u/Kindly_virus0

It's going to be 1 year since i joined the college. Was happy when I joined the GMC but everything changed. It's been 1 year since I joined the college and I am now questioning my career choice.

It feels like I have no interest in medicine. I have rarely attended dissection and practical classes. Never opened any standard book. Passed the exam through markings and notes like johari and the moment exam ended I forgot everything.

Practical exams were humiliation, never scored good there. I have no knowledge about anything and I am just not interested. Everyone here talks about medicine but I don't. Don't have any friends and always all alone questioning why I even joined this field. Not studying is different thing but not getting any interest or will to study.

At this moment I just don't know what to do.

It's been going on for the past year. We exchange glances. Sometimes we smile, and sometimes, when we notice each other, one of us suddenly looks away. Whenever we're close to each other, there's always some kind of tension between us, but we've never spoken.