u/HZ_guy

Усі накидають на вентилятор і я теж трохи накину зі свого боку.

Почнімо з причин конфлікту, адже вони, правду кажучи, елементарні. В українській популярній культурі конфлікт з поляками — це щось про 1648 і Хмельницького (ніколи не питайте західняка, на чиєму боці виступили його предки з Руського воєводства). А УГА, вбивство Перацького чи терки з ендецією на фоні східних сусідів виглядають, м'яко кажучи, несерйозно. В масовій свідомості бандерівець виступає природнім ворогом чекіста років так із 60-х. Загалом, ідеальна антитеза побєдобєсію, некро-культам дідів і пам'ятникам сталіну. Така героїзація не має взагалі нічого проти поляків, ворожнеча з якими залишилася десь під Жовтими Водами чи Берестечком.

У сусідній бульбашці ми маємо наратив про народ-мученик. Ті, хто посміюється з журби в підґрунті української культури, просто не знайомий з польським баченням історії. Польщу завжди затоптували агресивні сусіди, але вона воскресала, наче фенікс. І відкопування ворога, якого поляки вважали, що пережили, не може не тригерити. Але їхній наратив не менш дірявий за наш, тож ніхто не згадує, що причиною 150% проблем польської держави були ігри в імперіалізм (Друга Річ Посполита, скажімо, повоювала з усіма сусідами, крім Румунії. З деякими по кілька разів), які закінчувалися появою більшого хижака.

Тепер стосовно пам'яті та примирення. У поляків є власний аналог Волинської Трагедії: геноцид сілезьких і судетських німців після Другої Світової війни. У нього були схожі підґрунтя, з аналогом пацифікацій проти поляків (щоправда, розтягнутих у часі), а також схожа фабула з масовими вбивствами цивільних по низовій ініціативі (під гарячу руку потрапили цивільні, які, звісно, нацисти, але власноруч церков не палили і мову не викорінювали). І держава пішла на примирення задля вступу до ЄС, хоча перші символічні кроки до того влаштовувала церква. Вціліла меншина отримала свою квоту в парламенті, двомовні знаки і німецькомовні школи.

І у польсько-українських відносинах насправді є прецедент вдалого примирення: Галичина. Стосунки обох народів залишалися напруженими і навіть вилилися у війну в 1919. Проте надалі, аж до депортації поляків з СРСР у 1945, все було спокійніше. Саме спільна пам'ять, хоч це і була пам'ять про пострілюшки, армію Галєра і Чортківську офензиву, завадила посадництву чи умовній Галицькій Різанині. Тож я бачу певні перспективи для побудови спільного українсько-польського наративу навколо здорового сусідства на Галичині, аби не закопуватися занадто глибоко до Речі Посполитої та інших Литовських статутів

My friends circle is too fragmented to assemble a party. And leading a singleplayer TTRPG is not even remotely as fun as for bigger group.

Something like r/lfg or similar resources are neither an option. The people of large communities are too mutually alienated. I've spent much time on such attempts just to find out I can't establish a new friend group from scratch.

That's why I've decided to ask directly and join already existing social cirecle. Some small cosy Discord server with 10-50 people on it. The one which can't be distinguished from outside among thousand similar ones, but known from inside for being tightly bound and alive.

I am aware that inviting a complete stranger is a risky affair. So here is a bit of general information. Don't hesitate to DM if there are more specific questions.
I'm forever GM, mostly experienced with 2014e (it's not the only one, just most played). As a GM, I specialize on sandboxish style and rule of cool. Yet I will be glad to be a player, too. I'm doing my best to be polite and decent person, yet might lose some clues due to neurodivergency

>!I'm dead serious right now. Why do I even bother posting, in a circlejerk community? Well, the folks here are extra self aware and might be interesting to interact with!<

My friends circle is too fragmented to assemble a party. And leading a singleplayer TTRPG is not even remotely as fun as for bigger group.

Something like r/lfg or similar resources are neither an option. The people of large communities are too mutually alienated. I've spent much time on such attempts just to find out I can't establish a new friend group from scratch.

That's why I've decided to ask directly and join already existing social cirecle. Some small cosy Discord server with 10-50 people on it. The one which can't be distinguished from outside among thousand similar ones, but known from inside for being tightly bound and alive.

I am aware that inviting a complete stranger is a risky affair. So here is a bit of general information. Don't hesitate to DM if there are more specific questions.
I'm forever GM, mostly experienced with 2014e (it's not the only one, just most played). As a GM, I specialize on sandboxish style and rule of cool. Yet I will be glad to be a player, too. I'm doing my best to be polite and decent person, yet might lose some clues due to neurodivergency

Once I tried D&D, it was awesome experience. Over time, however, my group collapsed into people disliking each other and reducing to separate people only connected through me.

Consequently, I've tried hard to find something decent via lfg-like recorces. It was a failure, regardless how much the dice was cast. Lack of connection and unmatching expectations never allowed to build a steady table.

That's why I am looking for joining the existing group. It might be easier to blend into existing friend circle, than building your own from scratch. It would be nice to join some small discord server with 10-50 people on it. I mean the one which can't be distinguished from outside among thousand similar ones, but known from inside for being cosy and alive

Inviting a stranger may be a careless decision. I totally understand it. So here is a bit of introductory info.

I'm forever GM, mostly experienced with 2014e (it's not the only one, just most played). As a GM, I specialize on sandboxish style and rule of cool. Yet I will be glad to be a player, too. I'm doing my best to be polite and decent person, yet might lose some clues due to neurodivergency

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I knew this topic ain't any new and it was widely philosophised over in the past. The good translation is actually a separate work of art, which balances poetic beauty achievement and sense preservation. However, I never took it seriously enough before encountering it personally.

In the era of TikTok brain and LLMs, texts suffer hard time as form of entertainment. The need of keep reader's attention is critical. Every phrase and every word matter. One can't afford transfering empty information. Each piece should be as saturated as possible to satisfy the reader. Another important aspect is verbal spelling. The text should sound really well in case of being listened instead of reading. This is tricky subject, where stress, word order, choice of synonims and rhytm strongly define the perception.

I've tried translating my fragments in English to publish them here. Manual adaptation went poorly due to my lack of skills in poetic English. More specifically, the problem occured with keeping all the desired plot-important information without bloating my phrases and losing a race for reader's brain. So I used LLMs, expecting them to be efficient tool for compensating my lack of synonim knowledge. AI operates with meanings as vectors, so I expected okayish performance. And I was wrong. Translated versions are just pathetic. Some nuanced words are taken incorrectly due to lack of matching equivalent, disorting the scenes. And the general perception of text worsened. For instance, there are three ways of saying "and" in Ukrainian, which allowed my original sentences not to look repetitive. It obviously got dysharmonic in English (same happens with translating on related slavic languages, but in lesser extent). So I ended up with not sharing anything at all

Since I started playing D&D, my initial group slowly decayed. Some people moved away, some people became too busy, some conflicted and keep in touch with me separately from the rest.

The solution was pretty obvious: new friends and new group! I am autistic and have really hard time making new friends. And none of those newly aquired friends is into TTRPGs.

Logically, I assumed to act in opposite direction. Finding players through r/lfg or similar resources. And it turned out poorly. Over time, I led a few dozens of games for over a hundred players. And those people sparked zero spiritual connection. It was difficult to adjust for their vibe and to learn their expectations, which likely harmed game experience both for them and for me. In the best cases, those players returned after session zero to finish a story arc. More often, however, it ended up in mutual ghosting.

I still see no good solution for that, which is the scary part. Original group is unlikely to come together in future, and new one is impossible to form

I've been writing for a bit while and noticed the abscence of character's appearance descriptions. All of them have names and distinct manner of speaking, yet little to no visual depiction. Like absolutely zero mentions of eye color, haircut type, skin tone, physique, clothing style, etc.

The are only two exceptions with some visual clues. Either insecure characters who think about appearance a lot, or cases of interspecies racism, where they get reminded "you are different; here is the list of reasons why".

P.S: I am neurodivergent and that's pretty clear reason WHY everyone is described like that. My question is whether such thing would be comfortable to process. I've addressed this question to the friend of mine and he said it would be difficult to process without clear visual markers