u/M-x24

So my freshmen year I had a good start the first semester, but after that it just started going really south. I passed all my classes, but but barely— I only really did well in basic classes like English, language, gym, and electives.
Unfortunately I ended up failing algebra 2 my junior year and will end up having to go to summer school in about a week (for a month).
The main reason I did so terribly was due to depression. I’d go to school, and then sleep once I got home, never making any time for studying or school work. I also live in a small apartment with a bunch of people, making it hard to study, especially since I don’t really have a place to focus at home.
Anyway, back on topic, these are my stats

2.3 gpa (77 unweighted, 80 weighted)

1100 SAT (took as practice back in December, I plan on studying a lot this summer and retaking in August and possibly in September)

I took AP US history (averaged like 70s due to homework I wouldn’t do)
AP language and composition (averaged high 80s)

Clubs:
Bee keeping club ( 1 year as a junior, planning to do this next year)
National art honor society (same as bee keeping)
Architecture honor society (only did for one year as a freshmen until I wanted to do something in computers)

Sophomore year I took auto CAD (computer aided design) and earned my certification in it.

Next year I plan on taking
AP Literature and composition
AP psychology
AP computer science A
AP physics
I’m planning on making taking SUPA precalc and calc 1 (duo class) but I’m not sure if my counselor will let me given that I failed math this year. But I’m going to try my best to improve my math skills this summer, so we’ll see.

Colleges will see my first semester grades so I hope this can boost it up a bit.

I want to major in either computer science or software engineering, MAYBE computer engineering but nothing set in stone.

I’m planning on applying to college in New York, so recommendations or advice would be appreciated.
I’m also looking into maybe community college then transferring, or possibly applying undecided to a college and going from there.

I’m not trying to self diagnose, just trying to share my symptoms because I don’t now if this is normal or if something is wrong with me.
Does anyone else repeat things to themselves multiple times so it sounds right? I feel like it interferes in everything I do.
For example, I could be scrolling on TikTok, then I’d read a comment and I’m just repeating it inside my head for like 30 minutes and I just can’t stop. And sometimes when I’m scrolling I get the need to go back to a video I saw a few scrolls before and if I don’t I literally go insane. Also back when I used to pray a lot, I’d repeat prayers to myself multiple times until it sounded perfect to me. I’m also not religious anymore, but for some reason each time I listen to music I literally pray before, and if I don’t I don’t exactly feel like something bad is going to happen, more so I just won’t be able to peacefully listen to music without having the urge to pray.. This happens in different scenarios too, but these are just where it happens the most.

I don’t know if there’s a name for this, but if anyone has similar experiences or knows what this is called I’d appreciate it.

Wasn’t sure what community to post this in, but I’m going to put it here based off Reddit recommendations
I’m not trying to self diagnose, just trying to share my symptoms because I don’t now if this is normal or if something is wrong with me.
Does anyone else repeat things to themselves multiple times so it sounds right? I feel like it interferes in everything I do.
For example, I could be scrolling on TikTok, then I’d read a comment and I’m just repeating it inside my head for like 30 minutes and I just can’t stop. And sometimes when I’m scrolling I get the need to go back to a video I saw a few scrolls before and if I don’t I literally go insane. Also back when I used to pray a lot, I’d repeat prayers to myself multiple times until it sounded perfect to me. I’m also not religious anymore, but for some reason each time I listen to music I literally pray before, and if I don’t I don’t exactly feel like something bad is going to happen, more so I just won’t be able to peacefully listen to music without having the urge to pray.. This happens in different scenarios too, but these are just where it happens the most.
I don’t know if there’s a name for this, but if anyone has similar experiences or knows what this is called I’d appreciate it.

I had my wisdom teeth removed at 15 due to them being impacted and causing pain. They healed well, but I got braces at 16 due to my over bite and I’m currently 17 and they’re talking about removing both of my second premolars on my upper jaw. My maxilla is not recessed but it’s also not very projected, it’s just in the middle. I’m worried that this will ruin my face even more, but I also don’t want an overbite. So can someone let me know what this means and what it could do to my face?

I did terribly throughout my high school career due to depression that I feel I’ve had my whole life and I’ve only just recently been diagnosed.
My current GPA is a 77 unweighted and 80 weighted. (2.3-2.7) which I know is really bad, especially for getting into a decent school. I also failed chemistry and had to go to summer school for credit recovery.
I have a 1400 SAT score but I don’t know how much that could help me.
I’m not really involved in school or outside of school except for maybe one club and community service at my local church.
I’m interested in majoring in a STEM related major, specifically computer science or software engineering since I have a huge passion for coding and I just love everything about computers. I have small projects I started to show this but they’re not super big.
I’m looking into schools in New York State so any recommendations are great. Also, would applying undecided help? And what are thoughts on doing a year of community college and transferring.. and ideas for small projects to do. I just want to be able to do whatever I can to succeed. Next year is my senior year and I’ll try my best but it probably won’t do much on my GPA.

This is going to be a relatively long post so prepare.

Okay so I've liked this guy for about two years now. I first started liking him when he was a freshman and I was a sophomore. I am now an incoming senior and he's going to be a junior in September. I'm a very shy and awkward person which is why I haven't gone up to him, and he also seems very reserved given that I always see him alone and last year he would eat lunch alone.

And I am very convinced that he likes me back or is at least somewhat interested.

I would list detailed examples, but I feel like I'd make this most unnecessarily long. So, took keep it short I'm going to try and be as brief as possible. So, to summarize, he makes eye contact each time I see him. And he walks past me a lot, especially in areas I used to never see him. Once, I saw him in some place and after that he started going there every day. (Maybe to pass me??)

Also, our last day of school was not so long ago. Last year he didn't show up for the last day, so I assumed he wouldn't be here again, so I didn't try to see him because I was with friends most of the day. (Context for what I'm about to say: we have the same lunch period but eat in different cafeterias. I'll label them as cafeteria 1 and cafeteria 2)

So, on that note, I'm sitting at lunch with a bunch of friends on the last day of school. Usually, its 3-4 but everybody was skipping so I'm sitting in a group of about 8-10 people. Anyway, all of a sudden,0 he walks into the cafeteria. He has not once ever walked in this year, until now. He's inside and kind of looks around, and then he just leaves through the closest exit.

And I'm just drinking milk while looking at him and I look away pretty quickly because I don't want him to catch me staring. But what are the chances him walking in and leaving is to potentially see me? IF he did come to see me or talk, I don't know if he chickened out due to how many people were there or if he didn't see me since it's a pretty large cafeteria.) I also can't think of any other reason he'd walk in. (I know how delusional this sounds but pls guys I swear he notices me too.)

Anyway, after that, he's all I think about for the rest of the day. I eventually leave school and that marks another year I didn't speak to him. (It will be 2 years by the end of august)

I have also had his Instagram0 account for awhile now, but I didn't follow it. The reason I didn't is because he has like 10 followers and only follows like 30 people and most of them are influencers while like 3 are his friends, and we have zero mutuals, so I have no logical reason of finding it.

But after a lot of convincing from friends, I followed him like 4 days after school ended. 3 days in, no follow back.. I'm not sure if he just isn't online or didn't see it or what. I had a regents exam I had to go back to school for on the 3rd day of following him, so I end up sending him a dm in hopes of a response by the time I got out. No response unfortunately. I wait a few hours and by the time he hit the 5-hour mark I end up unsending the dm and unfollowing him.. I even had myself as my pfp in case he didn't see my name, but yeah, he didn't follow back so idk what to think of it. I'm kind of just convincing myself he isn't very active but maybe he just ignored it idk...

Okay so my question is, do I keep on trying? I'm literally graduating next year... And I don't want to spend another summer yearning for this guy, but I know if he shows interest again when we get back to school, it'll be another repeat and I probably won't even talk to him. And if I do keep trying, should I try to actually shoot my shot in person? I honestly just want to talk to him so I can either get rejected and get over him, or actually start talking to him. I feel like I've built him up to be a whole person in my head who I actually know, which is why this is so difficult for me.

Any advice is super appreciated.