u/MostZealousideal7149

Background first to explain how the game is going and what my players expectation are. (TLDR at the end)

I've been doing my writing for my homebrew campaign and we are about a year in IRL (2 6-8 hour sessions a month). I'm somewhat railroad-y with the game as my players and I both enjoy the story aspect of it more than the sandbox vibe, although I always write about 3 branched paths for their mid to large choices. I do have the cliche boblin the goblin that the party has grown quite fond of as well. My campaign is pretty dark and heavy for the main theme but he's been some great comedic relief but the idea i have for rounding out the finale of ACT one is having him sacrifice himself to save the party and solidify the party's purpose and commitment to the next step, show them the world does have consequences and the story is bigger than just a ragtag group.

Anyway, I have the encounter set up with a homebrewed monster that can paralyze as a shriek that gets stronger and stronger as the fight progresses, eventually requiring high DC checks to pass. My idea is that boblin will figure out how to overcome it (he's an artificer with 6 INT btw) and break out of it.

My idea was to buy a loaded d20 unbeknownst to my players and open roll the final roll for him to save if they all failed and he would basically blow himself up to save the party. I opted not to due to the variables with this, and i know if they found out it could be problematic with the game but we are a more story themed group.

TLDR: I was wondering what others thoughts are on rolling a load d20 in the open to make a final moment seem so epic for the players, and what alternatives could happen to ethically take away some "fairness" to the game while still making it an intense moment for the players?

I am asking this here because I've been wondering if anyone else here has a similar issue. We all know that we've had tendencies to end up with a pwBPD, and also have some form of autism, ADHD, depression, or anxiety. They fill holes for us we didn't know we really had, or we are unable to see the red flags because of our empathy or lack of social understanding.

I have a condition called Severely Deficient Autobiographical Memory. It causes issues in how i remember my past and I have a hard time replying memories from an experience standpoint, so i will remember information like, "they manipulated me in this situation and verbally abused me", but I have no ability to remember how that felt. The strangest thing is that my present nervous system remembers it in the moment when experiencing a trigger but it almost blind sides me every time and its been getting harder to anticipate triggers to deal with them.

I was wondering if any of you have a similar issue and what you've done to maybe help recollect memories in a way to identify triggers.

Hello,

I have currently been a consumer lender for 2 years. I have done my own underwriting in this position for all types of personal loans, vehicles, credit cards, etc. I also have 6 years of experience lookin over credit reports for new account applications for high risk or bankruptcy indicators.

I am currently looking for positions in mortgage underwriting and was wondering if my experience is sufficient and if so, what to focus on in interviews to make me stand out without having the mortgage knowledge itself.

Thanks!

Hello,

I have currently been a consumer lender for 2 years. I have done my own underwriting in this position for all types of personal loans, vehicles, credit cards, etc. I also have 6 years of experience lookin over credit reports for new account applications for high risk or bankruptcy indicators.

I am currently looking for positions in mortgage underwriting and was wondering if my experience is sufficient and if so, what to focus on in interviews to make me stand out without having the mortgage knowledge itself.

Thanks!

One thing we all seem to notice that they have in common is that they have a "traumatic" past. For some reason we all take that as fact and want to help them, but as time goes they create new "traumas" that may even include us or people we know. When we look at these new traumas we know they are complete BS or at BEST totally exaggerated. Why do we never question the initial trauma as well if we know most of our pwBPD are liars? I'm always afraid to talk about this because a lot of us here don't even question the validity of their pre-adult history.

Sorry if this is against the rules, it's just a question that has been sitting there ever since my wife and family have talked about her biomom wBPD. All of the other siblings never had any type of abuse other than standard dad being a hard ass but my MIL has written countless letters to the family about the abuse she endured when NONE of the others recall anything like that out of 6 siblings.