u/CutSubstantial1803

For all of early game I was very quest orientated. Everything I did in the game would be for a quest and my main focus would be doing the most quests at once. The game always felt sort of cosy, especially as I'm someone who is quite invested in reading all the dialogue.

Now, I have finished all of black bear's main questline, unlocking robo bear questline, all of mother bear, science bear and onett's quests, I'm on the last of Panda bear's quests and not far off finishing spirit bear quests. This is a lot of quests to lose from my quest menu, especially since most of my progression was during 2023-2024 beesmas when there were all the beesmas quests on the go as well.

Now it feels like I'm alone when I play, with only repeatable quests and grinding. I feel like I finished the story and it's lowkey lonely. anyone relate?

TLDR: I don't know my sexuality, a very original post I'm sure 🥲

First of all, I'm a girl for the sake of clarity. I grew up with a reasonably supportive family and school who often talked about the existence of LGBT people, and how it was ok to love whoever you wanted. but there was always an undertone that while being LGBT was ok, it wasn't...desirable. like it wasn't bad, but it wasn't ideal, though that was never explicitly said. so naturally I've internalised the idea that being LGBT was something I should accept when it's other people, but not something I should be myself

in regards to my sexuality, I never suspected for a minute that I was anything other than straight when I was younger. in fact, the only thing I know for sure about my sexuality is that I've had a crush on a few boys before: a handful in primary school and one in secondary school. I've also dated two boys, but I don't think I actually had a crush on them... hopefully you will understand and don't think I'm a horrible person

but as for whether I like girls, I really don't know. I feel like it should be obvious, like I can tell for the most part when I've had a crush on a guy, but I can't for girls. in some ways, the evidence seems to point to yes because I've been quite obsessed over girls and I've imagined situations with them like hugging them and things. BUT the reason I'm doubting this is because I think this is limerence. Well I know it's limerance, but I don't know if it's also a crush. There's a girl who I think is really cool at the moment kinda obsessively but I would never imagine anything more than friendship with her so I'm pretty sure it's not a crush. I'm also quite confused about whether crushes on girls and boys are supposed to feel the same or different or can be either. if it is a crush, it certainly feels different to me. don't even get me started on deciding whether I like girls or boys more cause how do you even compare that

I don't know if my doubt is purely due to internalised homophobia, because I feel like I'm quite open minded and would be willing to accept myself as bisexual. that is, if I actually knew that I was bisexual. I just wish I knew and could move on with my life. anyone relate...?

I've been pronouncing it ih-rogen in my head but it could also be eye-rogen. Also I'm only halfway through the book so no spoilers!