Me (19F) and bf (19M) Meeting for the first time and lowkey freaking out
Yesterday, my boyfriend decided to text me, saying that instead of seeing me in another month, he wants to leave that same night or sometime this week. I’m not mentally prepared to see him so soon without more prior notice. I can’t believe I’m actually going to see him, and I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m very excited but also really anxious. Is that normal? I’ve been with him for 7 months, so it’s definitely time to meet up. We have a 24-hour drive between us, and we've talked a lot about him visiting first. Last night, we finally agreed that he should come at the end of this week. I’ve been awake all night trying not to think about it because I’m so excited, but I’m also overthinking and worried he might be disappointed when he sees me. He knows exactly what I look like and calls me beautiful every day, so I’m sure it will be fine. But before him, there was another guy who led me on, and after that, I lost confidence in myself. Now I’m not sure what to think. I’m very scared (like to the point I feel nauseous) that he might want to leave once he sees me in person. We call every day, and he’s never once put me down and only said positive things about me, which really helps when I overthink. We talk about everything and are very open with each other, but I’m still finding it hard to tell him how I’m feeling. Has anyone been through this or something similar? How did you bring it up to your partner or overcome it on your own?