Turns out, longer hair = more problems. 🥲

Are there any holy grail haircare products you swear by? 🤌 Or even a simple routine that made a noticeable difference to your hair?

Also, what haircuts suit an oval face? And are there any styles or cuts I should avoid? 🙃

I am always sleepy and low on energy since the last few weeks. The only thing I do properly, without getting tired, is sleeping. No matter how long I sleep, I always wake up being tired and sleepy. It has started to affect me. My mom also pointed it out yesterday that I am so sleepy all the time and that I am not taking care of myself (which is true).

I can't really enjoy the things I used to enjoy before. For instance, I really like getting ready and dolling up. My favorite part of going outside is getting ready. It's not about putting on makeup. It was about jewelry and accessories. I have a unique taste in them. I don't really follow any trending things. So people really notice them and ask me where I bought them from and all. And I liked it.

But nowadays I just don't bother about it. I wear the same old accessories every day. Sometimes I don't wear them at all. My hair is all frizzy.

I feel like I am just surviving. I don't really have the energy to do anything. I am not fully present anywhere. I am always absentminded. My mom also pointed out that I have become skinnier.

Language prashnamilla. Nallonam pedi varanam😁. Pinne manushyanmar ullath mathi. Chela 'creatures' ullath onnum venda. Manushyanmar pretham aayi varunnath mathi😬, or just horror. Conjuring and Annabelle series full kandatha. Vegam parayane🙃

Single scoop chocolate ice-cream worth 130rs. Athil fullum nd😖. Orumathiri payasathil munthiri kittunna feel. Ice-cream aake korache ullu. Baki full um endi😕. Nalla ice-cream aayirunnu. But Enjoy cheyyan patteela😖.

Njn ariyathe ninne hide aakki poy do. Ippo kanunnilla😮‍💨 Username full Orma illa🥺. Mail nokki, notification nokki. Kanunnilla🥺🥺. Kandal msg ayakk🤧🤧

Njn oranguarunnu. Enne enippich ready aakki. Chekkante face orma illa🫠. But ennekkalum height korav aanu. Thaali ketti kazhinjathum ente bodham poy🫥.

Enittappo swapnam kandathann manasilayi. But njn saree il aanu. So swapnam alla. Njn parents nod poy choich ningal enthina enne pidich kettichenn? Also njn avante koode povulann. Pinnem Bodham poy😶.

Korach kazhinj eneettu. Ippo normal dress il aanu. Mom nte aduth poy paranju. Amme njn ingane oru swapnam kandunn. Amma paranju swapnam alla. Sherikkum ninte kalyanam kazhinjunn. Nokkumbo Amma saree aanu uduthirikkunne. Mirror il nokkiyappo njnum saree😱. Pinnem kili poy. Pinne njn sherikkum enittu.

Ningalkk ingane undayittundo? Oru dream nte ullil vere kore ennam. Reality manasilavatha pole🥶. Nallonam pedich🫠🫠.

Dream loop😵‍💫

Edit: Ithinte different povs irangunnund. Ithra pettenn famous aayo🥶🥶

I have never been in a relationship. Ithvare oralodum angane oru strong feelings or connection thonnittilla.

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Oru relationship nu vendi angane oru craving onnum thonneettilla. Onnum feel cheythirunnilla.

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But ippo relationship or the concept of falling love is scaring me. What is he hasn't moved on from a past relationship? What if he treats me as a rebound? What if it was a timepass for him? What if he takes my efforts for granted? Ingane okke ulla thoughts aanu.

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I know that nothing is permanent or no relationship comes with a guarantee. But as a person with 'big feelings' and who feels things very deeply, I don't think I would be able to handle such things.

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And I am sort of a one man woman (valya hope onnumilla).

Appo relationship onnum illenkil prashnam illallo enna thought aanu...

I dunno ingane okke chindikkunna arelum undavuo?

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Ennu vachal ottappett nadakkunnavar alla. Ningal maybe college or workplace il okke oru gang aayirikkum🙂. Enikkum class il okke bhayankara vibe aanu. But call, text hangout onnum cheyyan arum illa🙃.

Ingane arenkilum undo? Or njn mathre ullo🫠?

Njn ee overthinking nte okke aalanu. So advices choikkumbol ellarum parayum friends ne vilikk, friends nte koode porath po ennokke🫥🫥.

I (18f) was a cheerful and carefree girl who always wanted to stay single, no relationships, no drama😌. I didn't even had close friends. But I was okayy.

I was very happy with my own company, in my own world.

I loved my Solitude so much🩷.

Then two people came into my life. Both were online. With one person, the conversations were mostly surface-level and casual. But with the other, the connection felt more emotional and a little deeper. No romantic feelings involved. Somehow, both of them triggered something in me. I started feeling like my independence was being smothered🫠. At the same time, I didn’t want them to go away because I genuinely enjoyed their company.

Now I’ve cut off both of them, and I am feeling guilty. I keep wondering, will I always be like this?

Was my solitude actually loneliness in disguise😕?

I know it was not the people, it was the attention and affection. The wanting of closeness and diatance at the same time, the push-pull feeling is terrible😖.

I am feeling so guilty and my mind has been heavy and full of noise since few weeks. I want to get back to the peaceful version of myself I was before all this emotional noise🥹🥹.

I (18f) a cheerful and carefree girl who always wanted to stay single, no relationships, no drama😌.

I was very happy with my own company, in my own world. Then came a dm in reddit. I usually doesn't reply to dms here. Even if i did , it will only last for a day or two. But this one lasted 2 months, a month in reddit and a month in Snapchat.

It was all okayy. Casual chats, good morning and good night wishes, sending each other snaps of food etc. But then suddenly I started to feel suffocated. I enjoyed the company but I felt like it is smothering my independence. Or maybe the fear that I will get attached to this person.

I cut him off 2 weeks ago. I gave him a closure. But now I am starting to overthink and overanalyse the whole situation. Whenever his name or the things he used to say is mentioned anywhere, I will remember the whole chatting experience.

No romantic feelings involved.

I am having a sort of void in my mind. It was not the person. But the attention and care.

I dunno what's in my mind…guilt?

Was I overreacting?

Do I have some sort of attachment issue?

Will my hyper independence affect my future relationships?

Or was i just lonely all along?