u/Fair_Current_5544

If you asked me why I love you point blank. I would tell you about the time I first saw you across a room and your sister in law introduced you. I felt warm inside and an urge to hold you. Not in a sexual way but in a way like I have known you before and have loved you all my life. And then we never met. It’s been years and I still feel a pull. I have never believed in soulmates or reincarnations. You looked tired and all I wanted was to make you feel loved and comfort you.

I have an inkling that my friend has a crush on me. Now the question is, if I like the attention or validation or if I actually want to date this person. I am not sure of what I feel. Because I do like them as a person, that’s why we are friends.

It’s embarrassing how much this is taking a toll on me. I promised myself I would not reply to your text because I don’t want to be ghosted again. I keep repeating this pattern with my previous crushes and relations. I do feel for you but you just aren’t the one for me. Someone who values me isn’t going to ignore me and then reply when it’s convenient. I deserve someone who is brave and affectionate. Withholding closeness and giving me crumbs just proves to me that you are not my person.

You texted me back “too late”. In the mean time I have questioned my worth and place in your life and I have already let you out of my heart. So no! You are never getting a reply from me. I don’t ever want to repeat the cycle of waiting and feeling abandoned. I protected my heart for you and you took me for granted. I have a boundary which I cannot violate myself. I hope you have a good life and I will make sure I am never in it.