u/MathematicianDull118

i resent both my parents so fucking much. i grew up beaten all the time by my mom and sexually assaulted by my dad. we were poor and i was abused. i was gonna kill myself at 9, i stood against the balcony and my mom just told me to jump and gave a little push. i didnt go thru with it cuz i wanted to be alive to torture her if i had gone that day maybe she would’ve felt relief. i have so much resentment i honestly willingly give my parents hell as an eye for an eye idk. im now 21 and i use them so much for money even tho they barely have any and i have my own idk why im so horrible to towards this is the only way i can get back at them. im a disgusting person for this but i honestly couldnt care less. im in therapy rn but i dont want to fix any connection with them i just want to drain them out of everything they have. why did you put me into this world is thats how you were gonna raise me. you can call me whatever you want for doing this but i just wanted to get this off my chest

hi i need some help with writing 😭 i know the basics of how to identify formal and informal and how to address and end them. i need help with sentence forming any tips ? and any sentences i can memorise than can ALWAYS be used like for example informell i can always use “wie geht’s es dir” thank youu

im a babysitter for a single mom of 5 kids aged 10,8,7,6,4. honestly i dont even fucking know why i bother. firstly the mom doesnt even fucking pay me well. i charge 15/hr and i lowered to so much for her to $20-30 a session no matter to hours. she calls me from 10pm to 6am. at first i thought hey maybe shes working late to feed 5 mouths but no she goes to the fucking CLUB. she has money to party but not enough to pay me, she owes about $200 now probably even more if i counted by the hour. the only reason why i even babysit is cuz i feel so bad for these kids.. no one is helping them shes so neglectful and they live in a 2 bedroom house with FIVE KIDS. i just feel so much for these kids thats the only reason why i even bother to babysit. at what point do you stop to think hey.. im a single mom should i really have 5 kids when im working part time to feed other mouths ? at what fucking point does that click ???? and the nerve to go clubbing as well WHAT THE FUCK. she’s ridiculous like beyond fucking ridiculous im honestly BAFFLED how are you an adult let alone a mom if these are the decisions you make.. today will be the last day ill babysit for her ive had enough of her calling me over just so she can have her fun time and not compensate me enough for it. i dont even know why i do this, i did cuz i feel bad i know what its like but god to just call me over and use me for fucking cheap childcare ????? you might as well spit on my face. before you comment “just don’t babysit her” thats exactly what im gonna do. i honestly let this go on for months cuz i thought she was going off to work at night to feed her kids and i felt bad i grew up poor so i know what its like, but i just found out she had been going to club all this time while using me for cheap child care. so im done IM FUCKING DONE

hii i reallyyy wanna get my nipples done. how was the pain and healing experience like ? i have a high pain tolerance my belly didnt even feel like anything so thats my threshold, if you feel similar and got it done how was it ? also im a babysitter i carry kids alot any moms can lmk how was it ? dealing with kids and healing at the same time! thank you so muchh

hi there im gonna be an au pair for a family in germany and my pocket money will be 280€. if youre an au pair in germany what do you use the pocket money for as an au pair ? like for toiletries, winter clothing ? etc ill have deustchlandticket so i dont have to worry about transport. what to you spend this money on ? i hope this isnt a stupid question 😭

im 21 and ive been smoking since was 14. when i tried my first cigarette i knew this was gonna stick to me but im 21 and i cant even climb a few steps without HEAVING my lungs out. its actually sickening i want to stop but everytime i finish a pack something just in me buys another one ??? idk how as well sometimes i do it in my sleep at 3am i walk to 711 and get one, its just automatic i seriously dont think i can stop but im gonna try really hard this time. ive been going to the gym these 2 days and ive asked my sister to hide my pack and my card. i took my card off my phone so i wont just go and buy it like i routinely do. i can run a few hundred meters but i have to catch my breath soo often im gonna improve day by day but its very likely ill relapse. i hope when i do i stick to 1 cigarette and keep on going. im trying cold turkey rn but i dont think it will work for me, ill probably have to do the cut down method but let give cold turkey a shot ill try my best

posting this again cuz it got taken down and also adding more context

hi there im a babysitter and when i babysit older kids around 9-12 they would ask me where do babies come from out of curiosity i genuinely dont know what to say to this question so i usually say idk too! you should ask your parents but theyd tell me they did and they didnt get an answer and id just brush it off but this kid keeps asking every time i babysit shes 11. how would you as a parent tackle this question ? ive already told the parents multiple times that she asks me this and they said they will talk to her. they probably just told her not to ask me this rather than giving her sex education. thats why she still slips this question up in conversation. were from an asian country so this topic is still very taboo. im just concerned for her safety if she goes online to seek answers cuz its very likely she WILL be exposed to NSFW content. im not sure if she knows her own sexual anatomy as well so i really dont know how to go on forward with this. no one is helping her and i cant help her. id love to educate her on this cuz its for her safety but i dont want to cause a problem with the parents please do advise me on what i can do ?

hi there im a babysitter and when i babysit older kids around 9-12 they would ask me where do babies come from out of curiosity i genuinely dont know what to say to this question so i usually say idk too! you should ask your parents but theyd tell me they did and they didnt get an answer and id just brush it off but this kid keeps asking every time i babysit shes 11. how would you as a parent tackle this question ?

i hate when people tell me this and im ungrateful for all the sacrifices my mom did for me but isn’t sacrifice something that comes with parenting ? wdym i should be thankful for abuse she put me thru just cuz she “did her best” im so done with people who are still in contact with their parents judging others who go no contact. im glad your parents showed you the love by the only person that was supposed to love you unconditionally

i went NC with my mom and recently i tried to forgive her after her constant calls. i picked it up and obviously we argued, she then tells me all my life she wanted me dead and that was the reason why she didnt help me when i told her i was suicidal when i was younger. its cuz she wanted me to fucking die. really ???? i had to get dignosed MYSELF when i turned 18 cuz i wanted to fix whatever was wrong with me. when i got on meds she threw them away, it makes so much sense now. i just hung up the phone and she just keeps texting me saying “im your mother” no tf youre not… im honestly gonna block her its beyond ridiculous. she just acts victim all the time and whatever she did to me ? its excused cuz shes my mother. thanks mom

hi there im a singaporean and id like to au pair in germany whats the likelihood of my visa getting approved ? this visa process is making me so anxious reading stories about visa denial 😓😓

hello! im an au pair from singapore and im gonna be with a family from germany. they want me to start late august but there is no availability for the goethe exam until october in singapore is there any other way i can get a valid A1 certificate ? alternatively i can do one in malaysia but the exam date is 28 august and idk how long it will take to process my visa can anyone share with me how long it gets to approve one in singapore ? thank you so much!

hello! im an au pair from singapore and im gonna be with a family from germany. they want me to start late august but there is no availability for the goethe exam until october in singapore is there any other way i can get a valid A1 certificate ? alternatively i can do one in malaysia but the exam date is 28 august and idk how long it will take to process my visa can anyone share with me how long it gets to approve one in singapore ? thank you so much!

hi there im a singaporean citizen and im gonna be an au pair soon but for the goethe A1 exam i can only do it in october but my family would prefer if i started late august early september. is deustchtest digital valid for a visa application ? also if any singaporeans can let me know how long did the visa application take and would it be possible by late august early September! thank you so much

hi there my mom yesterday told me that she wanted to kill me when i was younger like really badly cuz i wasnt an easy child and its normal to think that ? idk how to feel about this cuz i kinda get it i cried all day long and didnt give her a rest. then again why would you tell me this ? i went no contact with her but yesterday i tried to forgive her cuz i mourn for a mom so bad but she just told me this instead. i understand her pov but can a parent lmk if this is normal

i want a mom so bad i really do. i see mothers in public hugging their child or my friends mothers telling them it will be okay when life doesnt go their way. i want a mother really bad i just graduated all by myself and all i saw was moms hugging their child and i just left the hall crying. i just kept thinking about how theyve couldve gone to their mom for help when they struggled in uni but i was there in uni by myself crying wishing i had a mom who could comfort me not a mom that said i wouldnt even make it to uni. idk how i feel rn im just so empty after graduating alone and nc with my mother. i just want a mother.

im asian 21 and nc with my mom. idk why us asians normalise abuse as parenting ? yea she beat me for no reason and she was upset but oh she did it out of “love” or “you did something that made her do it” wtf are we hearing ourselves… people keep telling me to go back shes your mother cuz in asian culture family is always first but they are not family to me. why do we keep taking this and then FORGIVING THEM for something youd never do to a child. its honestly ridiculous to me. they tell me oh my mom did that also and i still love her but why ? even then thats YOU, if you want to love and forgive someone who abused you be my guest but why are we gaslighting each other into thinking yea its just supposed to be like this cuz its asian parenting its stupid

hi there im 21 just moved out and currently nc with my mom for a few months. i usually ignore her texts and calls but today i caved in. she called and said how could i just leave like that and that she filed a case against me ??? but it was obviously dropped cuz im an adult. anyways wanted to mention one instance of abuse so i said “do you remember when i was 9 and i stood on the balcony wanting to die but you just told me to jump and gave me a little push to scare me” she told me yea its cuz i was threatening her with suicide ?? idk what 9 year old is threatening a grown ass women, let alone with suicide cuz i genuinely did want to die that day. i think back and wonder how is that your first reaction to your CHILD trying to attempt suicide at such a young age ? im genuinely baffled at how she told me she did that cuz i was threatening her ? in what way and she just kept blaming me. im lowkey losing my mind over this cuz wtf ?? im not wrong right.. how the fuck do you even be so confident in that answer to someone you gave birth too. im honestly lost for words its ridiculous there is your answer mom, that is why youre cut off. anyways im gonna block her number and change my sim card, im still appalled at this response just HOW

i hate when people tell me this and honestly i dont even know what to say. now that im older i cant even imagine doing the things she did to me to child let alone the one i gave birth too. when people tell me this i just get kinda jealous im glad you had a mother that loved you and cared, oh how i wish i could understand the statement “but shes your mother” she is but id never treat my child like this