Im 26 f and i am chronically bloated 24/7. When i wake and when i sleep. I stopped eating diary and drinking coffee and its all the same. Im so insecure now and when i shower i cry.. my belly is so bloated. Is this a persistent symptom of SiBO? I know it says so online but im curious what you guys have to say as people who experienced it firsthand. Peace and blessings x
I think i could have hpylori but my only symptom is chronic (never goes away)bloating and maybe a bit of weight gain. I feel so insecure and have been going to the gym and crying and cant even go to the beach. Did this happen to any of you? Im deeply unwell and will get tested soon.
My parents took years of my life by being abusive and neglectful... i mean YEARS. I don't get to live a normal life. I just have been rotting.. trying to survive. Yet everyone around them thinks they are great normal people and parents who ... tried their best! My siblings and i are the only ones who know the reality but i feel like its psychological torture. They put on a very good act. No one ever believed me and said that i was the in wrong treating them harshly and abusing them because i spoke up. My moms best friend etc.. she asks my mom like "why dont your kids work?" She has no idea. My dad lives far from me now and has a girlfriend and a stepchild who lives with them in a nice apartment. When i tell my mom i feel like ive died she looks so shocked. Im in some hell. No one believes the severity of my reality. How do you deal with the fact that no one knows this side of them? I wish i could be free.
Im 26 f latina and bcs i grew up severely isolated and neglected i never had my first kiss or anything romantic.. what are songs or dreamy shoe gaze albums that relate what that must be like? Xx thanks
Im 26 f i was raised catholic as in going to church with my parents every sunday and praying to God before school. I started really clinging to faith when i was 22? I would go on tumblr and ask people in the faith deep questions.. i started praying everyday! I read some of the bible... at times i really felt God speaking to me.. as if he wanted to comfort me. I suffered ruthlessly in life due to severely abusive and neglectful parents... i lost years of my youth and still do just rotting in my bedroom. Surviving. I didnt finish highschool.. i don't know how to drive.. i don't have irl friends.. ive never had my first kiss... you get the jist... no autonomy. My incentive to believe in God could have been in a sense much greater and more desperate then someone who had loving parents. I needed to believe i was LOVED. Believing in God for 4 years.. helped me stay alive. Did i have my doubts? Yes always. I can't at this moment reconcile my faith with immense suffering. My own and others. I understand they will say "free will" ok great? That dosn't explain why it seriously seems he does nothing to help the victim. I know this at heart. It's not theoretical. Its something i experience daily. The injustice. If you are sensitive to negative interpretations of God im asking you to please stop reading this now~~~~~~~~~~ i
I am.convinced that if God is real he is most likely a Sadist. The thought that believers say suffering is necessary for us irks me. Which suffering are they talking about? Which suffering really IS necessary? I find by empirical evidence that immense suffering corrodes more than anything. The fact that you can love someone so much and they die after seems so cruel to me. You can't even be certain where they are. The resurrection /resurrections in bible i find artist and poetic. My favorite part of the bible will always be when people resurrect yet i am so conflicted by Jesus's cruxifition. Why did he have to suffer so ruthlessly? I don't believe in atonement it makes no sense because we are basically all suffering from a genetic curse. Its unfair! Everyone i've ever talked to about why suffering exists including priests say 1) free will 2)redemptive or leads to a greater good 3) thats not what faith truly is people in the bible/prophets suffered 3) you are closer to God just like the saints.. i want so badly to be proved wrong. To be made ignorant. I really want God to be benelovent and real and working!working! for our good. I just cannot reconcile my lived experience and the God in the bible who at times seems so fervent for goodness. When i read what God hates as he mentions in the bible "Hands who shed innocent blood" where are you God? Who hates the hands who shed innocent blood.
I just feel like believing is in some sense is hurtful... as in you speak to "God" 24/7.. are looking for signs all the time that he is communicating/working in your life. That causes so much distress.. thinking the Devil is out to get you over frivolous things such as watching a fun horror movie! Begging for divine intervention.. waiting and waiting.. people ask you to listen to god in silence. I just find it strange! Being insulted over and over again when you are suffering terribly and unjustly by them saying "its necessary and causes a greater good" being told over and over again that God is Good and wants you to be happy! Yet you live IN reality and see horrific things happening to Gods beloved children. Such a grave cognitive dissonance. Im just deeply confused how anyone finds solace and peace i seriously think its designed to make you feel a bit insane. I would love to hear your thoughts on this! every negative emotion like jealousy or being depressed is literally a spiritual warfare. HOW can this be good for anyones mental wellbeing? life is already difficult. i have abusive parents who took so much of me and still do till this day and yet people say well god gave them free will! they let god off the hook so much! if god is deeply smart he obviously knew that someone would abuse their free will and yet still greenlit it. Just because god didnt cause the suffering or whatever dosnt solve the problem of why he is so passive!!!!!! towards the victim! make it make sense!!!! my faith seriously tormented me. "one day you will feel no more suffering! he will wipe all tears from your eyes" so cool! so now i have to wait in hell on earth? it all sounds so soooo cruel.
When i was 15 i was insanely.. repulsively thin. Yet strangers would come up to tell me i was sooo beautiful. Im 26 now and im at a healthy weight though im constantly bloated and it makes me feel sad. I can tell the night to day difference on how people viewed me. I feel like i lost something golden and precious. I seriously dont know how to cope. Showering is hell because i cant stand being naked .. let alone at the beach. I feel like my body betrayed me.
I was anorexic at 15 and 12.. when i was 15 people literal strangers and girls would come up to me just to tell me i was so beautiful. People treated me soooo much better. Like night and day. I felt like my hard work payed off. How can i be happy at my current weight if i was treated so much better before? Im suffering. My parents took so much from me so i constantly seek validation. Im constantly worrisomely bloated. Im aging.horribly. i dont know how to cope. My body has betrayed me.