I'm dreading spending another Christmas alone
I'm coming up on a decade of isolation. I'm fucked.
EDIT - Thanks for the good vibes. I'm just kind of down right now.
The backstory is roughly this:
I’m in my late 50s now. I have no family, no parents, no siblings, no relatives, no kids, no close friends, and no love. I've earned my engineering degrees with no family support. I bought a home in Silicon Valley and I'm an active musician. I’m around people all of the time - both from work and music performance. They are all acquaintances though. There’s never anyone around for my birthday or any other milestone in my life. I live among 7.7 million people - yet, I spend every Christmas alone. If I were to disappear tomorrow only the bill collectors would notice.