u/EndPristine5595

Dinner is chicken and waffles!

First time poster here. In 2 days my wife will leave for basic training and she will be away for months. We are hoping she comes home after but anyone who knows the military knows things don't always go as planned. She could be gone until all of her training is done, not just basic.

We have no kids (other than 2 cats). I am in the process of medically releasing from the military myself so there is this major role reversal happening. I've been not only the breadwinner but the major provider in the relationship, while she worked a lesser career and also has really handled practically ALL household responsibilities. It's not that i don't help it's just been her personality where she likes to do things her "right" way and very early on in the relationship I gave up on arguing and just happy-wife-happy-lifing it since then.

Even when it's come to deciding what we do for the most part. In a nutshell, the military has controlled my (our) major life circumstances and the wife has controlled/overseen the day to day.

In 2 days she leaves, for an unspecified time.

I am unemployed now which yes I've known was coming but no, due to a multitude of reasons including mental health and personality problems and almost certainly complacency, I really have not concocted any reasonable plan for while she's away.

Frankly whenever I think about it I panic.

I am 41m - by all means not retirement age. If anyone knows how medical releases work you get some disability coverage and in my country it is pretty solid. Financially we are fine. And with her now starting her career we should be quite well off by the time she retires which for her she plans on a 25 yr service.

We have never had any fights or really conflicts at all in our relationship and both fully depend on each other and love each other completely. So in terms of "the plan" we have both laid out, we are forever and this career change is for us and our future.

So with all that laid out, it's days away now and I literally have no fucking clue what I will do without her. I understand this must sound pretty meak but it is what it is. I haven't been actually alone alone in decades and definitely never alone alone WITHOUT employment. Some people I've spoken to have said it sounds peaceful.

To me, the thought of the fully empty house even on day 1 evokes a sense of actual terror for me. But that's day 1. What about day 60?

I guess the question I'm asking here is, does this sound like a situation that someone can/should just mentally power through with sheer willpower? Or does it seem very unhealthy/dangerous?

If you've read this far, I appreciate it.

Any thoughts? or clarification needed?

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