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So I guess to preface this I should give some background I took 150mg harmine hcl with 2g of regular cubes on July 1st and had a too intense trip where I pretty much just stayed in bed for 3 and half hour nauseous. I eventually threw up after the 3 and a half hours and I felt ready to stand and after that it was a pretty good time though I had trouble sleeping like I always do with harmine. 17 days later I decided I wanted to trip again but I decided to just take mushrooms maybe smoke some harmine freebase while coming down and I had a great time I dosed a 8th of regular cubes at 7:56 they were in capsules but started to hit around 8:20 and I had a great time again until I was coming. Down at 10:46 I took a dab with around 20-30 mg of harmine mixed in I might've gotten the Syrian rue too hot and maybe that affected the trip? I hit it and while I was hitting it the room instantly got brighter and it hit me almost immediately but kept getting more intense almost like nitrous except nitrous usually starts going down after about 5 minutes and this started speeding up at about 5 minutes. I had a great time I wrote down in my notes repeatedly that I feel amazing like pure bliss. I was listening to music really feeling it like it was the first time I ever listened to it I listened to love and regret by Billy strings and just started sobbing because I empathize with him so much. But then I made the mistake of getting on Instagram and looking at a reels comment section and the negativity really upset me. but I tried to just redirect my mind onto music and get off Instagram because I realized nothing productive was coming from dwelling on it. But I couldn't get it 100% out of my head and like 5 minutes later I started to get nauseous just light regular mushroom nausea at first which I was fine with since I avoided most of it in the beginning with a 4mg zofran I forgot to mention. I was just about to take another hit of the Syrian rue too I had just gotten the nail ready and had it measured out.the nausea exponentially got worse until the room was spinning/collapsing in on me. I stood up to go to the bathroom and immediately bent over and threw up in my trash can and sat back down I threw up for a little bit but luckily had a completely empty stomach so it wasn't that bad I had eaten eggs and hash browns for breakfast so not fasted but they were gone by now. This was between 11:39 and 12:29 at night btw I ended up going to bed around 6:14am i got a horrible headache from 4:09 til I went to bed but it would come and go. I forgot to mention in the hour after throwing up I got the worse nausea I have ever gotten and I've had a c.diff infection where I'd wake up and the first thing id do is throw up everyday if I turned my eyes or my head without turning my whole body id instantly get nauseous and feel like I'm spinning if I did anything but put my arms on my chairs arm rest and lean back and stare straight ahead I got so nauseous I wanted to die. I've never wanted to call an ambulance or kms while on phyces i've always wondered what went through people's heads but now I totally understand why people do it. Anywho all of that yappin to ask is there anything I can do to get over my fear of tripping it's less a fear of tripping and more a fear of nausea I just never want to experience that again when I was looking back at the times to write this and realized the worst of the nausea only lasted a hour I was flabbergasted it felt like 3 hours. Honestly just writing this has helped me a little it's really ingrained that it was the Syrian rue not the mushroom. I'm gonna change the post title and flair and leave this here for anything thinking of doing Syrian rue might be fun for you but it was not for me tho it's not too bad when just used with weed but it messes up my sleep too much like I never enter rem sleep and I toss and turn all night. Sorry for rambling or if there's any grammar errors in dyslexic so it's hard for me to notice missing grammar and people (me included) don't like ai grammar do I tried my best

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