
Here comes the sun
just drew this yesterday afternoon because I was bored, the sirius head part i messed it up many times.

just drew this yesterday afternoon because I was bored, the sirius head part i messed it up many times.
People can always tell theres something off. Nobecause I actually look "in between" gender because I am very dimorphic. Its just that I used to dress like crossdresser. So now I wont do it anymore, it is humiliating and now I see.
I drew this for having this Saturn background now. I usually don’t use the golden Lumi as i prefer her normal skin! But with this new background I think it looks quite nice. Second page is without the effect. maybe gold Lumi is painted with the gold color. the image quality seems to have been affected because the canvas size is small.
I drew this for having this Saturn background now. I usually don’t use the golden Lumi as i prefer her normal skin! But with this new background I think it looks quite nice. Second page is without the effect. maybe gold Lumi is painted with the gold color. the image quality seems to have been affected because the canvas size is small.
The few time I go out without it people will stare at my face with no subtleness at all, with a disgustied expression. I wish people can just ignore it but they of course will not because im subuman (only cis are human).
It is a waste for me to do it if I will still rope eventually. It is expensive and I am Ngmi. Its hard to convince myself that It does not matter but I will live with it.
Just wait until 21 when your skeleton already disgustingly mutilated by puberty, you will never be able to have live the life you should have but it doesnt matter because transitioning is dangerous and your body cant handle such dangerous foreign hormones, what if you regret it? cant risk letting real (cis) humans making mistakes and committing suicide!
i am not rendering often especially lighting things but i am practicing
i cant believe its over even though it clearly is when i look at my skeleton. every day i think maybe if i break my hip and shoulder bones with a skeleton, ill move them until theyre placed correctly, but it wont work. its over
My mother bought ceral for me although i said not to because i used to like it, and i threw all of it out because in paranoid to keep it in the house.
will update every day at night on how much eaten/fasted.
I wonder if it will be like this in the next battle lol, not sure what happened this time