u/Myronca

Why have a child knowing that life is so difficult, knowing that they will have to work and grow old, knowing that life has an empirical predominance of pain over pleasure, and knowing that they will suffer at some point because of poverty, illness, heartbreak, unfulfilled desires, work, fatigue, and their inability to choose their physical appearance or place of birth? It is true that life has a few good moments, such as eating, going out with friends, or listening to music, but what is the point if you spend 90% of your time doing things you do not want to do and suffering? Having a child should be considered a cruel joke.

For those who have rolled with experienced grapplers from other disciplines under BJJ rules, what was your experience?

Yo nací en el Vicente D'Antoni(La Ceiba)

Básicamente como hondureños comunes y corrientes en económico. Solo es simple curiosidad.

I have a formal diagnosis of autism, OCD, ADHD, and depression. My brain has forgotten how to feel pleasure, happiness, joy, peace, or just any sense of feeling good. I have no dreams, goals, or desires. I see a good pair of headphones in the store, and I don't want them. I see a hot woman walking down the street, and I don't feel lust toward her. I see money, and I don't desire it. I watch a good football match, and I don't enjoy it. I feel like an astronaut floating in the deep depths of the universe. I feel that all hope is gone.

I am from Honduras and I was born in 1999. I was heavily influenced by people and by millennial culture; however, I always saw those teenagers or older people as much older than me. I grew up watching Disney Channel after coming home from school. I did not use the internet, and I used non-smartphones until I was 12 years old.

Even so, I consider myself closer to Generation Z, since I always saw classic millennials as much older people. They were already adults when I was just a teenager. I spent my teenage years listening to Alan Walker and Marshmello, among other artists from that era.

Sometimes I think life would be easier if I had been born a woman. Waking up to people complimenting you, checking on you, caring about your feelings, wanting to protect you, making you feel valued just for existing… it sounds nice. Being able to cry without being judged, being comforted instead of told to “man up,” being loved for who you are and not only for what you can provide.

As once said, only children, dogs, and women are loved unconditionally. And honestly, as a man, sometimes it feels true. A lot of us grow up feeling like love only comes if we have money, status, or something useful to offer. Like we’re expected to carry everything silently and never break.

I’m not saying this with bitterness or hate toward women at all. I mean it in good faith. Women should be thankful for the love, emotional support, and kindness they receive, because a lot of men go through life without ever really experiencing that.

It is how it is

Just curious

I wish I was a born a female.