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Because I am finally centering myself again. It’s because I got lots more to do I am choosing myself again. He didn’t reply? Okay. He is making another terrible decision? Not my problem! He is not choosing to actually mature? So what?

It’s not like I don’t care anymore, I still do. But the attachment has waned off to the point where I finally accepted things for what they are and not what they could be. If he changes, he matures, good. If we are truly meant to be, then that is God’s plan, not mine and it’s not something I’d focus on for a while. If someone else is for me, then I’d be praying for him as well!

As for now, I will focus on building my own life here on my own. God has blessed me infinite times and seeing it and seeing how actually blessed I am has given me a new sense of purpose, a new sense of being that I wouldn’t want to let anyone besmirch. I don’t want my own energy drained here.

Kahit nga there were dire situations at my workplace, I am weirdly calm. Because I know di ako pbabayaan ni Lord.

So ayun, I went a long way to get to this point, the point of acceptance and moving on. And it’s amazing.

So kung kayo, di pa diyan nakakapag move on, don’t rush the process. Ang sarap talaga ng feeling na you did things for yourself muna and when they reap, nakaka blessed talaga ng feeling.

I mean if attached pa kayo, that is fine kasi I’ve been there, pero NEVER EVER ABANDON YOURSELF AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. Focus on yourself and God kahit within pa kayo sa attachment phase, istep by the step lang. And have faith na things will work out, kada problema may solution 💕

Kasi I have been there, where I just loved this person, because I thought what we had was special. We were so similar in many aspects and I see a lot of myself in him. Unfortunately, his ugly parts were just too much for me. Araw2 ba naman akong umiiyak because of him. And he is also uncertain with me.

Until such time na talagang everything became clear to me and umayaw na ako. I have to choose myself or else I will just end up waiting for him forever to change in which he will probably not kasi takot sa commitment, responsibilidad and actual change.

Now that I'm here in Germany, suddenly my eyes opened wide. The possibilities are endless. I already had funny organic encounters(andaming gwapo hahaha), I experienced kindness and goodness, my place is nice, I feel like God put me here as a loving gift, and I realized that I deserve so much better. Na hindi ko kailangan mag settle just because I was lonely and thought he was the only chance I had for the kind of soul connection I was looking for.

So sa mga naging halimaw umibig diyan, I see you, I understand you. It would sometimes feel like forever, na nasasaktan ka sa taong hindi ka kayang mahalin ng buong buo, but it will end. If you really want it to, and have the strength to choose yourself, it will end and it will only get better, i promise.

Just broaden your horizons, discover hobbies, see the world and you will see how small your world was with that kind of love or whatever it was. Do everything for yourself muna. Pero don't force the healing and the moving on syempre, it will happen naturally as long as you're intentional. Tahan na, it gets better 💗

Has anyone here shopped at the Dubai Airport Duty Free for perfumes? Are they indeed cheaper? plano ko kasi bumili ng perfume doon before my flight to Germany. If not then sa Germany na lang ako mismo bibili.

I am moving to Germany soon. He promised he would give me some money, and then suddenly his promised amount is getting smaller and smaller until it's not happening anymore. I told him never mind I will survive on my own as I always have.

It's not about the money. It's about never ever keeping your word. I never expected he would but still it hurts. And it sucks because he never cared enough to really show up. My mother died of skin cancer, and she died unhappy with her life, because we had a lot of money problems, which started because of his own pride, he never communicated that he actually incurred a LOT of debts but still he spent a lot on stupid shit for himself and didn't prioritize his family.

What's funny was, he actually forced my mom to marry him and threatened s*icide if she didn't marry him. But our mom became his own "mother" and did everything for him leaving nothing for her. There were reels on Instagram saying "Would you wish your mother to live a great life in exchange of you never being born?" I would like it everytime and say a thousand times Yes. I wish my mom to be happier than she ever was even if it meant I never existed.

I, then, harbored a deep distrust of men and relationships. I never had a full on relationship because I am deathly scared of having an encore of my parents' relationship. Unfortunately, I met a man just like my dad and we had this otherworldly connection and I fell but I also couldn't let my feelings out because I knew it's wrong. So I am just slowly disappearing from his life, even if it hurts. He is inconsistent and is non committal anyway.

So, I'm just hoping and praying my move to Germany will be worth it, or else I'm just gonna think I'm cursed and doomed to a painful life. 😭

Auf den Philippinen benutze ich ein Bio-Shampoo und einen Bio-Conditioner mit dem Inhaltsstoff Gugo, der das Haar kräftiger und länger macht. In Deutschland kann ich das natürlich nicht kaufen, deshalb suche ich nach Alternativen, zum Beispiel mit Rosmarin, und nach Produkten, die die Kopfhaut nicht fettig machen. Ich freue mich über Empfehlungen!

Warum oder warum nicht? Glaubt ihr, dass es einen Menschen gibt, der für euch bestimmt ist?

Just for fun lang 😍 Perfume related questions parang interview lang sa artista hahahaha

Anyway, as a 30 year old girl, here is my response:

What perfume is your first love?

🩵Clinique Happy! Pero college scent ko yung F35 ng Aficionado, and yung pink body spray sa ForMe na love love ko noon kaso they discontinued it and I forgot the name 😭

What perfume are you wearing today?

🩵Amoy pawis ko kasi nasa bahay all day for my online german classes. Joke. haha But yeah yung scent of choice ko ngayon is either Twilly d'Hermes clone ng Scent Geeks or Body Shop White Musk L'eau.

What’s your everyday go-to perfume?

🩵Twilly d'Hermes clone ng Scent Geeks or Body Shop White Musk L'eau as of the moment. Paubos na Zara Lightly Bloom ko 🥲 yung Clinique Happy I wear it on Sundays. Yung Coco Mademoiselle ko naka.impake plus I couldn't really wear it this summer nakaka asim. hahaha

What perfume always gets you compliments?

🩵Twilly d'Hermes, even the clones. When I wear that, I immediately receive compliments.

What scent notes do you love the most?

🩵A mix of fresh and floral, with a tiny bit of musk and powdery + aldehyde elements. Pero I love fresh, fruity with a musky drydown ng Clinique Happy and yung freshness din ng Happy Heart.

One perfume you really want to buy:

🩵Two actually, Chanel No. 5 L'eau and Cacharel NOA.

What kind of scent matches your personality?

🩵Siguro Clinique Happy! Haha zesty, fruity, fun, with a flirty drydown. But I love the playful classiness of Twilly d'Hermes and it speaks to my fashionista side. I did get a sample of Twilly Eau Ginger which is fresher before and I guess I would love to try a full bottle of it soon, before I say it's my favorite.

Recommend one perfume everyone should try:

🩵since it says here everyone should try it, syempre yung afford. Zia Dantes by Bench. Hahaha not exactly a perfume, it's an EDT but it's affordable and it's unisex.

What perfume is your pet peeve?

🩵Dior Sauvage. Masakit sa ilong. Tsaka White Diamonds by Elizabeth Taylor hahaha

What perfume would you wear on your wedding day?

🩵 Twilly! yung orig mismo. Either that or Chanel Coco Mademoiselle.

and DONE!

You can copy paste na lang from here para di na kayo mahirapan 🩵

What perfume is your first love?

What perfume are you wearing today?

What’s your everyday go-to perfume?

What perfume always gets you compliments?

What scent notes do you love the most?

One perfume you really want to buy:

What kind of scent matches your personality?

Recommend one perfume everyone should try:

What perfume is your pet peeve?

What perfume would you wear on your wedding day?

Ich habe noch ein Job als ambulanten Kinderkrankenschwester bekommen, aber ich habe noch nicht angefangen. Wie läuft die Arbeit dann? Ist es schwieriger oder einfacher als ein Job im Krankenhaus? Was ist eure Meinung dazu?