u/Fair_Orange3602

what’s everyone up to

Im completely fucking numb emotionally and nothing feels entirely real. I’m seriously considering harming myself to see if that makes me feel smt anything because I’m going crazy its like I’m in this fuckass in between point of idc cause I can’t feel and I know I need to want to feel

so in order to feel I’m considering causing myself harm by burning or cutting or anything really just wanna feel atp

so that’s fun ig I don’t know what to think about it cause yk. ig pain would make me feel but I don’t wanna get out of bed to cause said pain to myself.

(I’d usually post ts on r/teenagers but uhhhh don’t question it)

u/HappyTree_Friends🥹

my names Lee if that matters for this at all

it’s like I’m nonbinary they/them (afab it’s important for the post) and like even tho I’m comfortable using they/them I like it I also wish I were born amab constantly. and I feel like if I was amab I probably wouldn’t even be nonbinary…? idk I’m so confused 😭

(also gender dysphoria is kicking my ass rn)

sighhh I guess I’m bored as shit so I guess dm me or smt idk😭

my name is Lee

i live in texas

im 14

im nonbinary (they/them)

im unlabeled because i wanna be

I have a amazing girlfriend and some amazing friends (hi if yall are seeing this you know who you are)

yeah that’s pretty much me I’m not too interesting :3

the past three fucking days now I’ve been dysphoric as ever loving hell and I’m usually dysphoric ive always struggled with gender dysphoria but it got 10x worse and it’s led me to burn myself multiple times like four times now I can’t stop. it sucks so badly and even when I do what my friends suggest it temporarily sorta helps but it always gets bad again which is not helping how suicidal I already am. so gender dysphoria makes me keep hurting myself. fuck gender dysphoria it SUCKS

I’ve like been really dysphoric so I’ve been wearing a sports bra thing that works well enough but I haven’t taken it off in like 24 hours and I slept in it. and like my chest is a little sore but it doesn’t like hurt. idk (is it like safe idk what im asking it just feels like a bad decision I could be fucking stupid but its compressing enough to help so 24 hours feels like a bad idea idk I’m talking too much 😭)

like she‘ll never even know HOW much I love her it’s that much it’s impossible to truly put into words how much I love her.

Shes the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I don’t know what it’d do without her.

Shes my favorite person.

i just purely love her so much.

it’s driving me insane. it literally pushed me to attempt last night. how do I make it stop? (I’m also praying my friend who’s on this sub doesn’t see this…)

FML

it’s pissing me off💔

TW

okay number one I’ve been SHing a lot like A LOT and after being clean for nine days so I’m kinda mad at myself for that.

number two I’ve attempted three times in two weeks (6/2, 6/11, 6/16) and I think I might try again?!? Idk.

and I’ve been struggling with major anxiety and eating issues so that has been miserable. I’m lowk just miserable in general atp.