u/Motor_Zombie9920

So I am having a trouble with one cylinder exhaust temperature increasing rapidly out of nowhere up to 200 degrees deviation.But cylinder peak pressure looks same during this period. I can’t understand how because of there is more combustion or fuel in the exhaust side ,peak pressure should be effected by this too.
And this started to happened after I did valve clearance setting. First I suspected the injector and changed it but its still same.On high load(around 60%) this thing happens.
While running normal, I can’t understand why exhaust would go start to increase fast.

I dont know if it could be fuel pump or just the sensor but I am also worried during valve clearance,something may happened.Something dropped in somewhere like under springs or pushrod area or something not right.Still I cant figure out this relation between increasing exh temp and stable peak pressure .
I am open to any ideas or suggestions .
Dg:wartsila l20

Hey everyone, I work on a ship and have limited internet access(wifi). This damn iPhone is using up my data in the background and I can't stop it. Low data mode is on, background app refresh is off, automatic downloads are off, etc. But when this damn phone gets a software update, automatic updates are off aiso, this idiot phone still does something, probably scanning for updates, and the internet is draining quickly. I believe thats where is the consumption but its fucking annoying I cant do anything about it. I don't know how to stop this, I can't control this damn phone, it's a ridiculous, stupid situation. I need to solve this somehow, I need your help, I hope someone can help.
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Are you guys have a profession that you are competent,careful,connected ?
This constant mind distractions,fears,shame driven approval seeking motivations that keeps me anxious all the time..I feel like I am gonna suck at whatever job I do that is open to make mistakes.Like I should go pick apples be farmer idk to not screw up.And I am engineer.And I am beatibg myself up and filled with rage towards myself,humiliations,insults,cursings and such.I can’t accept myself while how my brain is working effecting me ,causing me making fuckups,making me screw up ,embarrassing me,lowering me in front of everyone,losing my respect for myself for not being competent or capable enough.You see.Anyways please share your experiences,thoughts,suggestions

What does operate you?What emotion or principle or boundary?What influences your reaction,form of communication,connection style with people,managing tasks?

What I am trying to ask here is that I see in my life that I was always run by this fear of being not enough,shame,so anxiety. Its in all areas of my life.Decisions,reactions is determined in face of situations or tasks in miliseconds before I have control over.

I want to change this mode.I want to replace it with something esteemed,confident,calm,joyful,mindful. I am trying to figure out how could I do this

People will talk about solitude,spending time with yourself and such.But whenever I am by myself,I will try to stimulate myself through things,relieving from the anxiety.And when there is nobody there also, I will just try to distract myself,stimulate.

For me attention and memory ıs so hard.Whenever a task,mission,situation appears anxiety will take over and I will be working to perform,to show,that I am adequate or cabaple or enough. I will be aiming approval and validation .The fear will drive me what if I cant do it,do I know how to do it,what if I fail,what if I cant manage.And shame will run the show

During this process ,I will have brain fog(or fuck),my vision will get smaller,I wont think clearly.And this results in making a lot of shitty mistakes,missing out on things,forgetting.

Merhaba arkadaşlar benim kuran dilinin tarzına karşı biraz , ne desem bilemedim ,sorgulayan bir yaklaşımımım var diyim en iyisi.

Sürekli tekrarlanan Allah bilir siz bilmezsiniz,allah çok güçlüdür ,allah …dır ayetlerinin bende uyandırdığı algı sanki bir güç ispatlama durumu var.Geceleri başucu kitabi olarak okuyorum.Ama okuduğum şeyler allah onları yakacak hatta yanınca derilerini sürekli değiştirip tekrar yakacak ki acıyı hissetsinler,söyle o beyinsizlere,onlar çok pis yanacaklar,bunlara taviz yoktur … gibi gibi hükümler.Bense allahla yakınlaşmaya çalışan bi kulum,sevgi diliyle daha çok.Ama bu dilinden midir,tarzından mıdır,gerçekten bize aktarıldığı gib bir korku caydırma dini gibi geliyor.Halbuki ben hristiyanlara özeniyorum affedilceklerine inanıyorlar her türlü ama en azından tanrılarıyla daha barışçıllar.Derler hatta eski ahitte tanrı sertti cezalandırıcıydı sonra bizde farklı bir tanrı oldu sizde farklı diye.

Sözün özü ,okumaya devam ediyorum ama bu şeyler beni rahatsız ediyor buranın da progressive müslimler tarafından ziyaret edildiğini düşünerek paylaşıma açmak,bilgilenmek istedim.

Guys please help me I am suffering immensely from this at my work.Its a high stress job and needs full concentration.But this anxiety,overstimulation,
makes me lose my mind.I forget a lot a lot a lot,I will miss details,my braib wont work fully.And its adding up more and more pressure on me,because I will not trust myself.If I remember correctly,if I did the right thing,if I missed something,if I am gonna fuck up,make mistake again.I need to be out from these guys please help me I feel so bad for my mistakes afterwards. I can’t expect people to tolerate these all the time.I cant just not have anxiety,its there .What do I need?Anyone going through the same thing?It would be good to know I am not alone also.What works for you?

Its rather a inferiority/superiority complex . As a defense mechanism,when there is criticism (real or imagined),intimidation,power games,manipulation,humiliation,basically an attack, I will get in a mode where I am like proving something to other person.That I am okay,he cant undermine or underestimate,I am not inferior,in fact if I get a chance I will be superior..So basically its a performance mode and I pretend to be someone,be enough.

And when it is arrogance,I am superior at first place so I get this shadowed arrogance that makes me live in a world where I am comfortable because I am superior.

Both gets me in trouble and shifts my focus tremendously,like I lose myself.And it will effect me very much , I will not be able pay attention the necessary things because my mind will be occupied with these experiences. I still couldn’t get out from the inferior/superior way of living.Maybe some of you will say just be yourself but at work I think thats not the case.I cant just be myself(or can I).I need a politically adjusted persona showing up at work and functioning properly both socially and physically.I hope there would be some people knows what I am talking about..

How do we find it and what are we looking for here basically? It is dark side of you that you don’t want to face with but like what is it actually?And then what do you with this information?Integrating.What is it actually?If my dark side wants to have sex with my friends girlfriend for example do I integrate this part to my self,how? I am asking in a way to get direct answers . I d appreciate it if you could give examples from your life.

When there is no one around to reach.And no belonging.And you feel your lonely existence

And deeply connected because of a void or unmeet need in you?and only to realize after years that you couldn’t be with this heavenly person that came into your life and made you feel all the good things because you cant accept her past. Sexual past.You would reject her or not make her a girlfriend but you were already attached to her when you find out and after that you just tried to keep holding onto her. You didn’t want to be out but you couldn’t stay either.And the strangest things is when all this dopaminergic feelings moves aside,you are left with these radical thoughts but still you were deeply attached and in love all this time.

While people are having small talks,shallow but real conversations,chit chats,geeks,laughs,conversations ; I see myself there expecting some attention,closeness,sincerity,companionship.When I question what I want from people or life,the answer is this.But why?This sets me up for upset and isolation and alienation.I can’t channel myself into the environment around me and have free expression there. Sometimes it is draining to act just for the sake of staying in social circle, simulating a belonging,invite other people to like me.But in this process I kinda lose myself to be honest because I’m kinda pretending.If I don’t pretend, I have to reveal this uninterest towards people,superiority-inferiority complex,egoistic,self centered,arrogant,perfectionist,an unpleasant person I feel like.What is this? This is where I alienate,isolate and as a result dont feel belonging.

But yeah still I cant stop seeking for deep connection,so I will be always in this loop then?You quit smoking and after some cravings you get used to it.But for this;what is the way? How do I do?

I can also simply visualize my habit of escaping into a safe place where this deep connection is available. If I am struggling to integrate myself into my environment,getting rejected,failing to participate or take place, I will be directing my route to where I feel close.my romantic partner who is I bond the same way.so yeah

While people are having small talks,shallow but real conversations,chit chats,geeks,laughs,conversations ; I see myself there expecting some attention,closeness,sincerity,companionship.When I question what I want from people or life,the answer is this.But why?This sets me up for upset and isolation and alienation.I can’t channel myself into the environment around me and have free expression there. Sometimes it is draining to act just for the sake of staying in social circle, simulating a belonging,invite other people to like me.But in this process I kinda lose myself to be honest because I’m kinda pretending.If I don’t pretend, I have to reveal this uninterest towards people,superiority-inferiority complex,egoistic,self centered,arrogant,perfectionist,an unpleasant person I feel like.What is this? This is where I alienate,isolate and as a result dont feel belonging.

But yeah still I cant stop seeking for deep connection,so I will be always in this loop then?You quit smoking and after some cravings you get used to it.But for this;what is the way? How do I do?

I can also simply visualize my habit of escaping into a safe place where this deep connection is available. If I am struggling to integrate myself into my environment,getting rejected,failing to participate or take place, I will be directing my route to where I feel close.my romantic partner who is I bond the same way.so yeah

My love is selfish,manipulative,victim for a potential healer.Sure I ll do everything to keep them in comfort,take care of them,because I am sensitive to that,thats why I need this live at first place.

No matter how strongly I am attached or connected to the person, I felt like a fraud.Being with people for the sake of meeting my needs,but not building a future or commitment. This was what happened for me because I was in love with two people,and no matter how much I loved them, there were things that I choose to not see for the sake of getting my needs.Then these things occurred to me again when I were to expect invest into the relationship.These things were something I dont like about their physical appearances,their past,their lifestyle difference.Things that in my mind creates the incompatibility.Then I am involuntarily seperating from them. I am still at some point attached to my ex.The happiness,joy,comfort,compassion,desire,connection,spirituality that she shared with me.Euphoria of that sexual satisfaction,desire,lust,connection.

But you see I am a fraud. I began relationship with them,because I was hungry and it felt heavenly.Now when I leave that attachment style, I am going to leave my role in there too. Maybe that what I am resisting too. Being seen, making approved my victim story in life,regulating myself through them.

I don’t want to detach from her.Yet there is a cycle I need to break.But God I loved her

When I see people who are full of life,social butterfly ,not necessarily overly social but just have the energy in them,their motivation to participate and connect,and create fun ,narratives, I envy them.

I envy that I dont have such motivation,just rather try to protect or draw an image of me which I will not be criticized or humiliated,and resulting as I am looking cold,tough,maybe arrogant even,quite,criticizing,ashamed.While people out there focus on regular ,daily,small,from life tasks;I got stuck with this existential pain that I shouldn’t have born to this purposeless life and suffer the pain I suffered. I am spending too much time on depth of things,over analyzing,being hypervigilant, seeking deep connection everywhere.

Is there a way I shift my energy from being this depressive and lifeless fella to a guy actually has willingness to live and assertive for his existence in the world and participate fully rather than being imprisoned in his mind?

When I see people who are full of life,social butterfly ,not necessarily overly social but just have the energy in them,their motivation to participate and connect,and create fun ,narratives, I envy them.

I envy that I dont have such motivation,just rather try to protect or draw an image of me which I will not be criticized or humiliated,and resulting as I am looking cold,tough,maybe arrogant even,quite,criticizing,ashamed.While people out there focus on regular ,daily,small,from life tasks;I got stuck with this existential pain that I shouldn’t have born to this purposeless life and suffer the pain I suffered. I am spending too much time on depth of things,over analyzing,being hypervigilant, seeking deep connection everywhere.

Is there a way I shift my energy from being this depressive and lifeless fella to a guy actually has willingness to live and assertive for his existence in the world and participate fully rather than being imprisoned in his mind?