u/JoudHamwi

أنا ملحد لا ادري من حوالي ٨ اشهر ومن اول ما الحدت وانا عم حاول لاقي اصدقاء من نفس تفكيري أو على الأقل متقبلين.

قلت لصاحبي اللي بعرفه من خمس سنين اني الحدت وكان كتير رافض للفكرة وهددني أنه يقول لأهلي. We had a... Break up? Idk الزبدة أنه ما عاد حاكاني.

وحاليا اول السنة الدراسية بيطلع أنه الطالب اللي قاعد بالمقعد اللي خلفي ملحد! كان ممكن اشك بأي أحد عداه.

كان عندنا حصة رياضة وكنا عم نحكي والزبدة جبنا سيرة الإلحاد وقلي اسماء ملحدين عرب أنا ما بعرف عنهم 😭. صدمني كتير وبعد كم يوم قلي أنه هو ملحد وأنه بيعرف اصدقاء ملحدين.

كنت عم مر بحالة انعزال وكنت مكتئب جدا وخاصة بعد ما ال best friend عمل حاله ما بيعرفني. بس هلق بعد ما لقيت هادا الشخص حاسس بأنه عنجد في أشخاص كتير متلي وعايشين نفس الحياة ونفس التخباية ونفس الخُراء، وعرفت أنه قد ما كانت الشغلة اللي بتحبها niche وغير معروفة حتلاقي ناس متلك وبنفس تفكيرك واللي حسن لي نفسيتي كتير.

Anyway that was my story. Drop yours!

هل في حدا موجود هون عالصب عاملها؟ أنه طالع على غير دولة باللجوء الانساني بسبب الاضطهاد. لاني سمعت أنه الاضطهاد المجتمعي بسبب ترك الدين يعتبر سبب كافي لللجوء ببعض الدول. هل هادا شي حقيقي؟ وشو اللي ممكن يعتبروه اضطهاد؟ وشو الإجراءات لحتى الواحد يعمل هيك شي؟

الاتنين قتلوا كتير ناس والاتنين كانوا سيئين. بس المنظمات الإرهابية اللي بتتبع نظام محمد وقوانينه لهلق موجودة بينما النازيين انتهوا من سنين. انا بقول محمد. شو رأيكم وليش؟

I mean honestly? They both killed a lot of people, they both were terrible humans. But Mohammed-following terroristic organizations are still present to this very day while the Nazies ended years ago. I would go with Mohamed. What do you all think?

اديش اعماركم؟

So I am a 15 year old male, who was born in a very religious household and community. My mom used to always force me to study Quran because "I'll get to make her wear a crown in heaven". I started going to the mosque at about 8-9 years old and I memorized two thirds of the Quran. Then I went to an Islamic middle school for 3 years and learned so much about Islam and I just finished 9th grade like today, I had my last exam today and it was 3Keda or 'Keda which tells you what to believe and stuff. I grew up not liking religion that much you know just doing it but I had absolutely no intention or even thoughts about convertion.

Then I started watching a person online who's an atheist and I started watching him as the guy who was explaining logical fallacies because I'm into that and I didn't know he was an atheist until later. Then I started watching his videos and he was against Islam's bad ideas such as slavery and women treatment and terr*rism. I was watching him at first for fun because I grew up with the idea of converting not even being an option and it was so so so frowned upon I mean some extremists can literally kill you. So then as I kept on watching and kept on discovering false stuff about the religion I started not praying or fasting at first then gradually thought that I don't even consider myself a Muslim so I officially converted to an atheist agnostic.

It felt terrible at first, cause you're still questioning you're still wondering whether God is real or not because you were born into thinking Islam is the one and only true religion and it is the absolute truth whatsoever, wrong, very wrong. It has a lot of wrong ideas it has a lot of contradictions and so many bad things.

I still can't tell anyone yet, it is a secret and nobody knows except me and a friend of mine. If my mother knows she will literally disown me it's NOT a joke to her. But you know what? It's absolutely worth it, the feeling of finally being free and being able to reject wrong ideas is so amazing. And the friend I told about my conversion was surprisingly not very protective, I mean he tried a LOT to talk me out of it but his arguments were very weak and not convincing.

It's been a couple of months now, leaving religion was a very good decision for me and it has changed the way I think and perceive things to the better. But I want to tell you something, if you're scared about conversion and thinking it's a bad thing just fucking do it, Islam is not a good religion and you will not regret leaving it I swear it will change your life. Gods just don't make sense after all, if you're skeptical, it's worth it I promise. You will find it hard at first to stay in bond with your community and culture but it's okay it's gonna get better you will find your people. I went through three years of being in an Islamic school and I could do it so I bet you can do it too!

So this was my story I hope you enjoyed and thanks for reading! I apologize if there are any mistakes English isn't my first language. If you're still reading please drop an upvote so others can see this.

Okay, so I'm a 15 year old guy living in a very small house with my mom. I don't have siblings and my father left me when I was 7 and he always hated me. I grew up with my mom all sad and shit about her divorce (she doesn't seem to have gotten over it even now) and I didn't know what was going on and my mom was neglectful and I used to get bullied a lot in school for being weird. I grew up very weird and I didn't have many friends and used to have very bad social skills. Until about when I turned 13 I started knowing what was going on and started trying to be better socially and tried to blend in and started having some friends. And in the meanwhile my relationship with my mom who's also very narcissistic was very neutral and typical. Until one day I started having OCD out of nowhere and I started having so much anxiety about so many things most of them were around cleanesness and hygiene (beside intrusive and repetitive thoughts but that's a different story) and I used to wash my hands a lot until they become completely white (I still have OCD and my hands are still white). And then I started getting comments from my mom, they started out as "Dude stop washing your hands what's wrong with you?" And they somehow became "Retard" "Insane" "Crazy" "No girl is gonna want to marry you if you stay like this you freak". All of that just because I had a mental condition that I can't control. And honestly these comments really really fucked me up and when they started getting more frequent I just decided that I hate this woman and I can't wait till I move out. We started having more and more arguments and I started defending myself just how anybody would do, I said that I can't control it that it's not something you should bully me about but it felt like I was talking to a fucking wall, the comments persisted and she kept her idea that I can control OCD.

Beside the OCD comments she's also a Muslim who is extremely religious, and because she was very religious she thought that if i memorize the whole Quran which is a 600 page book that uses extremely hard vocabulary, that if I memorize it all I will be able to put a crown on her head in the afterlife so she can go to heaven. So she would always try to force me into memorizing it and studying it and praying and all this stuff and revolved all of her "love" for me around whether I was religious enough or not.

Besides her turning every small comment, every word, every movement from me to me hating her like I swear to God I might just slightly criticize her purse and she'll be like "You only don't like it because *I* am wearing it, why do you hate me what did I do to you?" Nothing, bitch, you did nothing.

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I'm sorry if the post doesn't seem all put together my thought process isn't great right now I'm really sad. And also sorry if there are any mistakes English isn't my first language. And please tell me your thoughts about this I'm really not alright in this period and if you don't have anything to say please drop an upvote so more people see it. Thanks for reading!

Okay, so I'm a 15 year old guy living in a very small house with my mom. I don't have siblings and my father left me when I was 7 and he always hated me. I grew up with my mom all sad and shit about her divorce (she doesn't seem to have gotten over it even now) and I didn't know what was going on and my mom was neglectful and I used to get bullied a lot in school for being weird. I grew up very weird and I didn't have many friends and used to have very bad social skills. Until about when I turned 13 I started knowing what was going on and started trying to be better socially and tried to blend in and started having some friends. And in the meanwhile my relationship with my mom who's also very narcissistic was very neutral and typical. Until one day I started having OCD out of nowhere and I started having so much anxiety about so many things most of them were around cleanesness and hygiene (beside intrusive and repetitive thoughts but that's a different story) and I used to wash my hands a lot until they become completely white (I still have OCD and my hands are still white). And then I started getting comments from my mom, they started out as "Dude stop washing your hands what's wrong with you?" And they somehow became "Retard" "Insane" "Crazy" "No girl is gonna want to marry you if you stay like this you freak". All of that just because I had a mental condition that I can't control. And honestly these comments really really fucked me up and when they started getting more frequent I just decided that I hate this woman and I can't wait till I move out. We started having more and more arguments and I started defending myself just how anybody would do, I said that I can't control it that it's not something you should bully me about but it felt like I was talking to a fucking wall, the comments persisted and she kept her idea that I can control OCD.

Beside the OCD comments she's also a Muslim who is extremely religious, and because she was very religious she thought that if i memorize the whole Quran which is a 600 page book that uses extremely hard vocabulary, that if I memorize it all I will be able to put a crown on her head in the afterlife so she can go to heaven. So she would always try to force me into memorizing it and studying it and praying and all this stuff and revolved all of her "love" for me around whether I was religious enough or not.

Besides her turning every small comment, every word, every movement from me to me hating her like I swear to God I might just slightly criticize her purse and she'll be like "You only don't like it because *I* am wearing it, why do you hate me what did I do to you?" Nothing, bitch, you did nothing.

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I'm sorry if the post doesn't seem all put together my thought process isn't great right now I'm really sad. And also sorry if there are any mistakes English isn't my first language. And please tell me your thoughts about this I'm really not alright in this period and if you don't have anything to say please drop an upvote so more people see it. Thanks for reading!

Okay a lot of people might disagree with me but I am totally supportive of abortion. My idea is, why do you wanna have an abortion? It's either you're not ready, or can't support a child or raise them. So isn't just aborting them better for them in general? If they're not gonna live a happy and fulfilling childhood I mean I think it'd be better off not letting them exist at all.

What do you guys think?