u/Motor-Hat-3061

Even family. My kids used to laugh at my jokes when they were younger. Friends used to want to hangout. Now it feels like life has passed me by and I have to jump up and get in people's faces just to remind them that I'm still here.

Friends, dead to me. Dating, forget about it. My kids, couldn't care less. I'm doomed to this haggard face, worn down body and ghost like meanderings where only reddit understands and coddles me.

Getting old sucks. I can't compete with youtube anymore.

I remember when the internet and email were fun novelties. Now your whole life operates within them.

I remember when we had a choice of having a smart phone or not. Now, the choice is WHICH smart phone you will have, cause you need that to function as well.

I remember when having a bank was an option. Now it's which bank?

Walmart is one of the last retailers that sells physical media like movies and music. I watched them die out at target, best buy, etc.

Everything's going subscription based.

Right now, apps for fast food are optional. Pretty soon that'll go away.

Right now, physical money is optional. That's on the way out with some places going cash free. They stopped making pennies, guess what's next?

We're slowly going all digital, all the time. Our choice will be to purchase, subscribe and pay endlessly into the new digital purgatory of life, or to die off.

Scary huh?

Anyone else deal with this? How'd you get her to give you peace?

She was all about other dick before. Did divorce kill her buzz or something?

Could she be jealous that I already found someone and moved on? She moved on years ago.

Shit is baffling.

I was wondering, since we already know basically where the line is, if this magical door just opens up and we move forward through it together, while the other people struggle through chaos, question marks and trail & error.

Your thoughts?

Cause I thought I would by now, but guess what? 10 years later, I'm still funny! 😂

Everyone seems to have all these bubbly personalities, plans, things to do that they're into with their friends, out in public and it all just looks so exhausting.

Meanwhile, I just wanna lay here a few more hours, recuperating from yesterday's circus, I mean life, while I thump my bean to the Anya box set.

Know what I mean?

Tried a couple apps. Seems like everyone has 100 friends and goes on $6k+ vacations twice a year, traveling, big, expensive lifestyles, etc..

Meanwhile, every decade I have to restart my life alone cause someone else can't commit. So, I need to relocate, rebuild and I just enjoy simple and affordable things like staying in shape, gym, cycling, reading, music, grilling, night life, relaxing and couch movies, etc..

Not that I'm not open to all the other stuff, but if that's their expectations, I don't see how I can meet it halfway. Know what I mean?

And it's so fkng weird. I can't escape the past, cause the house is just a couple miles away. I'm here by their schools, available to support them for years, so this is my future.

This is the first time I've been in this situation. Usually, there's a move that comes with a new city, or a new part of town, but this is like, not even a real move.

It's peaceful and I'm happy, but it kind of feels like I'm haunting my own life. I don't really know what I wanna do, aside from taking care of my kids.

Dating is fun, but a lot of work. I'm still physically active, so that's there. I've been relinquished of all the manual labor of a huge house and the peace is still setting in.

It's so quiet. I can almost hear the universe trying to whisper to me.

What did you guys do all your freed up time after a move?

All the courting, dating, romance, pregnancies, marriage, moving to multiple states, multiple houses, multiple kids, multiple stupid fkng lies, cheating, theft, years of arduous fkng labor cleaning houses nobody gives a fk about, raising kids she didn't really want, living a fkng lie she thought she wanted but I didn't realize until like a decade later, the endless, stupid ass, tug of war divorce battle, etc, etc, etc, etc..

Stupid fkn waste.

I may as well have been standing still, doing absolutely nothing the last 10 fkng years. Same difference.

Lawyers: useless. Laws: useless: Being "good": pointless. Fuck it all.

Look bitche$, if you can't commit, fk off from the get go. Plain and simple. No need for lies, no need for scams "cause kids and house", just say "this is stupid, and let's not go past dating". Kay?

I'm sure everyone in every bs marriage from here on out (and the kids to be), would highly appreciate it. Thanks! 👍