Regarding spouse.
Is my husband cheating again ?
Salams everyone
I have been married for a few years, no kids yet due to health issues but Im alright now alhamdulliah. We were going to try soon In sha Allah.
For context , my husband is a very nice and kind man. He provides for me well. And I have a very toxic family so he is the only family I have. He is very religious and also has always been there for me during thick and thin.
Few years ago, around 2021 my husband , my husband had to travel for work quite alot. So he would come home once a week. And he was quite distant and weird with me. And he was very protective of his phone. One night he had fallen asleep so I went through his phone. I found out he had downloaded telegram and he was sex-ting multiple men. But with those men , he was describing about me. And those men about there wives. And he took an underwear of mine and sent a pic. Also they spoke very filthy of each others wives in a very sexual manner. No gay stuff btw. My heart sank, he cried and apologised and somewhow long story short , after a long time I forgave him.
He deleted everything and he was normal, we had to move cities 2 years later due to his work.
After we moved , after a month or so , he was again suddenly acting weird . I gave it sometime and went through his phone , to see this time he was directing messaging women and sex-ting. Multiple women only sexting , no emotional affair. There was one woman where he had told her to come on video call that night , wearing what he tells her to wear and also to do what he says. I confronted him and told him I need divorce. He cried his eyes out and begged me. I said no, i need a divorce. Then he said he doesnt feel any satisfaction after we r intimate and he really needs to do ruqaya etc, coz he doesnt know whats happening to him..We did Ruqaya for him and actually got to know someone had done black magic on him for him to behave this way. This was proven , I was present. Obviously I instantly forgave him and we hugged each other and cried.
Since then everything has been great. Alhamdulliah. Our intimate life got sooo much better and we were dng so well.. I forgave and forgot about all that.
Now the problem is , since May 1st this year , he again started to act weird. He was extra protective of his phone. I sometimes felt he quickly closed something when I went close. He hasnt been super intimate or close to me like before. My gut kept saying something is wrong , and usually always my gut is right. But this time he is not hiding away in another room or living room like he used to before. But he has been different. My gut kept saying that. So without checking his phone , I confronted him. He said wallahi nothing like that etc. And all that. I thought ok.. Ill accept. But still I felt something was wrong. I kept asking Allah to show me a sign if something is wrong.
Last night he fell asleep early. I slowly took his phone to check , i couldnt find anything. He is also extremely tech savy and he knows how to hide apps etc. So I tried my best but couldnt find anything. But right before I kept the phone back , I quickly went through his email. Here we go , he had downloaded telegram app premium on May 5th , and paid for 1 week. Nd he had deleted , this email was in his bin folder. I wokeup him up immediately and confronted. He acted confused and he immediately said I dont remember. I kept telling him to be honest.. he said wallahi I dont remeber and cried. I said if he downloaded this for some work or whatever ( which is not needed ).. why did he have to delete the email. The whole bin had 3 emails deleted. 2 spams and this one , so it was intentional.
He kept saying I cant remember and I said how cn u not.. its only been 1 week since u paid for it. So I told him, we will talk once u remember and I waited for a long time and he said he actually cant rmbr. And I eventually fell asleep.
He had left home when I wokeup, so Im waiting till he comes back.
Am I right or wrong in this situation? Do u think Im overthinking coz of the past trauma or am I correct ?
Please dont tell me gng through the phone is wrong , its my husbands phone plus its not a suspicion out of nowhere.
Please advice.
Jzk khair.