u/GasparThePrince

Ive been in a slow steady stream of depression and unemployment. At this point I am losing all hope and I am desperately asking reddit of anywhere that could possibly actually respond to countless resumes sent lol.

It doesnt even have to be permanent. Im going to school come september, I just really need something to do between now and then to keep me from going insane.

This is feeling like a low point and I am desperate

I have BPD, and a large way it has effected me is through impulse buys. These impulsive shopping sprees have done nothing for me but wasted my money and filled my space up with stupid items I dont need.

My poison is Build-A-Bears. I have around 30(?) Of them and I physically dont know what to do with them. I would go to the mall and pick one or two up at a time. They do a little heart ceremony when you get them and you can make a wish and my mentally unstable ass would always wish for my brain to get better.

They were just a good quick hit of dopamine to get me out of the low lows.

And im too attached to their cute little hard plastic eyes to get rid of them. Its a cruel reality knowing eventually I will have to do something with the hoard of teddy bears I have acquired.

Ive gotten better at resisting the impulse buys, but I was in there recently shopping for a kids birthday present and I felt like such an addict. I wanted everything and there were so many new ones I hadn't seen before. They have this dumb box thing thats a plush crab? Its weird but I wanted it so badly BUT I held back and I was so so proud of myself. I did the heart ceremony for the gift and that felt like enough to let me walk out without something for myself.

Shopping is really an addiction, and I'm glad I have gotten better. My mental state is starting to get to a good place and I have spent so much less money on meaningless crap.

Hopefully she likes her Stitch plushie. I cant go in there without practically foaming at the mouth.

I think the amount of armchair critics ive seen telling people theyre playing the game wrong is really getting annoying. Im tired of seeing posts across social media saying:

"Yo**ure only supposed to play 10 minutes at a time" or "Youre progressing too fast" or any of the other criticisms in that realm.

I understand that some people are sufficient playing the game 10 minutes at a time or doing all of these things to make them enjoy it, but its just a game with a severe playtime and content shortage.

I paid a bit over $90 CAD for a game that I play very little of and unlocked everything in over the course of two weeks. For comparison I bought ARC Raiders around the same time for around $50 CAD, played substantially more of it, and am still excited to get on and explore more unique content. Theyre different games in different genres of course, but the content and price difference is almost laughable if I didnt feel ripped off.

I understand that there is a demographic of people who like just popping in for 10 minutes at a time 3-4 times a day. But are those people having fun with it anymore even? Like I played for maybe half hour bursts a couple times a day and I'm already done and feeling unimaginable amounts of buyers remorse. I have a hard time understanding people still getting enjoyment out of seeing the exact same ant related cutscene for the 5th time.

People say its a burn out due to over-consumption like Animal Crossing players had. I think that is beyond incomparable.

Animal crossing had a lot more content, items, and things to unlock that were much more spaced out. I spent so much of my Covid days playing Animal Crossing, and still enjoyed it a year or so after. There was so much more to do and enjoy, not to mention the social aspects that game had.

You can enjoy playing the game however you want, but I am tired of seeing any amount of valid criticism for the game being met with armchair critics coming and saying youre playing wrong.

Bodies are weird, and some health stuff has made it so cold showers are a no go right now.

My hair was bleached and dyed red, but I did that over a month ago before I knew I couldnt take cold showers. Its now a pretty yucky copper colour with some dark brown roots.

Been trying different tricks to wash my hair separately but I really just wanna go back to my natural dark brown so I can look okay and not have to deal with hair issues.

Is there a routine or products that I can use so I can just take regular warm showers and maintain brown dyed hair?