u/ControlThat8187

I woke up really early today like 3am, at 4am I walked to the corner store that's open 24 hours.

I get there, didn't see a single car on the road, not a single car in the parking lot, not a single person anywhere besides the guy working there.

I made my selection and went to the cash register and then suddenly there's 4 cars parked there, there's people going in and out of the store.

I walk home and there's people parked on the way getting out of their cars, there's lots of traffic going down the street.

It all seems to have just appeared out of no where. It's fucking incredible.

I found an interesting website: https://badaliens.info

It also links to other sites and web archives of good sites that are no longer up.

for example: https://web.archive.org/web/20221024211916/https://dyatlovpass.com/death

Was wondering if other people could post websites akin to this, I miss these types of websites, I think they are what make the internet great and they're rare to come across now a days.

I went to a low income housing meeting, it was a group meeting, felt like a humiliation ritual. I waited quite awhile for this appointment as did the others there.

They said any past undue rent, any unpaid utilities, any bad references, lack of references, among many other things, and you won't be approved for housing.

I unfortunately fall under a few of those due to losing my job and having to move out of my old apartment. I did inform the renting company what was happening and I never heard back until I checked my credit report and it had nearly 10k in debt.

So I can't afford to pay off the debt that's preventing me from getting housing. What am I supposed to do?

I was looking at moving to a different country because of this absurd situation. To top it off, the places they want to put people are giant apartment complexes, and they're all crack houses. Literally everyone in there is spending their checks of drugs every single month. I'm not moving into such a place.

Is moving abroad an option? From the research I've been doing it seems completely doable.

Anywhere from 4-40+ hours at a time. Usually around 12 hours, per day, every day, for decades. I've seen the internet in it's glory days and it's current state.

I've tried unplugging, I've dated, I've had some success, I've worked about 30 different jobs. A few people have said I'm autistic, but I can socialize if needed and jump through hoops, but it feels performative and makes me feel like shit, so I don't do it.

I've been suicidal this entire time. The SSRI's numb me, make my dick uncooperative, and aren't worth it. I stopped taking them awhile ago, but I still get prescribed them. I don't want to tell them I stopped taking them because it would cause a huge mess.

I also take an anti-psychotic, this I genuinely need, but I take a lesser dose than I am prescribed, because the prescribed amount I will sleep too much and gives me massive brain fog.

Of course there have been 'breaks' that weren't caused by me, homelessness, what have you ,but I always find a way back. I always setup some neet room, install all the autistic amount of software like pihole, syncthing, mailcow, I add programs to my TV like smart tube and stremio+torbox. I've basically minified my existence. I can survive on just rent + internet every month. The rest of the benefits just sits in my bank account.

When I see media or real life people genuinely striding for wealth and more money it doesn't compute in my mind. I already have everything I need and it costs a fraction of a part time job.

I've tried many, many drugs, almost every drug out there, from suboxone, to fent, to crack, to pills and plants, nothing has really felt worth it, just experiences that altered my reality. I already have everything I need.

The only reason I haven't done it is because I lack the courage and it's against my beliefs. So I just observe life, sometimes participate, mostly keep to myself. I can go months and months without speaking to another person and this is completely fine by me.

Kinda getting burned out tbh, mapping is fun for so long, bossing is even funner but it's only fun a few times.

I guess you can strive for the best of the best items that cost insane amounts of HR, but looking at it, those GG items are usually just tiny upgrades from whatever else is out there. If that's your thing, cool.

But for someone that doesn't care about shaving 10 seconds off a map, what else is there to do?

I don't mean this in any bad way, I love the mod, I love the community, I love the devs for making this possible.

The cost of living here is too high for my fixed income. I'm also having trouble finding a place to move to as I don't have a good rental history/credit score.

A place that was recommended to me was Kampot, Cambodia, which from my research, looks very appealing and possible with a few hurdles. Those hurdles being continued health care.

I'm in the process of setting up telehealth care just to maintain records for SSDI and a possible CDR review in the future. I'm also going to see a local GP to prescribe my medications and also keep records.

From what I understand there are no limitations on me doing this.

Is anyone here on disability and living abroad? Do you have experience with living in Cambodia, and especially Kampot?

Appreciate all the replies.

I'm in a mental health housing program and I'm trying to find housing for afterwards I jsut went into a hud adjacent office for an interview and it was a group interview, I was shaking like I was on drugs but that's my fucking social anxiety. I also stuck out like a sore thumb, I try to blend in and appear normal to others but it's impossible. It fucking sucks. I know I ain't getting any housing through them now because the way they fuckling judged me when I went there.

I'm not like bouncing off the walls crazy, just fucking weird and people notice it. It's like they don't want me to be apart of their system, like they want me to be homeless and to die.

What's the pop like? The thing that made turtle and nost and the others I missed is that they had huge populations which made the world feel alive.

I can't find anything telling me the population of Kronos

Can't seem to find an answer anywhere

The flat damage from the war travelers is nice, but I'm looking at the deadly strike from gore riders. Is it worth capping out DS? Would it out perform the flat damage?

I'm a multishot bowazon btw

I can't connect any blutooth peripherials to my PC. If I put the device directly ontop of my PC case, it detects it, but it loses the signal almost immediately.

I've tried multitudes of different software and drivers. I don't understand why the performance is so poor. My 50$ cheap ass smart phone from 3 years ago connects to my blutooth speaker flawlessly from across the house.

Any ideas?

I'm trying to find a psych that specializes in this disease and I can't seem to find one. If I call up the psych centers in my town they tell me they don't have any experience with schizoaffective/schizophrenia disorders and refer me to places that also don't have experience, it's like none of them want to deal with schizo people

I have medicare and just want to telehealth if possible/get my meds mailed to me, does anyone have a recommendation for any of these services?

To be blunt, I'm schizoaffective and I am extremely paranoid. It's possible it's just a delusion but things have been happening that make no sense.

I have a case manager that hates my guts, she actively got in the way of me getting benefits, takes pictures of my apartment when she comes over unannounced, she spies on me, she controls the people around me. I can't even speak directly to my land lord anymore because it has to go through her. I got approved after 3+ years of being homeless, I literally just got approved 2 months ago.

My aide contacted her to see what her problem was and now my aide is discontinuing services with me, which tells me she flipped my aide. I don't know what she's telling these people, it's fucking strange.

It's like she has a vendetta against me for some reason, and I hate it. She's ruining every aspect of my life. It's like she wants me homeless again or dead. I don't know what to do.

Beyond that, I started noticing cars that are out of place at my apartment, they pull up and sit there in their car(s) and just watch.

I haven't left my apartment in quite some time until today, I think in over a month, I went to get my meds refilled a few blocks away at walgreens, I walked because I can't drive.

Anyways, this car, I'm pretty sure followed me, cause it was gone when I came back then pulled up as I was arriving back at my apartment.

I'm just really tired, I hate this shit, I look out my windows like 50 times a day and see them sitting there watching. There is no respite.

It's so distressing I WANT to go live on the street again, dealing with this in addition to mental illness is really fucking me up.

I've been homeless most my life, never had a stable place to stay. I'm afraid to spend any money, I think I have a lot of unresolved trauma. It feels like I'm just going to be homeless again so it doesn't matter what I do. I got approved for disability, I thought that would make things better but it's only led to me being fearful that I'll lose it if I try and be normal.

I'm afraid to spend money on things I need like clothes, because I always end up having to leave my belongings behind. So in my mind it doesn't matter if I have any possessions.

It's not a lot of money at all either, I just don't know what to use it for. I distill everything down into basics. Why would I need a bunch of new clothes? I don't leave the house, the only reason I'd want clothes is to appear normal, when I am not normal, infact society has rejected me at every turn, yet I still yearn to feel normal and try to make it seem like I'm a normal person, but it causes immense anxiety and fear that I'll be found out and people will find out that I'm nuts.