u/Famous_Street7148

If anyone knows of or heard what the end of never not love you is... that small audio clip of that girl talking? Any info is helpful. Thanks 😊

Im so tired of waiting. Feeling you but never getting you. I thought that what I felt was real. How could my intuition play with my heart. I needed direct communication, though still haven't received any. Which tells me your not coming. Im nobody important to you. For if I was youd tell me face to face.

Your being lied to. Someone by the name Aubrey is lying to you and pretending to be me. You are being scammed.

I guess your not coming. I mean I get why you wouldn't. Especially not to save my sanity. So I will do my best to let you go. So that I may salvage any ounce of light I have left. I guess we were only meant to have that one moment(s). Im cutting the thread.

Love Luci

I hope so. I hope you stick around(stalk...me 😉) long enough to see that I'm doing it for me, for my kids and for a future I only see.... with you beside me. 🩵

Xxoo

I finally realized a great truth lastnight. I was giving you way more credit then what was rightfully yours. I used to think that it was your essence that carried me threw the times I felt lost, alone Or was wanting to give up. I thought this because every discovery with myself about myself always lead me back to you. Every trail of bread crumbs always lead me to you, to us. I never questioned our meeting, my attraction, the undeniable connection i felt. That undeniable knowing that at some point either in this life or past lifes we where one in the same. I was always meant to do this with you. That's why the deeper I dug into my core, my souls essence I always found you. I never understood that it was my choice. It has always been my choice. A decision I decided long before this life. A decision I made without you. That decision was always meant to be made with you. Even though I can not get to you physically, you are forever with me. For so long I was running. Running from my truth. Allowing fear to stop me from completely trusting my knowing. I feared what I could not see, could not touch. Lastnight I released that fear. That fear no longer resides in me. I have let go of any and all limiting beliefs. I don't need you here physically to know what is being asked of me. Though it would make it easier. I also know that once you see that I am living in my truth undoubtedly that you will then come to me. I will speak my truth, I know who I am, who we are. I am ready. Will you join me. I hope that where ever you are, who ever you are... you are on your way to me. If we are connected as I know us to be you felt my shift. You heard my cry. I have found my memory. My mission and our destiny.

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I'm beginning to think fond of you. We have been chatting quite frequently...

Im starting to think... Im entertaining your curiosity

I hope your not pretending... You give me attention so convincingly

Who are you really... Please, show me...

Unless of course I'm just a game your playing... selfishly

Time is precious to me... please don't waist it. Unless you plan to stand beside me.

If you are honestly not 100% who you portray yourself to be, then simply leave me be

But...

If there is even the smallest possibility that you could somehow grow to love me... then lets get to know each other more intently.

I want to tell you everything...

Your becoming all consuming... my first thought of the day, my daydream, my midnight fantasy, my desire catching spark deep inside me, the voice reminding me... I think I'm falling, inevitably.

Until you tell me your name... your nothing more then a handsome mystery.

Your absolutely right. I must have faith. Faith in myself, in the love I know i deserve. Im learning how to say no. NO to myself. Saying no to damaging situations, to low vibrations, my promiscuous tendencies. See my problem is that I made it through the wreckage, healed, held onto the faith. Even though I was still waiting for confirmation. And just before Im due to recieve it. My mind takes control and convinces me I am not good enough. There for I miss it. This causes a backwards spiral pulling into uncertainty. Which has now turned into self sabotage. Obviously this means there is more inner healing that must be done. However, when you've been in survival mood for over a decade. When every amount of growth has brought you nowhere, when your body is so exhausted from the battles you had to fight alone. It's so easy to fall back into old patterns.

This past few days I have been calling the healed version of myself. Allowing her to take over me. The me that didn't need attention from so many people that arent meant for me or that are only a temporary placement in my story. And though physically you are not here with me. Spiritually your right beside me. Telepathically its you, its always been you. I must trust all the signs, I must trust my intuition, my heart and my soul would not lie to me. I know that if my twin was beside me, id never stumble, I'd never stray for he is where I would stay.

I need to know why, please. I'm begging you. Why would you put my voice in that song. I just don't understand. Am I to reach out? Am I too stay silent? I remember everything about that moment. It was real, raw, honest.

Was it a trick? A joke? Please explain it to me... if it meant anything to you? Or nothing to you?

I will never stop loving and longing for you. My every move, every thought always begins and ends with you. I thought I could do it. I thought I could find my way to you. To become all that I believe you would want and need. But the weight of my reality just wont let me breath. Because this weight I carry asks so much of me I cant allow this dream to over come me. Perhaps in another life or dimension we are together and free.

Loving you, no matter the distance.

-L