u/Fictocubicularistica

So I was suppose to meet up with this guy I met on Reddit. The guy is handsome. Like really handsome. Like I am out of his league handsome. The best part about this guy is that my weight doesn’t bother him. I was so happy. Over the moon. So much so that my hair loss wasn’t bothering me like it usually does.

I don’t know. Today it just hit. I can’t meet this guy. He’s going to get a better look of my hair. What if my thin hair makes him go, “Ew”? I was so looking forward to this. I was so happy. My hair loss has ruined so many aspects of my life including dating. I can’t stop crying. I hate my thinning hair so much!

So I just want to start out by saying I’m on the autism spectrum. Social cues don’t come easy for me. I don’t know if I’m being too cautious here.

I’m planning on hooking up with a guy. I asked him where and when he wanted to meet. He says he wants to meet by the lake around 9:00 or 10:00 at night. I don’t know if this is creepy or if this is just what people normally do. I asked if we should split for a room and he told me he doesn’t like hotels. I guess I get that, they can be pretty gross. It’s just it’s going to be my first time and I was hoping for a bed. I don’t know, am I just being silly?

I heard that taking saw palmetto along with the bc pill can make your hormones go out of wack and periods heavier. I’ve had an epidermal ablation years back and I only take the pill to help with cramps that I still get. I also feel kind of stuck on the pill at this point. Tried going off it once after my procedure and my hormones and body went crazy. I don’t think I would have to worry about irregular periods since I don’t get them anymore. (Except for spotting here and there) However, I’m a little worried about the hormone part.

I also heard that saw palmetto along with the pill can possibly cause more hair loss and I was wondering if this was true? Thanks.

When did this happen!? It was always unlimited messages in my region. This sucks. 😩

I’m not proud of it, but I’m a virgin. I have been desperately trying to seek sex. Nothing serious. Just a hookup. I have talked with so many people in local hookup communities, but I never felt that sexual attraction to them. Only one guy caught my eye. I talked with him for a bit and we sent pictures. He said I was cute, but he was only into blondes. (Which was weird because I saw him with a brunette in one of his pictures)

I said that was okay and wished him a good day. (Then he gave me 👊fist bum emoji. Not sure if this is significant to the story in any way. I just thought I would add that)
The thing is, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him. He’s the only one I am sexually attracted to. I don’t know, I feel like a creep because there is a small part of me that wants to talk to him again. I don’t really know what I would say, though. Maybe something like this?

"Hey, sorry to bother you again. I know you mentioned you strictly prefer blondes, and I totally respect that. But honestly, I found myself really attracted to you specifically, and haven't been able to get you out of my head. I was hoping maybe you’d be open to giving me a chance?"

I don’t know. Maybe still too creepy? I don’t know. What should I do? As a woman I should know that no means no, but I just can’t stop thinking about him and he did say I was cute. I don’t know. Should I ask him for one more chance or do I need a hard slap in the face to knock me out of it?

The ads have become so much more aggressive. I could be having a regular conversation and boom- I’m redirected to some online clothing store without warning. It happens frequently. Like every few minutes. It’s really frustrating. It makes usage almost impossible.

I feel silly posting this here, but The Amazing Digital Circus community has turned into an unsafe space. This may be a spoiler so skip if you haven’t seen the final episode.

My headcanon may be seen as controversial because it doesn’t align with the popular headcanons and theories scattered online. Folks have stated that Jax has gender dysphoria due to the fact that his IRL form wears a hoodie. Hiding one’s body under a hoodie is also seen in some people with body dysmorphic disorder. (BDD) This could be the case. It could also be the case that he has both BDD and gender dysphoria. Maybe he wears a hoodie because he simply gets cold. Goosework has left interpretations up to the audience, so I don’t really see the issue when someone makes their own conclusions.

To me, TADC as a whole feels like a metaphor for BDD. As someone with BDD, this drew my attention to the show. I felt a personal connection. Most fans have their own personal connections with the series and I think that’s pretty special when a show can be an allegory for so many things. I don’t think people should be attacked for interpreting art in their own way.

I didn’t really want to come out to her in the first place. I didn’t see it as a big deal. Plus, she can be slightly homophobic, but then I was thinking, “It’s okay. She’s not going to overreact. She respects me for being autistic? Why would this be any different? Besides, some of her favorite tv characters are gay or bi.”

Well, the first word out of her mouth was, “WHAT!?” It came out very annoyed sounding. Then I go on saying, “It’s not a big deal!” She then goes on saying that it is a big deal and somehow this situation would be equal to her telling me that her and my father are getting a divorce. (They’re not)

She then implies that I might be confused and asks what made me start thinking this way. I really didn’t want to get into that because the way I found out was kind of embarrassing.

I don’t know, I guess I was just hoping she would nonchalantly shrug and just go, “Okay.” Like I said, some of her favorite characters are bi or gay. I don’t know what I was thinking. I obviously wasn’t in my right mind.