so over the summer I had a weird dynamic with this guy who’s about 7 years older then me, I’m 19. basically I was going down on him and I was actually choking on his d*ck, it was bad like I was gagging and he kept shoving my head down very aggressively and pulling and yanking my hair or thrusting in, my throat hurt for a bit after, and ever since I’ve been so turned off of giving anyone head ever again.

after that experience I don’t really remember what happened next but he ended up apologizing to me because I went around running my mouth how weird he was, he said sorry and told me he was gonna get with his ex again because I taught him how to be kinder to women, then he blocked me on everything. I know I’ll never talk to him again but oddly enough I still think about the situation, it made me realize no matter how much of your boundary’s you sacrifice you will never make someone love you if they simply refuse to meet you at that point. I’m over him I’m just upset it took what happened to make me realize that.

I don’t know he’s cute and he’s very tall I’m 19 though and I don’t want to play step mom, he’s 24 and has full custody, I tried to keep an open mind but it just feels weird.

I’m 19F and I currently have 3900 in my savings and my goal is to get 8000 by October, I’ve picked up a lot of overtime at my job and I’ve been working 40 hours every single week, I feel really guilty when I spend money and I’m trying my best not to, I have my own car and I’m on my own insurance, but I’m not the best driver and I’m still practicing how to drive, so unfortunately I have been taking Uber just because I’m not the best driver, other than that, that’s the only thing that’s been drying me lol

I’m 19F and lost all my freind and a guy I was talking to and I feel so lonely and sad. None of them want to talk to me or be in my life anymore and one of them even blocked me off of everything.

the only thing I’ve proud of is I’ve stopped begging people to stay in my life and i just let things be even though it hurts.

for context: finished with a 3.7 gpa at my community college, did not make their nursing program because they only picked 90 of 500 applicants.

im delayed now a year I’m 19, I don’t know if I should reapply in January or apply for an LPN school then bridge into rn

the pros if I reapply in January and I get in I’ll start Fall 2027 and I’ll be a nurse by May 2029, I’m nervous what if I fail out? I know my gpa represents I know I can study well but everyone keeps telling me how competitive and difficult the program is

the pros to the lpn is it starts March 2027 and I graduate June 2028 with my LPN then I can apply to programs to bridge over into an RN while making decent income (34 dollars an hour). the latest I’ll have my RN this route is 2029 or 2030 depending on when I take the NCLEX-PN which hopefully is right after I graduate

any advice ?

I’m 19F and ever since I was little I’ve always been super emotional and super bossy, and I’ve just noticed the circumstances I grew up in made me lowkey a bad person.

I lash out on people I love constantly, I say hurtful and mean things then beg them for forgiveness, recently I’ve started to just let people go and give them space instead of bombard them with my apology’s, I’ve been trying to be better, but I’m actually such a horrible person.

I think it’s because how I was raised because both my parents were extremely violent and absent, but also the ways I’ve dealt with my own issues, I’m a very impulsive spender, when I’m upset I can easily waste away money, I make choices I regret, when I was in high-school I was being bullied and I paid someone to jump the kid who was bullying me, and I got someone else who liked me to pay for it.

im immature for my age and I don’t think before I act I’m led by my impulses and my emotions, I started going to therapy and picking up hobbies like the gym and journaling just so I don’t stay home and just spiral and make stupider choices idk any advice

I’ve had to let go of so many friendships in my life just because I realized I can’t keep chasing people down and begging for forgiveness or for them to take accountability for their actions.

im just hurt because I feel like I’m in a constant cycle of rumination, I often feel that I do something wrong and then stay in friendships that become resentful and hateful and it feels like no matter how much I say sorry im just stuck holding onto something that’s already gone.

I regret all the times I’ve acted immaturely and I really hope this is the wake up call for me to change my ways, I’m turning 20 in Febuary and the way I act is ridiculou. I hurt people, then beg for their forgivness.

so he lowkey told me he hated me and he just took advantage of me and used me and then he got back with his ex, but like he viewed my tik tok profile a couple weeks ago (he had me blocked on everything, number, insta, etc) and he also like screamed at me in public when I tried to reconcile.

I would love the wisdom, especially as someone who’s constantly working on self improvement and learning myself. I’m excited but very nervous for my 20s and 19 has already put me through a lot mentally

would love to hear !

I’ve entered such a low point mentally, I’m 19 and I got denied from a program I worked so so hard to get into, I had a 3.7 gpa from the pre-reqs but I fell short because the program ran out of space, I’m 19F but I feel like I’m running out of time, I’m now delayed a year, I keep looking at the people who got in, or my freinds on social media who went to a 4 year university, I feel like life is so unpredictable and I’m so anxious because I grew up so poor, my family immigrated here with nothing, i dont want to end up another statistic. everything I have I’ve paid for myself my car, I’m in my own insurance as well, even the program at my community college I’ve paid for the pre/reqs, I really value education and my biggest fear is I end up not getting one. even right now I feel so depressed and unmotivated to study for this accelerated 6 week biology course I’m in, just because after I complete it I’m not gonna be in the program, I have to wait till January to reapply to get in for fall 2027, so it’s just a year of my life on hold and I feel like I’m spiraling in my head.

if I reapply at my community college I would get in for Fall of 2027, my other plan was To apply for an LPN this october that starts in March 2027 then I’d have my LPN by August 2028, then I’d hopefully pass the NCLEX-LPN in a timely matter to which I could apply for a LPN-RN bridge program. I already have all my nursing pre-reqs completed

I’m 19, I worked really hard to get into a nursing school my gpa was 3.7 after completing one year of my community college nursing pre-reqs, then the program didn’t take me because it was to competitive, I honestly want to give up, I’ve looked at LPN programs but they’re so expensive in my state 20k-36k range and I can’t afford that at all. i cant go to a university because my parents won’t consign with me the federal fafsa loan or whatever, and my community college is telling me to just take extra classes like statistics and patho or intro to nutrition and ethics, but honestly I’ve never felt so low and unmotivated in my life, I don’t know what to do

I’ve always wanted to be a nurse I finished my first year of community college nursing pre-reqs with a 3.7 gpa but then got waitlisted a year, I’m 19 years old and I’ve been looking into universitys but my parents refuse to co-sign with me anything, ive explained to them over and over that because I’m under the age of 24 I’m gonna not be able to go to any uni unless the co sign, I genuinely feel so hopeless, I want to be a nurse so bad but I feel like that dream because of them is becoming impossible

so a guy I was seeing apologized to me for using me just for my body, taking advantage of me, and mentally abusing me for like 4 months and he was like “oh yeah you taught me how to become a better man and treat women better” then he got back with his ex and he was like imma treat her better, I lowkey kept harassing him for like a week after his apology with a lot of messages being like “why did I deserve you to do this to me?“ and basically saying a lot of hurtful stuff to him and then he blocked me lol I also started to beg him to pick me but I think I need therapy to unpack that because I have problems, I wish I blocked him tho after his apology instead of him blocking me because I wouldn’t stop saying mean stuff

so a guy I was seeing apologized to me for using me just for my body, taking advantage of me, and mentally abusing me for like 4 months and he was like “oh yeah you taught me how to become a better man and treat women better” then he got back with his ex and he was like imma treat her better, I lowkey kept harassing him for like a week after his apology with a lot of messages being like “why did I deserve you to do this to me?“ and basically saying a lot of hurtful stuff to him and then he blocked me lol I also started to beg him to pick me but I think I need therapy to unpack that because I have problems, I wish I blocked him tho after his apology instead of him blocking me because I wouldn’t stop saying mean stuff

I was talking to this guy for like 4 months and he treated me super super bad, he’d always mix his anger with sexual stuff and constantly try to get back at me for making him angry, basically he said sorry to me for everything he’s ever done, and told me Ive taught him how to be a better person, get this tho he ONLY said sorry after being confronted by a couple of people, he told me I deserve so much better then him and because of me he’s learned how to treat women better and more respectfully and now he’s gonna go do that with his ex. I feel so mad and upset because why am I the blueprint for how you’re gonna treat other people better? especially your ex. for the past few days I’ve basically just been angrily blowing up his phone and he’s been apologizing over and over but I’ve stopped because it’s redundant now but I just feel so HURT.

I’ve heard this saying in a book awhile ago, I want to know what the take is on it? I’ve always been one to fully express my heart out but sometimes I wonder if it’s better to just stay silent.

so if a guy tells you, I wish I was better for you and I treated you right and how I deserve so much better then him, then he goes on to say I taught him a lesson to be a better human and he reconnected with his ex to be better, what do I say??? lmao when he was with me he was super mentally abusive and would mix intimacy with anger. I was being desperate and asking him why couldn’t you just be better for me? 🤦🏻‍♀️