u/Moist_gammerays

Its for my friend whom saw it and thought it was funny but cant find it

I make a bubble of people around me that like me to feel love

I dont know why but ever since ive been young I crave to be loved and began to being extremely kind to family and what little friends I have. When I have a group of people that tell me how much I mean to them I feel loved but when im alone the thoughts of how pathetic i am for this crave and how weak i am and i eat at myself the longer im alone. And whats worse is that I feel as if I put on a mask to make them smile and I hate it I hate how I punish my self for saying something I didn't like afterwards. Im scared of rejection of what I do and im scared of the ability to love a women truly as I dont know if im capable and willing to and the fear of what I could do to a women and what they could do to me. I dont want to hurt them nor them hurt me. Im always ashamed of of my body and how it looks and and how people make fun of me.

I genuinely dont know what's wrong with me im just here to vent cause theirs no one else to vent to

Caine is a ai that tries to let the humans enjoy their time and does what ever he could and even talk to them on personal level and yeah until the end caine put himself first to be loved he WANTED so desperately to be loved and sool he made ai and adventures to make the ai and humans love him and he also has one of the biggest egos I've ever seen but I can relate to him as i want to do what ever I must to make people enjoy life but I want to be loved horrible addicitingly back from like a gf.

He was able to redeem himself in time but if parts of the show where un changed he would be a monster.

Jax is opposite as he is either loved or hated as soon as seen and over the episodes she or he had more mixed reactions and when it revealed how heavily she was repressing herself and then taking most the ending ep and abstracting off screen made people hate her alot for she never redeemed herself at the end

Also my opinion so respond my little summer sausage tip lickers

I notice that I never miss people at all when they leave or if the are 6ft deep and it takes a few days for me to love them again and I always have to lie to my parents that I miss them is this normal and no this is NOT a relationship post it's about me wondering if im normal

Idk I dated once got shamed for being fat