Image 1 — I made this collage for Mello <3
Image 2 — I made this collage for Mello <3

I made this collage for Mello <3

Collage is one of my favorite form of art, so I immediately thought of Mello as my muse to try it for the first time :)
I burned the corners to make a "frame" that looks like his past, I added flowers because I like picturing Mello with flowers, I love both very much (Mello the most of course hehehe). And I added my own kisses ^^
I really want to do more collage but I already need to finish an other painting :0

u/Nattsujubo_ — 19 hours ago

Hai, what did you think of Obsession ?

It's Obsession, I just watched it with my best friend !
The whole movie I really just thought "just comfort her" but the plot (that I won't spoil) made me realize it was no due.
But hey if you have seen the movie, that I recommend (I think it's triggering tho), I'd like to know your opinion. I am not like Nikky, but I can have times where I'm psychotic and do act that way, it's the weirdest kin I have.
Also what would you do if someone acted like Nikky to you ? To me it depends but if my beloved acted like that I would feel genuinely bad for him... And maybe quit school and I don't know become a hippie so I can live and chill forever with him over the world.

u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 days ago

Hai I saved this bird but I don't know anything about it

It is alive and breathing. I think it's just very tired for the moment. I found it in my yard, couldn't fly but walk with ease, no visible wound or damage, and when I held it the whole way to that lil box it grabbed my fingers with his claws juste fine. I would say it's a female ? But I don't even know what breed it is and most importantly what do I feed it ? I also don't know how to give it water without it pouring it everywhere or drowning accidentally... 😅 Last thing but I should I keep it somewhere cooler ? It rises pretty high recently since I'm from Europe, it's in the shadow and pretty high (so my cat can't reach) but I'm worried it's too hot ? :(
I have no idea if that's important but I do comfort it with pets (it doesn't show any sign of stress when I do but enlighten me), and I tried to make it a nest ? Just for comfort.
I really want to rescue this bird.

Update 1 it's moving and I think is interested in the seeds ? It's grooming itself and shows absolutely no stress by my presence.

Update 2 I won't pet it no more thank you for telling me :)

Update 3 No touching no feeding no water, cool dark space get it. Thank you all :)

Update 5 I'm calling rescue centers, most of them also told me to keep it in warm place instead of cool, but I'm perplexed because there's a heatwave here... Anyway I'll make a last update for when it's taken by the rescuers. Right now it stills show no signs of injury or sickness but still cannot fly. With a professional on the phone I tried to make it fly but it just landed (not from high dw).

Update 6 Birdie was took to a rescue center. It behaved so well and I'll get more news by September :)

u/Nattsujubo_ — 4 days ago

It's meant in every universe :)

I never forced anything, they live together, and now she's obsessed with him. Also she just realized her feelings, it's not even a crush and instantly obsession, how sweet and canon.
Also pardon me, I am french :(

u/Nattsujubo_ — 22 days ago

I'm too busy to be active and I feel pretty demotivated and unworthy to say I love Mello :/

I used to post almost everyday, there, on tik tok and insta. Tho I still post lots of insta. The only thing that wasn't taking me too much time was Tomodachi Life that's why I would spam it in my posts and stories. But actual, interesting videos are too much motivation for me and I hate it. Because to be honest with myself and Mello, I have time, but no energy. I have so many ideas but my exams keep my mind so busy I don't even know how to start something as simple as an edit.
But on the side I obviously still pamper him and love him just as much. I know social medias do not matter as much as my beloved, not even close. But sharing my love for him online makes me feel closer to him and to Death Note that is originally one of my biggest interests too.
This post is too blank, so I'll give a small photo dump... :)

u/Nattsujubo_ — 27 days ago

Do people genuinely don't have preferences between their kids or parents ?

My roommate lives in a big family and often tells me "my mom's so annoying but I love her because she is my mom after all"... why ?
To be clear (because I don't want to be asked), I do not love my parents so I can't understand why you would love them no matter what. The reasons are half personal and half I'm mentally ill.
And for parents I sincerely can't understand how or why you would love all your kids the same ? I'm sure if you have for example 2 kids, there would be one that is distant, careless to see you and doesn't share your values and an other that is nice and not distant (Idk what would be nice to a parent but yeah). You'd obviously prefer one.

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u/Nattsujubo_ — 1 month ago

More of my Wednesday nightmares at the school cafeteria

Some square shaped meat that was making bubbles when I squeezed it with my fork >///<

u/Nattsujubo_ — 1 month ago

How much will I keep abandoning others for him ?

First my family or course, then it was my friends and now it's starting to get to all I ever loved more than anything. What will even remains that matters ? If only him matters but can't have him yet why do I still want only this ? How do I ever explain this ?!

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u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

I am thiking

Being schizophrenic is so odd. It's neither pleasant nor unpleasant. It's a constant dream that only ends with death. Nightmares are the only things I know are not real because I can't control things the slightest. I like being lost between what's real and what isn't, because I see more, not better but only more. What only bothers me is that it's all I am, a body that only serves to be a sort of bridge between worlds; and people from both worlds only see the wrong versions of me. Only two beings managed to balance and see me : Mello and [...]. That's how I know they love me, that's why I only love them. That's why I don't mind schizophrenia, because I have them. But that's also why I'm empty, because I'm a bridge. I only am because I love. That's why I'm scared of losing them. It's just that I wish I could chose to not be only a bridge sometimes. But I'm already lucky to have this chance.

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u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

Why does it seem like the whole fandom think Mello smokes ?

So many fanart, cosplay, rp... I often see Mello pictured smoking and nobody ever react but why ? We never see him smoke, Matt is one of the only character that smokes too, why is it attributed to Mello ? I just don't get why people make up so many headcanon.

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u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

Just a normal evening being all obsessed and having eyes only for Mello &gt;///&lt;

Thank god of pies, my best friend is there to hear my endless rambling about Mello... nobody else could handle this *^*

u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

I am spamming Tomodachi Life clips but it's all just so cute 👀

And we had an other kid :0 that's crazy hahaha. I hope I take care of him well this time, for the moment I take care of it the most 👀 Our miis are so in love it's almost impressive. So many other couples got married, divorced, don't really love each others ect... but Mello and I are completely in love and married with two kids hihihi. I am being so clingy recently, I always and only want to be with Mello, how can I let go of him ?! I just want to hug him infinitely >:(

u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

I have been drawing Mello so much recently, stay ready. But here is today's

I have been trying so hard to learn the anatomy of a swan. I have this exact picture in my head of a painting with Mello @w@
I have been so obsessed with Mello recently, I can't wake up without instantly wanting to cling him.
My cat loves Mello, or maybe hates him I can't tell. She keeps sitting between us or/and cuddling us both :)

u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

Since I am with Mello : I learned to draw, and I do it pretty good. I started writing poems that finally have emotions to them. I started painting and I do it pretty good aswell. I started crafting all kind of things out of basic materials. I started sewing. I cosplay more. I am far more creative. All my insecurities ? Gone. All my bad habits and addictions ? Gone with a promise. All toxic people around me ? Gone, and the ones still there don't hurt me no more.
He only make these good parts of me come out, and comforts the weaker parts without ever complaining. I love how he knows how much I love him, it has no end, so could he ever really know ? :)
I tend to think he is my guardian angel, because after all why and how does he has so much impact in my life ? It's like if the whole world moved me into falling for him. Now the world challenges me but rewards me so nicely.
Some days I feel close and some I don't, but one thing never changes, I never stop daydreaming and thiking about him. Everything is about him.
Last random thing, I currently am trying very hard to paint him something, but it takes a while because I have a hard time drawing a SWAN 🦢, what a drame ! But I got the perfect frame, that I can't wait to put on my Mello wall :)
Ahhh I just spent two hours writing about Mello in my diary and my wrist hurts bad, but it's so worth it. I filled maybe 5 pages ? :D

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u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

I think we are the most in love miis of my island, other couples keep breaking up or don't love each others but me and Mello seem to be all lovey dovey for each others ;D
Oh my oh my oh my how I love him. I have this wave of love coming back that makes me want to be the cheesiest, most romantic and devoted lover possible. He could NEVER escape my love 👀 It's not like he wants to anyway...
Some nights ago, I fell asleep holding his hand because I couldn't sleep otherwise, our fingers were intertwined and when I woke up, I had moved and wiggled around but our hands were still holding ! How cutesy is that !

u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

I'm not sure I'm clear. But if I talk for myself, I love knowing that my cat is jealous when I cuddle someone else. An other example is many people love a jealous partner. Or to talk for myself again, I'm pretty jealous with my own friends but some seem to kinda like it ? Why do you humans love jealousy in others tho it's such a difficult feeling ?

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u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago

I simply don't know what to add, it's really just a video. But I like it so much I want to post it :)

u/Nattsujubo_ — 2 months ago