u/Gur_Party

Im a 23M. I can’t even remember the last time I masturbated or watched porn. I was with this girl today, we tried to have sex and I couldn’t stay up. I eat healthy meals everyday, no junk food, I exercise. I was very relaxed, I was actually more calm and in the moment than she was. She was all over the place. I was enjoying the moment. I don’t understand why I can’t stay hard. I take no medicine. I don’t want to take pills or honey packs or none of that crap. I interact with women daily, I’m not nervous. I don’t get it. Any thoughts on what it could be?

I’m new as the flair says and I thought this was just no porn. I can’t have sex in real life? If that’s the case I might as well quit now 😭 I’ll still do the no porn thing but no sex? Can’t do it. I’ve only been off of porn and my phone as much as possible for a week and I’ve already been talking to women in person more. I get you don’t want us to replace the porn addiction with real women and view them as objects. But no sex? So what do we do just hold it in forever? Like someone explain it to me please because at this point I’ve lost track of what the goal is.

I’m 23 years old and honestly at the end of my wits with life. I hate it here. The thought of death genuinely makes me happier than birthdays or anything else.

I have autism and severe social anxiety, so interacting with people feels impossible sometimes because I overthink every little thing. My curiosity comes off as sarcasm a lot when that’s never my intention. Talking to people feels like being chased by Michael Myers with a knife — that constant fear and panic, but during everyday interactions.

I maladaptive daydream about having a love life because I’m lacking that connection in reality. Most days I stay isolated and listen to audiobooks. I feel like such a boring soul. I can’t even do basic adult things well like cooking or cleaning, and it makes me feel worthless.

I did a mental health program once where I had to be there 7 hours a day, 5 days a week for 3 months. To pass it, you were basically forced to talk and interact with people every day. It was like exposure therapy. I usually never talk to anyone, but eventually I got comfortable around those people, and honestly those were the best memories I’ve had since I was around 7 years old. It made me realize how isolated I really am.

Sometimes I wonder if maybe I’m just meant for a mental home because the world feels too overwhelming and scary for me.

Every night before sleep I beg God not to wake me up. This was really just a vent because I never talk to anyone.

Does anyone have advice for someone like me? Or has anyone else felt like this before?