u/EliasBouchardFan1

sasuga hornet

I think about this bit a lot. It's from when you speak to the old soldier René, and pass every 'invisible' check. The context is that he is deeply repressing his love for another man, but that is largely besides the point, to me.

>There's something substantial moving in him, trying to get out.

>He would sooner die than let it surface.

>There's tenderness in the carabineer's look. Tenderness that's curdled into pain, or something darker.

>Even worse, a love aborted and smothered, stamped beneath his brilliant boot heel.

>You catch the old carabineer's gaze slowly leaving his opponent's wrinkled face as his dark eyes meet yours- whatever turmoil raged in him a moment ago is quelled for now.

>Like the last rays of the evening sun gently kissing the day goodbye, before giving way to unfathomable darkness.

>Willed back into the darkest unexplored depths of his mind, never meant to be shared, seen or confronted.

>A true master of his emotions.

>Hopelessly alone behind the unbreakable walls he spent a lifetime erecting. No one will ever know him.

*forever is a strong word of course considering the sub we're in.

Denizen of the Middle East here. Just felt like ranting.

Around here, notable heat begins in like... April. By May, you'd be comfortable walking around in a t-shirt and shorts. By July, it's just frankly fucking absurd.

Like, how are you supposed to cope with this? I know I made a post about this a while back and I'm kinda repeating myself; but no amount of fans or cold water or short sleeves is going to be enough when the Sun God himself is trying to kill you for 12 hours a day, and for the other 12, the day's heat is trapped inside your building because we all live in brutalist concrete boxes lol.

Look, I sweat a lot. It's genetic. It's kind of a problem actually when I'm trying to look like a normal human being in public. I could work up a sweat in like, 10 degrees C. Now imagine how fun it is to be in like 37c with 70% humidity. I don't go outside anymore.

I especially don't go outside because looking out the window past like, 11 AM, makes me wanna dig into the earth and live like a Tolkien Dwarf. The sun is a deadly lazer. Genuinely almost painful on the eyes with how bright it gets.

Exercise is a struggle. I work out at home, or at least try to, and it's just become torture at this point. God knows what the CO2 content of my room is. Mildly strenous 10-minutes and I already feel like I'm gonna drop dead. Jogging is entirely off the table.

I don't know. Just having a bad one down here. Look at this forecast. Doesn't matter what time or day you view that because it's certainly going to be some horseshit regardless. It's not like ridiculous heat in Summer is unusual in this country, but the fact that it's gotten worse and is only going to get worse just makes you wanna lay down on the floor and stay there forever (actually forever this time).

we gotta save her bro