u/LadyMoonstone

I’m debating on selling my M4 cellular iPad Pro 13” and getting a Neo because the iPad is currently collecting dust, and while I do have a desktop, I need a laptop for school.

My partner has my old MBP that he’s using for his business stuff and I gave it to him before deciding I’d finally take the plunge to go back to school. I’m using a loaner laptop from the college but I think I should get a Neo (or maybe an Air) so I have a laptop. But on the other hand I keep thinking maybe I’ll use the iPad more again eventually.

Did any of you sell off your iPad and get the Neo to replace it? Or did you keep your iPad and get a Neo?

Saw I had one bin as I pulled in. Cringed cuz I knew it would be Longview. :( Route was 7 packages. Had to take one back to the warehouse per Amazon support because of a bad Amazon locker at the Chevron station. Drove 136.45 miles and my mileage deductions for this route ended up being $103.70 which was more than I even made on the route. Thankfully, I do drive an EV, so the overall cost to me, other than my time and sanity, was very little, but ugh. I hate Longview with a passion. 😩

I decided to try a 1.5 hour route and I don’t know if I’ll ever try one again. The route was 2 packages. One Hillsboro and one Forest Grove. First stop would be 50 minutes away and who even knows how far the Forest Grove stop would’ve been. And that’s before considering Hwy 26 traffic coming back home… I was not going to have a 1.5 hour route be a 4 hour route from traffic. It is the first time I’ve ever used the “end route” button and returned the packages into the drop box at VOR3 instead of even attempting the route.

We have a 9 month old and a second on the way. I’m tired of us fighting all the time. He isn’t supportive of us having a second baby even though we both wanted one. I always said I’d do this alone if I had to. I said that my last pregnancy and this one too. We’re in a blue state bordered with another blue state so I do have options. I can’t do an abortion with the pills due to an uncommon allergy to one of them.

I’d have to do a surgical one and I can’t find a Planned Parenthood here that does it so I’d need to go to the neighboring state. I haven’t had any real positive feelings about my pregnancy throughout, in part due to all of his issues and also how once again my family isn’t supportive either. We also had a relative very unexpectedly get super sick and die and it shook up our world a good bit and really fucked with my kids dad. My friends are so excited for me and have all said they’d help me, and I know they’re being truthful on that, but even so I just feel so fucking alone. I want this baby and the absolute last thing I want is to have an abortion, and I feel like if I have an abortion then he finally “won” and I’ve given up everything else.

This isn’t about winning or losing, but that doesn’t change the fact that he’s “won” by wearing me down to the point that I’m actually becoming open to doing this. I have no clue how I will do 2 under 2 without him and I don’t have the money to easily leave anymore or to even rent a different place and I can’t move home. I decided a few days before I found out I was pregnant that I wanted to go back to school so I could do a bit more within my field. I start school Monday. I’ve worked so hard on that.

I’ve been exploring resources and researching as best I can so I can make a plan with my life. The school thing is only possible right now because the school gave me an override to enroll in classes without payment because they are still processing my financial aid award, but I will qualify for grants, and I also submitted some additional paperwork for additional funding, which I’m honestly hoping will be enough to maybe help me float through on bills a little bit too while I go to school. I left a toxic low paying job a few weeks ago and I’ve been doing Amazon and DoorDash to try and make ends meet. I have job interviews lined up and because I have some very specific skills within my field, it does make getting employed a bit easier.

The job I left wasn’t in my field. It was just something I took on because I needed a break from what I do because it was wearing on my mental health and my last job within my field did not handle things appropriately with my pregnancy and I had to report them to the state. But everything I dealt with last time I was pregnant makes me a bit afraid for being pregnant again and potentially running into a similar situation.

Honestly, I might delete this later, and I don’t really need advice about how my kids dad is a piece of shit or how I’m depressed. I’m aware of both. I’ll probably still just go through with my pregnancy and deal with a lack of support from him and from my family and if it hits a point where I have to go live in a motel or my car to make this work, then I will, but I’m just tired of feeling like shit. I just want to feel happy and have my family and not have to lose my second child and be able to make something of myself… I’ve been crying all day and I just need to get this off my chest.

I’ve posted a bit about this before, but breast-feeding was a horrible experience for my daughter and the last time, and I struggled a bit with guilt initially with transitioning my daughter to the formula. That being said, moving her to formula was the best thing that I ever did.

This time around for my second baby, I think I want to just do formula, and maybe if I am feeling OK enough with it, I might pump a little bit, mainly with the wearable, even though I know the wearable does not pull anywhere near as much as the one that kind of chains you to the wall

I am sticking with my same midwife that I transferred over to in the middle of my last pregnancy, and I plan to deliver it the same hospital as last time. Do I just bring this up with my midwife at my next appointment? Or do I wait until I’m at the hospital? Or how do you approach the topic of wanting to start with formula feeding from the beginning? If I have to do a little bit of breast-feeding and/or pumping in the hospital, I will do my best to deal with that, but I am already anxious about that part, and this baby isn’t coming until almost the end of January.

Monday, I had a DPD shift. I believe it was three hours, and it was to Longview and the last few stops were between 15 and 20 minutes apart, which was ridiculous and most of the boxes had at least two stickers on them so they didn’t make it out to Longview earlier that day. Today I have a three hour shift and it’s to Longview again and the traffic is so insanely bad today that I’m not even getting to Longview until halfway through this shift.

At least this time it looks like all of the stops are clustered close together, so it won’t be as much of a nightmare. I also had a crazy amount of boxes today, including some larger boxes and this is day two of us having a car seat seat without a removable base and I see now why my partner told me that it’s gonna be a pain to have that car seat in. That one is not Amazon‘s fault, I should’ve listened to my partner when he mentioned the car seat thing. I didn’t even think about trying to remove the car seat before heading out and I had to kind of just throw things wherever they would fit in the car because of limited time and the amount of boxes.

At least my awful Salem routes were usually only a small number of packages in the evenings or nighttime, and we’re only super bad if it was a four hour midday shift. I probably shouldn’t complain, I probably could’ve just walked away from the shift, but my occasional Longview routes used to not be quite this messy. It’s also weird to have Longview multiple times this week. Purely coincidental, but still unpleasant.

Came for a 6:45pm shift. Parking is absolutely chaotic here and not only are all spots full, everyone has to park on the orange areas and other no parking zones or are just throwing their hazards on in the lanes. I had to park in the orange to be able to even park and that was after hunting for a while. There are so many people here and now at the last second there’s a huge group swarming the ID scanner. What is this mess? I think I’m gonna cancel my 6am Tuesday shift and I’ll just stick to DPD2 unless I can find maybe some midday VOR3 shifts.

It’s 43 packages, 39 stops, marked as a three hour route when I scanned, everything is in Vancouver, which is where I live, everything is a small box or light envelope, and it is almost all houses. Pretty sure my longest part of this is just gonna be getting back over the bridge into Vancouver. 1–21 are clustered very close to each other and then looks like maybe 5 to 10 minute drive at most to where 22–43 are and those look fairly clustered close too. This is amazing and I am so happy right now.