u/IdealLess284

I am sorry for my English, it's not my mother toung.

I heard a saying, be careful what you want it actually can happen to you and you are going to be disappointed by that.

I also heard, in life what you said you don't want to do or you are sure that you are never going to do that. Someday that thing will hapend and it will be surprisingly good, amazing or wonderful.

There days on social media I hear a stories like: a lot successful people are unsatisfied with what they have accomplished. They achieve things, because achieve big goals is going to make them happy.Lots of people work without a feeling satisfied or calm. It is either for families to survive or they don't think and work all day every day to accomplish something, or better say don't listen to themselves.

Kids sometimes study something just because their parents want that.

What you really want?

What you don't want?

What happened to you, that you thought it is never going to happened?

Have you forced a friendship and later regret it?

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Zdravo! Moram da podelim ovo sa vama.

Upoznala sam momka ( on 24 ja 20) pre tri meseca. Prvih mesec dana smo se viđali stalno. Onda je otišao u rodni grad, ne mogu da ulazim u detalje, ali svakako se već dva meseca čujemo preko poruka. Bio je jednom i videli smo se, doduše posle toga je malo nestao, ali sam ja bila uporna i pokušala da saznam šta mu je i rekao je ne može da mi pruži pažnju.

Svakako posle tih poruka gde on meni iskreno kaže da znam na čemu sam, mi nastavljamo da pričamo. Skoro smo se duuugo dopisivali. Ja sam ta koja mu šalje poruke, znam da ne treba, ali volim da de čujem da njim.

Problem je u tome što i kad smo se viđali i sada ja stalnoooo razmišljam o njemu. Zamišljam razne scenarije i ne mogu da prestanem. Nas dvoje kako pričamo. Priznajem da se ja u tim scenarijima žalim na nekoga, prepričavam mu nešto, pričam kako mi je bilo, a nekada zamišljam da povredim zglob i kako mi on pomaže. Sve ovo mi se čini da mi fali nešto u životu. To nešto su naravno obaveze, koje ja svakako imam, i da se skoncenrišem na nešto. Svesna sam toga. Problem je i što ovo više nema smisla, baš sam se preokupirala ovime, ali opet mnogo je zanimljivo.

Iskreno jedva čekam da ga vidim. Uvek imamo o čemu da pričamo, interesantno je, stvarno me pažljivo sluša i razume.

Šta vi mislite o svemu ovome?

....da znam, treba da ga zaboravim i otkačim, pokušavam.

Zdravo svima!

Moram malo javno da se požalim.

Prva godina sam na mašincu. Ja sam završila arhitektonsku i neki tehnički predmeti su mi za sad poznati. Nisam se pronašla baš u arhitekturi, a na građevinu nisam htela iz nekoliko razloga. ETF nikada nije ni bio opcija. Izbor se sveo samo na mašinac iako sam polagala i na GRF-u.

Ne znam šta da kažem. Nije toliko teško, mogu da savladam tj. razumem, ali brate mnogo me smara. Za neke predmete je potrebno više puta da izlazim.

Napravila sam sebi problem gde imam još dva roka da uopšte uhvatim uslov za narednu godinu (što je nemoguće, ali ne sme tako da razmišljam). Ostalo mi je više od pola predmeta, nešto ću morati da prebacim, jer nemam uslov. Svakako hoću ovog bitnog da se rešim.

Kao što sam već napisala ne vidim sebe ovde, ali tek sam na početku i verujem da će mi se otvoriti neki put.

Ovo ponavljam sebi već od novembra meseca.

Studiranje je grozno, ali znam da sam sposobna da učim i da obezbedim sebi neku lepu (finansijski stabilnu) budućnost.

Roditelji mi nisu završili fakultete i zato se sada uzdaju u mene da budem dika i ponos porodice. Ne traže od mene neki visok prosek, ali ne mogu ni godinu da obnovim. To je svakako čista glupost. Gubljenje vremena i oduzimanje para.

Idem sad na more nedelju dana. Grize me savest naravno, ali pokupaću da uživam. Kad se vratim čeka me pakao.

Ako imate nešto da podelite, ja sam spremna da slušam.

Hello everyone, I am 20 years old and I figured it out I need to have one obsession or better say obsessive thoughts for weeks or even months. I used to malodaptive daydream for last couple of years. I detached from myself, what I needs, what I want, what I like. It's very hard in uni, I am studying mechanical engineering and I am trying not to give up every single day. I don't like being in big groups of people. I am quite person and likes to analyse and deep talk.

Sorry for long introduction. I want you to make a better picture of me.

I am usually obsessed with a TV show. I created my identity around it.

I generally realise I am insecure, confused, not interested in critical thinking, just want to do what others tells me to do.

So.... before two months ago I meet one guy, he's 24 and studying medicine. When I saw him I thought " He is so good looking." In May we were seeing eachother every Tuesday and Thursday evening. It was a long talks, we started knowing each other, he's a very good listener, he ask really good questions, we can talk about anything he is smart and very well read.

I really like him. Unfortunately the last time we saw each other he told me he have a BPD\\\* ( Borderline personality disorder). I couldn't even imagine something like that. He's so nice to me. And also he told me he doesn't live in the same city. Few days after he left home.

This whole Jun we were texting. I am the one who started conversation. Sometimes he could reply in a few minutes sometimes in a few hours, but he likes to talk.

This whole time I was reaching what BPD is and I feel really sorry for that people. I was thinking about him and what's his story and sometimes got worried when he doesn't reply for a long time.

At the same time, as I said I reallyyyy enjoyed our conversation in person, I also was thinking how I "talk to him".

Now the problem that thinking stoles my big part of the day and I don't how to stop it once for all. It's better, but I just want to stop having conversations in my mind.

The other problem is we are going to see each other today, I am excited, but I have no idea what to talk to him now 💀. I was studying this morning and now I have some classes, so my mind is occupied, but I feel so stupid how I could think about someone so much. We barely know eachother.

\\\*He is going to therapy and he takes this problem seriously.

Hello everyone, I am 20 years old and I figured it out I need to have one obsession or better say obsessive thoughts for weeks or even months. I used to malodaptive daydream for last couple of years. I detached from myself, what I needs, what I want, what I like. It's very hard in uni, I am studying mechanical engineering and I am trying not to give up every single day. I don't like being in big groups of people. I am quite person and likes to analyse and deep talk.

Sorry for long introduction. I want you to make a better picture of me.

I am usually obsessed with a TV show. I created my identity around it.

I generally realise I am insecure, confused, not interested in critical thinking, just want to do what others tells me to do.

So.... before two months ago I meet one guy, he's 24 and studying medicine. When I saw him I thought " He is so good looking." In May we were seeing eachother every Tuesday and Thursday evening. It was a long talks, we started knowing each other, he's a very good listener, he ask really good questions, we can talk about anything he is smart and very well read.

I really like him. Unfortunately the last time we saw each other he told me he have a BPD\* ( Borderline personality disorder). I couldn't even imagine something like that. He's so nice to me. And also he told me he doesn't live in the same city. Few days after he left home.

This whole Jun we were texting. I am the one who started conversation. Sometimes he could reply in a few minutes sometimes in a few hours, but he likes to talk.

This whole time I was reaching what BPD is and I feel really sorry for that people. I was thinking about him and what's his story and sometimes got worried when he doesn't reply for a long time.

At the same time, as I said I reallyyyy enjoyed our conversation in person, I also was thinking how I "talk to him".

Now the problem that thinking stoles my big part of the day and I don't how to stop it once for all. It's better, but I just want to stop having conversations in my mind.

The other problem is we are going to see each other today, I am excited, but I have no idea what to talk to him now 💀. I was studying this morning and now I have some classes, so my mind is occupied, but I feel so stupid how I could think about someone so much. We barely know eachother.

\*He is going to therapy and he takes this problem seriously.

Hello everyone, I am 20 years old and I figured it out I need to have one obsession or better say obsessive thoughts for weeks or even months. I used to malodaptive daydream for last couple of years. I detached from myself, what I needs, what I want, what I like. It's very hard in uni, I am studying mechanical engineering and I am trying not to give up every single day. I don't like being in big groups of people. I am quite person and likes to analyse and deep talk.

Sorry for long introduction. I want you to make a better picture of me.

I am usually obsessed with a TV show. I created my identity around it.

I generally realise I am insecure, confused, not interested in critical thinking, just want to do what others tells me to do.

So.... before two months ago I meet one guy, he's 24 and studying medicine. When I saw him I thought " He is so good looking." In May we were seeing eachother every Tuesday and Thursday evening. It was a long talks, we started knowing each other, he's a very good listener, he ask really good questions, we can talk about anything he is smart and very well read.

I really like him. Unfortunately the last time we saw each other he told me he have a BPD* ( Borderline personality disorder). I couldn't even imagine something like that. He's so nice to me. And also he told me he doesn't live in the same city. Few days after he left home.

This whole Jun we were texting. I am the one who started conversation. Sometimes he could reply in a few minutes sometimes in a few hours, but he likes to talk.

This whole time I was reaching what BPD is and I feel really sorry for that people. I was thinking about him and what's his story and sometimes got worried when he doesn't reply for a long time.

At the same time, as I said I reallyyyy enjoyed our conversation in person, I also was thinking how I "talk to him".

Now the problem that thinking stoles my big part of the day and I don't how to stop it once for all. It's better, but I just want to stop having conversations in my mind.

The other problem is we are going to see each other today, I am excited, but I have no idea what to talk to him now 💀. I was studying this morning and now I have some classes, so my mind is occupied, but I feel so stupid how I could think about someone so much. We barely know eachother.

*He is going to therapy and he takes this problem seriously.