u/Instant-Lava

Larely I've come to the realization that I've got more grieving and acceptance work to do. And it's hard to fully lean into the reality that I need to do less and live a simpler life - that my prized "drive" is a symptom and not helpful. It's also difficult to admit that my perception of what's simple is distorted.

The moment I think I've evaluated my mental and physical load realistically...wham...here's the symptoms that tell me this isn't be true even though I've already adjusted so much of my life.

The insight to know this - I have gratitude for it and also it stings. Just needed to get that out.