u/Freddy_mercuryscat

I left my job back in January and I've been preparing since then. I don't talk to anyone, I've a boyfriend-Long distance and I do talk to him but it's just so lonely still.

It's not lonely as in I don't have anyone to talk to, it's more like I just don't even want to anymore. I refuse to meet any of my friends, going out of my house even just 100 meters seems like a huge task.

If I get bored of studying(who am I kidding, I don't get bored-I just want to avoid it,Escapism core) , I just randomly scroll YT shorts now -.- which is honestly just pathetic.

Even listening to songs doesn't make me happy, I am just emotionally so numb rn.

I am not depressed fs, I am just tired not fatigued but tired.

It seems like I've enough dopamine to keep me going but not enough to add any feelings or motivation to those actions.

Being unemployed sucks because I can't just order random things to make myself happy and (I sound like such a spoiled brat but eh), I feel guilty even when I order food because I am just wasting money and I am not sure if I'll get a job after Neet before counselling ( how dare I just assume I'll get a seat in pg this year itself right?).

This year has to be the worst possible year I've ever had -.-(*If you're listening, please don't take this as a challenge, Universe*)

This is so different from neet ug, I was stressed sure but never so anhedonic with this random a$$ avolition I get sometimes.

I am so jealous of others, of anyone who has something going on in their lives, I hate talking to my friends for this reason mostly because they just have something atleast, I just have nothing to tell about my day.

So to summarise it all ---- being a grown a$$ unemployed dropper sucks------

Well, I know how controversial it is to take methylphenidate without ADHD and I am hoping this post doesn't get too much hate.

I usually take armodafinil but I cycle it so I only take it for max 3 times a week.

On other days I take caffeine+ L theanine,

Thiamine 200 mg (has stimulating effects for me),

piracetam+ vinpocetine 5 mg (altho piracetam just doesn't work for me anymore and gives me headaches -.- even when I combine it with a choline source).

Recently came across methylphenidate, started with just 5 mg and combined it with selegeline 1.25 mg.

Yesterday was the first day on these two and effects weren't magical but not bad.

Took it again this morning.

My question is- what is the tolerance scale for these two? How often per week can I take them?

The dose rn works for me, afterall less is more sometimes.

Have you guys tried this?

Namaste everyone!

So it is usually not advised to dive deep into mahavidya sadhnas if you're adikshit because theae sadhnas require certain rules and a proper guidance.

So instead, you should just approach the other deities who are easy going as compared to the ugra mahavidyas.

Recently, due to the popularity online, lots of people suggest mahavidya sadhnas in a sattvik way which won't involve a Guru as such like RN.

I know he is hated and loved at the same time on this sub so I'd not like to have any comments on his inadequacies/unnecessary hate.

My question is, if somebody worships mahavidyas like Maa Tara, Maa baglamukhi and so on with just shraddha bhav like any other deity, would it be useless?

So I've been having hairloss since the past few months and this has never happened before. I am losing chunks of hair literally everyday.

At first I thought it could be related to stress but recently I started developing fatigue without any other cause like infections.

I take caffeine for energy and it stopped working against this fatigue which made me suspicious. I got my tsh done and it's 5.3 and it isn't exactly enough to start levothyroxine but the symptoms are bad for me :/.

My mother has Hashimotto's so I am genetically predisposed to it as well, I suppose.

I am going to see the doctor tomorrow but I know they will be skeptical about starting treatment at just 5.3.

For context I don't have other symptoms as such but the fatigue brain fog is profound and hair loss is also pretty visible. I don't have any weight gain or other symptoms. I've always had cold intolerance though ever since childhood.

It could also be low iron levels, I'll get my ferritin checked on Monday. I am also skeptical before starting levothyroxine because I read about people's experiences and how it feels amazing initially but usually by 3rd week the symptoms of brain fog, tiredness return. I am preparing for this very important exam which is in just 3 months so I don't wanna risk anything.

Did any of y'all have any such symptoms?

Hey everyone!

So everything was fine before but like 3 days ago I took armodafinil (I only take like 2 per week at max) but it didn't make me more awake like it usually does.

I had good 7-8 hrs of sleep so that's not the reason.

Then next day I took thiamine, still didn't work.

Same with SAM-E.

Basically none of my supplements are working and this malaise/tiredness won't go away no.matter I do.

I had my periods a few days ago but it's literally my last day today so I should be feeling better but I don't.

I don't understand what went wrong with my body suddenly.

Namaste everyone!

This post is honestly a cry for help at this point.

My mother has aquarius moon and she has been having such a difficult time since the past few years.

Mostly it has been health issues, one after the other.

She tries to do hanuman chalisa path but I suppose she can't be consistent with it because of her job(She is a teacher and she is in her 50s).

I want to do something for her.

I don't know how I can even help her but if there is any way to calm this last phase of sade sati down, I'd be very grateful to know of it.

Thank you so much.

So, as we all know, Jupiter's cancer transit has been overhyped everywhere.

My question is that everybody will be benefited from it. Obviously the magnitude will vary chart to chart or ascendant to ascendant but overall it will be a time that brings relief for everyone.

If say, someone was hoping to get a job, clear an exam or a business deal, they might find success.

But this is a competitive field, who exactly will win if everybody is having a great time.

This will just neutralise in the end.

I used to score the highest in my coaching class which had atleast 600-700 students and this coaching class was for an entrance which required 2 years of prep. The whole first year I was consistently scoring the highest but then I felt a little burn out and decided that if I lag a little, it won't really affect me much and my health wasn't well so I thought it's okay.

But then my score dropped to top 10 instead of top 5 and instead of studying more I decided to sleep more for some reason. In hindsight that could've been a severe burnout.

Anyway I stopped studying completely from then on because what's the point if I don't score the highest right?

I wasted my year and then took a drop for that exam and cleared it, it was a easy ride since my concepts were pretty clear already and my drop teachers used to ask me what went so wrong for me to not clear the exam in my first attempt and I'd just make a health excuse.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?

I was scared of being mediocre because I couldn't match my initial efforts.

THIS is the reason for most of our procrastination as well, why try if I am going to fail anyway right?

NO, the fear of being nothing should be greater than the fear of being ordinary.

Idealism is blinding.

The motion of an action is better than no action or indecision at all times.

Stop being a coward, you can reach your potential if you stop being such a coward. Deep down you already know that you're not distracted, you're not lazy, you're just scared.

Just give it your all, give it your everything, be in a fight mode at all times if required but don't stop.

If you stop, the devil will start whispering uncertainties and we can't afford that.

Your dreams should be filled with incoherent words from the paper you were reading right before sleeping and you should be searching for answers as soon as you wake up.

Nothing is stopping you, and you know it.

DO IT.

Where do you buy your meds -(inspiral/ concerta)?

Any pharmacies near Sadar that you know of which sells schedule H drugs?

I used to frequently order from Shruti Veg restaurant but they've spiked up their prices a little too much.

The quality was def good and the quantity justified the price- It used to cost around 290/- for paneer and now it's 400+ so I am looking for other options.

I've tried Step inn, moti mahal but the quantity isn't decent enough.

Any decent suggestions please?

Ofc Inicet is quite close and there are people preparing for neet pg on this sub too.

This is such a lame question and I am ashamed of myself for even posting this but I am tired of talking to myself and I want to just know how others in the same boat are doing.

I manage 6+ hrs per day but still pretty slow.

So if you've taken a anushthasan, you've to skip a few days and it just increases the overall timeline of your anushthasan which is unfair because this is an unfair delay especially if you've taken the anushthasan for some specific benefit.

Nitya sadhna is also not recommended on your periods and I bleed for a week or more sometimes so -.- more delays.

So I've tried just niacin 500 mg non flush version in the past and boy, did it make me cry my heart out!!

So obviously I didn't try it again.

A few days ago I caught sore throat and thought of taking Zinc supplements. The thing is, it comes with combo- so it had like other B vitamins and 150mg niacin.

I took it for 3 days straight and I was crying so much, I figured it must be my PMS because I couldn't think of any other reason.

And then it clicked that it's Niacin exhausting my methyl groups ://.

Finally I feel normal again.

Anyway, do you all get the same reaction from it?

I also react badly to Alcar and NAC but alcar's problem is choline which gives me depression so basically half the supplements in the market just makes me sad lol.

While we're at it, is B6 similar to B3 in terms of exhausting methyl groups? should I stay away from it or give it a try?

Thiamine and riboflavin work great for me but I've developed a tolerance to thiamine (sulbutiamine) unfortunately.

SAM-E is another great supplement for me.

I haven't tried tmg yet because I am afraid that it's choline sparing so will give me depression.

I'd be very grateful for your insights and experiences!

Thank you for reading.

Well, my question is specifically for folks preparing for neet pg.

So this exam requires atleast 8+ months of preparation and it gets so boring just studying all day all alone with nothing going on in life.

How do y'all stop yourselves from scrolling mindlessly or just finding ways to escape via distractions?

Well, neet ug was different - I didn't even have a smartphone back then to keep myself from getting distracted and would just study and sleep but now *sigh*.

Obviously the ones preparing sincerely and the toppers probably don't even deal with such issues and it's just my laziness disguised as procrastination and distraction but still.