Southern Baptist upbringing is causing me to want to break it off with my gf
Edit: please reply if you’re seeing this. I’m debating suicide. I can’t Do this.
Hey everyone
I’m posting this in a panic because I don’t know what’s happening to me.
I’m trying to make this as short and simple as possible because I need relief of some kind.
I’m 19F, my gf is 20F. We both have southern Baptist upbringings. We met our freshman year of college. I have known I’m bi my entire life, my gf didn’t know until we got together. we have been dating for 9 months.
The entire relationship; we’ve struggled with the idea of our relationship being a sin. Sometimes I feel okay. Sometimes I feel like my love can’t be wrong. Other times I feel sick to my stomach like I’m blatantly disobeying God.
The past few days I’ve barely eaten or slept because I feel so sick to my stomach. I feel like God is trying to tell me it’s wrong. That we should break up. That I should surrender to him.
I love her so much. Idk what’s happening. Do I end things or can I love her and love God at the same time?
I feel like I’m better off dead. I can’t do this anymore bro. Someone help me