i remember my mom being always scary and unpredictable. She was either most loving or scariest thing in the world. Very unpredictable, no physical or sexual violence though. Just bunch of screaming and threats and calling names.
I feel like I'm crazy, I split on my fiance for few months after we went long distance after living together for 5 years and I felt like I wanted to break up with him and even told my therapist this few days ago before the visit. Yesterday he said we should take a break because he wants someone who doesn't doubt about being with him and I said it is fine if he wants that but I am not planning on seeing other people during the break and I want to be with him. Maybe tiny part felt like it came from the "Please don't leave me" feeling but I know I'd be fine on my own bow that I've lived couple months on my own in another city (moved for school) and that I don't need him to be able to live like before ( was codependent before). I feel like a switch happened in me within a few hours of this during our conversation to the opposite, he has never asked to break up before, it has always come from me in the past from attempts. I just felt that I love him and i really like him as a person, I don't feel very romantically close with him and i felt physically numb last time we had sex before all of this. No feeling downstairs whatsoever sexual or pain wise. I felt indifferent and feel like I'd prefer to be with him and I care deeply about him but I want whatever he wants, if he is happier by himself I'm okey with it, I would prefer having him here in another city with me. It feels like i don't have a stable long term emotional state even when it comes to long term things inside and its a switch that flips every month or week or so from idealizing to resenting and really wanting to break up and be single to feeling like I could be very happy if we spend the rest of our lives together. We've been together for 6.5 years and I'm in therapy as well as on bupropion and Seroquel. I recently started also biking daily on not so suitable bike (male bike im a woman) so the numbness downstairs could come also from the nerves being compressed down there on daily bases. Im working on getting a new bike.
Anyone else have any advise or own experiences with this? I know bpd split happens but do they last as long as multiple weeks to months? Had anyone found a solution how to tell where they actually feel or what is right solution for them?
My fiance and me have been living together for past 5 years and been in the relationship for a bit over 6 years. I love him very much but i feel like he is a little boy and unreliable when shit hits the fan. I moved to another city to pursue a masters degree while he stayed in the current city because of his job and I was planning on moving back ones Im finished with my studies. So we are long distance for now and I come visit twice a month and stay for 5 days ussually. In the past I've tried to encourage him to go out and socialize and make friends since I'll l he does is play video games all day after work to the amount that even he has admitted could be counted as a addiction. Since i moved he has started going to parties for socialization, he has an alcohol addiction so he doesn't drink at theese parties which makes me feel better. I do not understand however why now that I have moved. I've tried to encourage him so much when we were living together and he would say he is just introverted or make up any other excuse. We have fought over the matter that I want him to have his own friends too and not rely on me as his only social connection. Im glad he is socializing now but it makes me a bit bitter and wonder why now that i have moved. I don't mind him socializing or going to parties, I want him to make friends and i trust him enough that I know he wouldn't do anything or cheat since he has never given me a reason to ever doubt him nor had ever hidden anything from me. He used to party before back when he used to drink before we got together and it seems like that stopped as soon as we started dating.
Näin tänään kun nuori mies viilsi vanhus naisen kasvot Triplassa tänään 28.7 suunnilleen klo 16.30 aikaan keskellä päivää ja seurasi tätä. Olivat siis tuntemattomia ja mies oli vissiin aineissa. Vartijat saivat tapahtuman kameravalvontaan. Toivon että tämä vanhus on okei. Haluan tietää onko kaikki ok tai jos uutisoidaan missään. Olkaa varovaisia Triplassa. Ihmisiä oli paljon ympärillä ja kukaan ei tehnyt mitään kun soitti vartijoille.
I got too drunk last night and barely made it home, my bf wasn't happy and said i should have stayed somewhere else because he doesn't want me come home drunk. I agreed with him that i got too drunk but he started saying that i promised i would only have few drinks and calls me irresponsible and that I have a problem. I agree with him but I got so mad at him and said i felt he tried to control my drinking. Mind you last time i drank was 2 months ago and everytime i do makes it a massive deal because he himself struggles with alcohol addiction and doesn't like seeing me drunk. I got so mad and upset that I blurted out that i dont love him anymore and that i view him more as a close friend than a life partner, I hate him for leaving me to deal with our cat when she was sick and died by myself and drank on top of it all for days while i was taking care of her, I called him unreliable. Since then I've apologized but he shut himself in his room and wont speak to me, he told me i should move earlier since (Im already moving out for studies) but I feel like there's no coming back from this. The worst thing is I actually would like us to break up and i did feel all of those things, so i wasn't lying. I just dont want to hurt his feelings and do it more maturely.
Im thinking of getting a tattoo of my beloved cat who passed away. I loved her so much and don't have any other tattoos. My only consern is regret when i get older and have other pets or other important people in my life ( I'm 27 rn) My question is: do you regret your pet name tattoo?
Hi,
Just wanted to make a post for those thinking about going on medication. I've just started the medication a month ago and am on 50mg but this medication has been a miracle for my depression, anxiety, ptsd, and bpd. My sweet baby cat passed away almost two months ago and my long term relationship is coming to an end and this medication has been a life saver. It makes me want to live again and be excited about life. I highly recommend for those who are struggling rn and considering it.