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The surgeon I am seeing and paying out of pocket to see has to remove one horizontal impacted and one regular impacted but with a huge long root that is causing damage to my second molar on that side.

I am in SO much pain. I just had to be on antibiotics 10 days. So I cant wait to get this taken care of.

But they said this morning they dont prescribe pain medication regularly even gor impacted wisdom teeth requiring removing bone.

I am so confused.

How is that supposed to work? Ibuprofen and Tylenol do not touch the pain i am currently in and I am assuming that it will improve once theyre removed but for a week or so after...isnt it going to hurt like crazy?

I also have a rare pain condition that amplifies and keeps sending pain signals even after an injury has healed...so i am afraid if the pain isnt treated i will end up feeling like i just got surgery for months if not for the rest of my life. I have worked so hard to get my pain condition in remission but this is the kind of thing that could throw it back into overdrive.

Is this unreasonable to ask for pain medication for the recovery?

Just had a shitty appointment with a new doctor trying to secure a primary care provider

Thankfully my main prescriber is still managing my meds and has no problem with adderall and doesnt treat me like I'm a junkie but she is now strictly behavioral health and I need a primary to manage my other conditions and referrals etc.

This bitch seemed to be suggesting that the symptoms i am experiencing are because I am addicted to adderall. "Have ypu tried taking breaks?" Like...from being disabled? Sure every other Thursday I stop having neurological conditions, brain injuries deficits in functioning and chronic pain so I can enjoy the good life. But the rest of the time I keep my "I'm disabled now" switch flipped to on.

For context I went in to get my a1c checked and thyroid panels etc and a referral for a neurologist.

I am wondering what other people have experienced as far as doctors treating you differently for being on Adderall. Have you ever switched to another stimulant and been judged differently?

Is there anything that seems to help as far as phrasing when asking about conditions that doesnt trigger "its the adderall" assumptions from doctors? Or any other advice anout handling the stigma attached to adderall

This doctor put "controlled substance dependency " on my list of diagnoses and I do not understand why she felt that was important

Also asked me 3 times. 3. What drugs I use. Not if. But what kind....

Last year i was constantly being bombarded by flashbacks and "memory downloads" and now I cant remember much of anything. I dont know if I am even switching anymore. Well. I thought that and then several times I have in public and realized it because I tried to use my old phone number etc.

I thought I had got over doubt and denial.

"I hate you"

Almost 5 year old is CONSTANTLY fighting me on everything that is non negotiable. I do ALL the things. Choices. Connecting with her before correcting (when possible) Consistent consequences. Gamifying things. Rewarding and praising wanted behavior. Age appropriate expectstions. Etc etc etc.

We have even been getting child parent coaching with doctorate level professionals so I know how to handle this YARG FEST. But today has been so hard.

Im recovering from an infection after having kidney stones. I cant be in the sun because of the antibiotics I am on and its making dealing with my kid so much harder because I cant go pull weeds for 10 minutes to calm down etc. The kidney stones happen for me but for years i haven't had them regularly because being a single parent has taught me how to for real for real prioritize self care and balance and also no more arugula. (I miss it but oh well.) I think I had stones this time, in part, because I have been SO stressed out and EXHAUSTED by the defiance and for almostthe entire summer vacation my usual childcare options have been on vacation. I just had several days without her but was running on fumes and then went to the bathroom and saw blood and so my days were spent in agony/urgent care/sleeping/dry heaving etc. I blame her. (Not outloud) And I feel guilty about blaming her.

The violent outbursts over seemingly tiny stuff. The TONE she talks to me in. Throwing stuff spitting on me etc just to see what I do. And its always the same. Intercept, when possible, blows to my body. Then Consequences. Tons of effort in recovery to prevent this behavior but some days it just seems like we are doomed to be miserable all day. She fights EATING FOOD. Today I literally said "lets do McDonald's for lunch" becaus I COULD NOT FIGHT HER ON A MEAL AGAIN and she said "no I dont want McDonald's today."

Nap time she was fighting me to lay down. "Ok Consequence then." Then she screamed "I hate you." And i just took a deep breath and looked at her and said "I can tell. You are making that so clear by the way you are treating me today." I normally tell her softly, thats fine. I love you and I always will, even when you break the rules/hit/yell etc" but today. I said what I said and then followed up with "sleep well. I love you."

Shes napping now and I hope to also nap but I also just want to go cry because why.is.this.so.hard?

My kid acts like a spoiled brat when its just us and it makes no sense to me. I feel like a failure and I am resenting my friends for being on vacation because I feel like I am doing this totally alone.

I grew up in a violent abusive unpredictable household and I will not repeat the same pattern. And I am not. But I still get violence? Ahhhhhhhh.

I just needed to write this out. If anyone has any succinct advice about how to deescalate power struggles or scripts for "i know you don't want to but we have to" or ways to gamify it or something...please help. I understand not everything has to be fun for her but lately I need the fun/game FOR ME. I'm going to go sit in the shade and cry now.

Almost 5 year old is CONSTANTLY fighting me on everything that is non negotiable. I do ALL the things. Choices. Connecting with her before correcting (when possible) Consistent consequences. Gamifying things. Rewarding and praising wanted behavior. Age appropriate expectstions. Etc etc etc.

We have even been getting child parent coaching with doctorate level professionals so I know how to handle this BULLS\*\*\*. But today has been so hard.

Im recovering from an infection after having kidney stones. I cant be in the sun because of the antibiotics I am on and its making dealing with my kid so much harder because I cant go pull weeds for 10 minutes to calm down etc. The kidney stones happen for me but for years i haven't had them regularly because being a single parent has taught me how to for real for real prioritize self care and balance and also no more arugula. (I miss it but oh well.) I think I had stones this time, in part, because I have been SO stressed out and EXHAUSTED by the defiance and for almostthe entire summer vacation my usual childcare options have been on vacation. I just had several days without her but was running on fumes and then went to the bathroom and saw blood and so my days were spent in agony/urgent care/sleeping/dry heaving etc. I blame her. (Not outloud) And I feel guilty about blaming her.

The violent outbursts over seemingly tiny stuff. The TONE she talks to me in. Throwing stuff spitting on me etc just to see what I do. And its always the same. Intercept, when possible, blows to my body. Then Consequences. Tons of effort in recovery to prevent this behavior but some days it just seems like we are doomed to be miserable all fucking day. She fights EATING FOOD. Today I literally said "lets do McDonald's for lunch" becaus I COULD NOT FIGHT HER ON A MEAL AGAIN and she said "no I dont want McDonald's today."

Nap time she was fighting me to lay down. "Ok Consequence then." Then she screamed "I hate you." And i just took a deep breath and looked at her and said "I can tell. You are making that so clear by the way you are treating me today."

Shes napping now and I hope to also nap but I also just want to go cry because what in the actual fuck.

My kid acts like a spoiled brat when its just us and it makes no sense to me. I feel like a failure and I am resenting my friends for being on vacation because I feel like I am doing this totally alone.

I grew up in a violent abusive unpredictable household and I will not repeat the same pattern. And I am not. But I still get violence? Ahhhhhhhh.

I just needed to write this out. If anyone has any succinct advice about how to deescalate power struggles or scripts for "i know you don't want to but we have to" or ways to gamify it or something...please help. I understand not everything has to be fun for her but lately I need the fun/game FOR ME. I'm going to go sit in the shade and cry now.

Im seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow and I'm terrified. I was diagnosed before with bipolar 1 with psychotic features when I was in hospital. 6 years ago. But they never medicated me and after looking at my records from a previous inpatient stay they told me "no its DID" which fit more with what I was experiencing. I didnt have any episode really until last year and I'm on medications that are supposed to trigger mania in bipolar patients. Ptsd with osychotic features is what most of my providers agree on. I have had a TBI and I also have narcolepsy. Last year I was on a new medication for the narcolepsy and I lost my marbles. Ive never experienced anything like that and got arrested (charges were dropped) and spent a week in the hospital but no one really talked to me about what happened. As far as the psychosis.

I was still experiencing psychosis for months afterwards but I was aware that my thoughts made no sense so I dont think it was obvious to anyone else. It was also post traumatic...so I had all those symptoms but now I think it might have actually been mania.

Im just really scared. I dont want to get in trouble and I'm embarrassed to talk about what my delusions were and I don't want to lie but I also dont know how to explain so much of it.

I guess I just wanted to tell someone because I dont have many people in my life I can talk to about this.

I found a deodorant that doesnt give me a rash and doesnt make me smell worse. I get painful cysts in my armpit from most deodorant so I just shower multiple times a day and use witch hazel under my arms for the last decade and learned to accept that I smell a bit like armpit sometimes.

Maybe its silly but I just wanted to share this. I recently started dating again and I decided I would try some of the deodorant recommended on here and it smells good. I smell good. Even after working outside in 84 degrees all day.

Im a female so this is exciting for me to feel like this part of my femininity is possible again. Hooray!

Just had an appointment with my sleep specialist. I am on sunosi and 100mg Adderall and baclofen. The sunosi was really helping a lot to a point where i wasnt needing to take every dose of my IR Adderall and being able yo reduce it by about 15mg some days. Which is a big deal. Normally I am DRAGGING even with every dose.

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The sunosi is suddenly giving my insomnia after having no issues with it for the last month. So I'm going to try reducing it and see if that helps.

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I'm so tired of this. I dont want to be broken anymore. I'm not depressed but I am sad that some days all I can do is lay down and nap. Do one thing. Then lay down and nap.

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Im a single mom and I feel like I'm failing my kid. I'm starting to date again and part of me thinks who would ever want to be with me when I fall over when I'm excited or crushing on someone and have to nap constantly etc etc.

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It just sucks and I was so encouraged because I was doing so much better on the sunosi and now I'm nauseous and constipated and cant sleep when I want to sleep. I know these things take time but fucking eh sometimes I feel like my whole life has been waiting to see a new doctor waiting to try a new medication waiting for side effects to subside waiting for a refill.

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I very very rarely complain about being disabled. This isnt my only disability. But today I'm just sad and discouraged and want to be functional.

I've started and had to stop sunosi a few times over the last year (too tired to go into details) I have been back on it and retitrated to 150mg for over a month now. Maybe more like 6 weeks. I was falling asleep fine up until like 2 weeks ago. I thought at that time it was just because I had a cold and that always messes with my ability to fall sleep. (Plus the sneeeeezing! Which was brutal this time.) But i am still really struggling to fall asleep.

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Im on baclofen 30mg and practice solid sleep hygiene. I have hydroxyzine i take as needed for anxiety and a few times I have taken that just because my brain wouldnt shut off and I was starring to get super anxious that I still hadnt fallen asleep. But then the next morning I was STRUGGLING to actually wake up.

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I am overly sensitive to sound when I'm trying to sleep now to the point of having to take the battery out of my clock because it bothers me.

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I have an appointment with my sleep doctor in 2 days but I am starting to feel really discouraged. I want desperately to start sodium oxybates but I am a single mom and my doctor isnt confident in me starting it until my kid is a bit older. I used to be on mirtazapine to help me sleep but it made me fat and SO emotionally blunted I do not want to go back onto it. I dont know if increasing the baclofen makes sense.

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Has anyone had insomnia from sunosi and it resolved quickly? Are there other medications to help with sleep that are not antidepressants and that might benefit sleep architecture?

Im posting to keep myself accountable. I have DID (and narcolepsy) and I have been hospitalized several times for what I thought was ptsd induced psychosis. (I was struggling with insomnia which is very common with narcolepsy) Last year I had a psychotic episode from a medication for my narcolepsy and ended up getting handcuffed (charges were dropped) and in the hospital.

I was diagnosed with BP1 during one of my hospitalizations but after discussing it quite a bit, it seemed like a misdiagnosis and I just focused on maintaining good sleep hygiene and routine and self care etc and had no major issues for 4 years. Until the major episode last year. I'm realizing that the symptoms do actually fit, I just seem to have quite a bit of insight and do not act on delusions (and generally do not fully believe them. ) but I am still coming to terms with the amount of damage I did during the months leading up to and following the hospitalization.

I am scared because the medications I take for narcolepsy are stimulants and I have zero quality of life without them. I know I need to talk to a psychiatrist and already told my case manager I need to. I am terrified of turning into an overmedicated-for-bipolar zombie and losing access to my stimulant medications that really do seem essential for my stability and overall mental health. My guess is that I didnt notice so much when I had depression because when medicated I just stick to self care and behavioral therapy instead of being bed ridden. (Which i have been when I have not been medicated for my narcolepsy. Unmedicated I struggle to stay awake for more than 90 minutes and am easily asleep for 20+ hours a day and thats during euthymia.)

I am scared of what comes next...but I am more scared of thinking I know what's going on and ending up trespassing and getting hit in the head with a gun, again, due to psychosis. I never had anything like that happen until the medication I was on ( that I am no longer taking) but I can't keep lying to myself that "everyone has that." About my symptoms.

How? Has anyone with narcolepsy/IH done it successfully? I am not using NRT and it is not being hard for me psychologically at all (hallelujah) but I was just feeling like I have enough wakefulness to make it through a day and feed myself and do dishes and shower after upping my sunosi dose and now because I decided I need to quit smoking (I do) I can not stay awake.

Im on day 5.

I am on sunosi and 100mg Adderall per day and have been going to sleep early (I take baclofen) and sleeping like CRAP, waking up constantly and even had a nightmare for the first time in a year last night. I normally need one or two 8-12 minute naps throughout the day but since quitting my naps are lasting longer (30-45 minutes) and happening way more frequently. Like it feels like my entire day is being spent sleeping with maybe 5-10 minutes of functionality every 2 hours.

Cataplexy seems to be way worse lately which is actually really weird to remember how trippy it is ha.

Has anyone had success with quitting smoking? I am so tired of being a slave to nicotine and smelling like cigarettes. Please give me some encouragement and any ideas or advice. (I do not want to start vaping.)

But we told ourself it would be hard.

I keep crying.

I am shocked I have made it so far.

I cant stop picking at my fingers. I feel totally off. Like I have no idea what I am doing AT ALL.

Time feels completely unreal.