u/ModelSan

I’m looking for a job in project management or business analysis. No one helps me ever. I’m so alone in this and I feel like this is THE WORST humiliation ever.

I hate myself so much. I wish having a job was not that difficult so I would not need other people.

Edit : comments are proving my point. If you’re looking and struggling people will blame u and be negative. Reddit is becoming a lost cause full of 🗑️

I’m from France. The Islamophobia made me remove my hijab and took me to the psychiatric hospital.

I have severe depression.
Went to umrah but came back as depressed.

Muslim men avoid me bc I’m depressed and I don’t blame them. I have stopped seeking marriage.

I have a tachycardia now, grey hair and extremely dark thoughts. I am ready to go. I make cry for help bc they work. My friends have either gave up on me bc of the sadness or just stop giving support bc they don’t know how to help.

I just a want a job. I keep getting rejected.

I am trying to move to Canada, Ireland or the Netherlands. I am open to suggestions especially in the Muslim world but idk what to do.
In a few weeks I will be ready to take my own life. Help. SOS

Salam aleikum

I am 28 F / From Europe
Every time I have opened my heart to a brother, he has decided that I was not worthy. I have never been treated with genuine care, nor have I experienced kindness, effort, or thoughtfulness.

Yet people at the mosque have the audacity to tell me that I should get married. I don’t even talk to sisters anymore because of this. I love my isolation.

I keep reading that Muslim men are looking for pious and “good” sisters. But when they approach you and you genuinely try to get to know them with serious intentions, have they actually been good themselves?
I’m done.

Sounds like a nightmare. 2 weeks ago I have decided to be career driven and will hold 2 jobs, and a business on top of studying Islam and Quran.

I will remain a virgin and I will never open my heart nor accept any man near me. 7-8 years of complete waste and trouble! Imagine.

My Journey

I recently had a jinn removed with the help of a healer. For more context, I have severe depression and high functioning ADHD.
After a panic attack, I ended up in the psych ward due to suicidal thoughts. As a result, my lovely dad took me to a healer, and by the grace of Allah, the jinn is gone.

At first, I felt lighter. I started receiving attention from men and even went on dates !!!!!
I can’t believe this happened to me…
After 27 years of crying over loneliness, I finally felt like a woman. Male loneliness is real, but I’ve been just as lonely.

Where I’m At Now

The guy I’m currently talking to, lives in the UK and I am in France and he barely shows interest. I’ve cried about it three or four times. Part of me wonders if a jinn came back to block me from relationships but another part of me believes my personality and looks still aren’t enough to keep someone interested.

I’m scared. The first guy I dated wasn’t a match. I like the one I’m with now, it’s only LDR but he forgot my birthday, didn’t get me anything, and seems distant, which wasn’t how things started. I’m heartbroken and feel like a fool.

Salam aleikum sisters

I am posting here, to let the world know.

I have given up on life on September 8th after I got fired despite giving my all to a job. I had to undergo homelessness, starvation and mental health issues.

I trusted that it would stabilise so that even if I feel dead inside I’ll continue living, I got fired again end if march 2026. I had threatened to end my life and they took me to the psych ward immediately. I am now preparing my end and asking for forgiveness, paying debts back, making it right. Every day, I wait for my end making it happen.

I have removed my hijab but I feel peace is coming back bc soon I’ll be gone.

I hope I can go for omra since I have nothing and I must repent for my sins.

I had made a friend here last year but she’s given up on me.
I don’t know why I’m writing on this sub but know that lots of muslimahs like me are in such pain and abandonment that we are preparing for our final days.

Kheir inshaAllah

Salam how are you?

British girls said I’m pretty. To be honest, I’m not sure that I match beauty standards in France. Actually, I have lots of reasons to believe that I am not the pretty girl in France.

However I have received compliments in the UK. That was surprising bc I am the ugly friend in France.

Would you please describe what’s beautiful to the British female gaze ?

Reminder : stay kind, I have low self esteem and was bullied my whole life and no man shows interest in getting to marry me ever.

Disclaimer : I’m in therapy. I’m asking cause why would my therapist respond instead of a uk girly in what a uk girlie thinks?

Salam / Hi !

Your girl is back here!!! LOL

I am NOT a nerd or a gamer.

NSFW or dirty talk = blocked immediately.

My little description below. I am looking for someone around my height, healthy body and manly. I hope you’re kind.

• ⁠177cm (5’10) / 60 kg
• ⁠Black Woman from Paris
• ⁠Muslim (practicing - sometimes I pray, recite the Quran, help others, go to the mosque, praise the Prophet Muhammad ﷺ and learn about Islam)
• ⁠I don't smoke, I don't drink
• ⁠Master’s degree graduate in business
• ⁠I like to travel and try new things, restaurants, I also like K-pop , French rap, and from time to time I watch movies or one piece
• ⁠I am sociable, fun and caring

DMs are open.

Basically, you know you’re ugly when other girls with just a few followers post selfies and go viral, while I lose followers.

If that’s the case I wasn’t hiding beauty ?
Idk
But it makes me feel completely sad and angry.

I would’ve disappointed a potential husband.

I felt like a fraud knowing that I have two bald spots anyway and very short 4a hair (afro).
Now I feel less of a liar.

May Allah make it easy for me to wear it again and hopefully the low self esteem shall pass.