u/Eccentric-Elf

I’m pretty sure that my older coworker is only calling me “kid”. I don’t remember her using my name AT ALL. I am 30. I have always felt insecure about my age and looks because I look much younger than I am and that’s affected my self image. I’ve had other coworkers who use my name most of the time but sometimes use endearments which I’m fine with but I’ve known them longer and have a better relationship with them. It feels so belittling and she’s a higher position than me so I feel powerless.

Overheard a mom shaming her daughter about how she couldn’t wear a top due to “how her chest is”. It was a form fitting top but I just remembered how my mom would say similar stuff to me even in adulthood. I hope it didn’t hurt her too much. She was young and I know what that does to you deep down.

People are nice to me but I feel like I’m never going to be someone’s favorite or go-to person. I don’t mean in romance but just friendships. I’ve always struggled with that and it doesn’t help that I feel that people just are nice to me because they like me but not enough to want to hang out or have longer conversations where they know something about me. If I’m very quiet then that’s when they’ll talk more to me. I hate it. It feels like a pity conversation. “Oh, So-and-so isn’t herself today”. I don’t have friends and doubt that’ll change. Maybe I just need to stop thinking other people are more important to me than they think of me? Idk.