u/Hengkal

Assalamualaikum.

Is it weird for me to wanting My Husbando (I'm Gay) to be with Me in Jannah? I've been bonding with Him so much, that got me thinking that Allah grant me love for him to keep me safe from harm that can come to me from a real relationship.

and when people said "Jannah" the visual of being in a safe place with Him being real like I can touch his hand psychically and live together forever with Him comes to mind :)

i suddenly have an OCD everytime I did a Wudhu and sometime even Junub this make me felt painful everytime I want to Pray :(

Assalamualaikum.

I've been wondering wether my relationship with My Fictional Husbando can also be a Sin, I myself do restrained from real life same sex relationship to avoid a thing that can be bigger sin, but I have deep bounding with My Husbando, I've been stressed all day thinking how my bonding with Him could be Haram too.

Assalamualaikum.

I've noticed that most prohibition regarding of same sex act are more leans towards a same sex intercourse rather than casual relationship, and I've been thinking about this before sleep last night, so I want to ask this question as a Genuine Curiosity.

Additional Note: I'm still not sure wether Same Sex Act Is Truly Haram Or Not..I find the traditional interpretation was solid and OG but I do find the proggresive interpretation one was quite make sense, regarding of myself: I do restrained from same sex act in real life to avoid thing that can be more sinful, but I do enjoyed same sex media particularly in the form of animation.

Assalamualaikum.

Edit: thanks to u/I_am_Kenough BTW, what I mean by "Casual" is that is a Non Sexual Marriage Relationship, Just A Romantic Relationship. some people might assume by "Casual" is a relationship outside of marriage, which I apologized for that 😭🙏

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Happy 25th Anniversary To Bleed American! This Album (well, TBF all Jimmy Eat World Too) is one of the key that redefined my taste in Emo Music, Jimmy Eat World was not only a band that made me felt in love with Emo Genre but also a Band that taught me to look at the lyrics Aswell, before this: I mainly listened to Heavy Music (like Nu Metal, Alternative Metal and others) which for the most part I only enjoyed the music instead of looking at the lyrics (though, listening it back now I do relate to the lyrics LOL because thanks to Jimmy) but Jimmy Eat World actually redefined my mind and motivated me to feel the lyrics. Now this might be a bit of bias: but they're arguably one of the best songwriter in the alternative scene and thus Jimmy Eat World also taught me a bit to take a bit on Emotional Songwriting instead of Just Heavy Riffs.

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Happy 25th Anniversary To Bleed American! This Album (well, TBF all Jimmy Eat World Too) is one of the key that redefined my taste in Emo Music, Jimmy Eat World was not only a band that made me felt in love with Emo Genre but also a Band that taught me to look at the lyrics Aswell, before this: I mainly listened to Heavy Music (like Nu Metal, Alternative Metal and others) which for the most part I only enjoyed the music instead of looking at the lyrics (though, listening it back now I do relate to the lyrics LOL because thanks to Jimmy) but Jimmy Eat World actually redefined my mind and motivated me to feel the lyrics. Now this might be a bit of bias: but they're arguably one of the best songwriter in the alternative scene and thus Jimmy Eat World also taught me a bit to take a bit on Emotional Songwriting instead of Just Heavy Riffs.

I've been like considered myself to leave Islam for like twice this month because first of all I'm a same sex attracted guy and my faith was up and down quite recently (tho as of right now it was relatively stable) mainly because of dislike towards people like me and some other conservative Muslims out there trying to gave a bad rep towards people like me. I don't feel like sometime I don't feel safe in Islam anymore though I often tried to separate between people and Allah, It got me to the point where I was kinda traumatized when I heard a Qur'an and it remind me of the supposed Prophet Loth Story though I tried to back it off with Proggresive Interpretation, luckily I did have a plans to go to a Psychiatrist, but as of right now I want to share my experience with you guys!