the happy bubble broke
green bean here
i had a stressful shift today
was literally on the verge of crying on spot
ik that’s generic but im scared if i include details my store ppl will know exactly who im
im a student and i just wanted something part time to self fund. and now suddenly it just feels too demanding. like my time isn’t being respected. i really don’t think i can keep up if my studies suffer.
and then since im new idk whom to talk to about this either at my store. i felt really lonely today. usually i love being cheerful and bringing positivit everywhere but today i felt like my heart was just numb. and im an hsp (if anyone gets that) and I DONT KNOW HOW WILL I HANDLE CLASSES AND THIS
im usually asleep by now but rn i feel so stressed from what happened hours ago that i cant sleep and im still numb from holding back tears earlier and this is just like
really overwhelming
im not talking about the learning part being too overwhelming, its just dealing with boundaries feels so overwhelming
i don’t want to work extra hours. i don’t care about earning too much. im just trying to fund my own personal expenses.
my manager just snapped at me today. i didnt like the tone i was talked in.
i took up this job because i like interacting with ppl. and so far all the customers have been so nice. same for partners around me. the problem is long hours. that’s not what i want, neither what i need. and that’s what they’re pushing me to do. and i just hate that
so yeah, just need a hug
how do yall survive
edit: added a bunch of stuff to post. earlier i was so frozen up that i couldn’t write a lot.