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As a person, I think im a failure. I dont try hard, i do the bare minimum, i dont have redeeming qualities. But the reason I feel like a fraud despite knowing I truly am a failure, is mainly because my friends genuinely like me even though they are amazing people. Like what is there to like about me that would make being friends with me worth it?

So can it even be imposter syndrome if everything bad about me is completely true? I still feel like if my friends knew how I really thought of stuff, they’d stop talking to me.

My friends are all incredible. They’re charismatic, they are talented, they are loved, they have good relationships with their families they have tons of friends. And I’m just envious of all of them.

It sucks to always feel jealous of my friends when they succeed, or when they show their skill at something, or when they can casually talk about partners or friends or family and the like. Because its so dirty and gross to feel envy at my friends for just living their lives and being happy.

I dont know, they’re just so incredible, and im just this less than average person. Im not smart like them, im not skilled like them, im not charasmatic like them, i dont have a work ethic like them, i dont have the determination of them, and I don’t have a personality that grabs attention and can make others smile.

I often feel like I dont deserve to be friends with them. I feel like they might realize how much worse I am than them and leave me. They have so much worth and I feel like my presence doesnt change anything in the grand scheme of things.

I just want to know what I can even do here. I just dont want to grow bitter with the people I love. But I always feel like an asshole for feeling jealous.

Im using Winged Serphyd, I’m breaking his horn consistently (first phase) I’m getting air bangs, i get mounts, but I cant even hit the first dps check. I know this guy has so many openings but whenever i go for stuff it just doesnt work. Im not sure how I am supposed to beat him solo atp.

I dont know when to tenderize him (honestly i never used tenderizing throughout my whole playthrough and i dont like that I basically have to for this fight)

(Blazing Black Twilight)

I want to try out these 2 weapons for the grinding lands. And of course eventually for the actual threats like Safi and Fatalis.

So, what weapons are best here (again, excluding the weapons of the mentioned monsters, unless one of them is really easy to grind out solo)

And what decorations/skills are best for these weapons?

And what armors?

Edit: I suppose Safi is fine, but i dont know how the fight works and is it soloable? I’d prefer to solo it since i dont have a group i can start a siege with. I do really want to fight that monster though

I think, even in elementary school, I felt like I had no goal in life. But I didn’t think on it because I could distract myself with play whenever.

When I got into high school i realized just how much I didn’t care for anything in my future. I like school, but I dont care if I go to it or not. I like talking to my friends, but I dont care if i speak to them for months.

Add onto this, my complete inability to focus on work if it bores me. Example, I’ve voided one of the easiest assignment ever, for a month, just because i could even though I’m failing the class. (Well also probably because my brain doesnt let me study).

This senior year, I’ve skipped my entire first period all year, i skip school like a coin toss, sometimes a whole week at a time, I void classwork that could easily be done, I’m failing half my classes and I dont even care, I dont do any extracurriculars, I pretend to be funny and carefree about all this, I act like even more of a loser just to make others feel better, I cant talk to anybody because I dont want to put my troubles on to them and stop acting like a joke since it’d ruin their day, i apologize for everything just so people dont hate me, and I now have no plan but to work a dead end job for the rest of my life.

And whenever I do skip school or have free time, I waste it all doing jackshit! I even skip my hobbies, stuff I actually like (such as playing video games, watching shows, and drawing) to do jack. I just dont ever feel in the mood to even do stuff I like that make me slightly happy.

I refuse to take responsibilities for things, i cant commit to anything, and I both dont know, and never put in the effort to better myself. I think I’m a pretty above average person in the eyes of others, but in the eyes of myself I’m just a degenerate of a person.

So whats even the point. I dont WANT to kill myself, but I also dont, NOT want to either. The only reason I havent is because I would feel guilty knowing I wasted the time and effort of everybody who’s ever known me. And I still have, like fucking 55 years of my life before I retire, where I will end up just going to work and do jack at home everyday, until I get to retire and then what? I’m old and now I’m just existing, not working, not doing anything, just surviving, not living.

I just want to have some hope, but I cant find any, and nothingness seems a lot better than this emptiness i feel.

I absolutely love greatsword, and its my go to weapon in iceborne (longsword in sunbreak). However, i know that if i stick to one weapon while grinding out master rank to 100, then i’ll probably burnout.

So what are the most fun weapons to learn for solo play? Besides greatsword longsword and glaive (i liked glaive at first but then found it kinda boring).

The first chapter of the web novel, or the prologue of the light novel is of course, the death against Elsa where Subaru makes the promise to save Emilia.

In the light novel and anime, when Emilia is struck down, her hand falls away from Subaru, and Subaru is the one who reaches out to grab her hand and promise to save her.

In the web novel however, Emilia’s hand falls directly onto Subaru and even intertwines with it. “―Probably just a coincidence.” It’s weird how Tappei specifically used — and wrote probably, instead of some flowery way of saying it was fate, or it was definitely a coincidence, but no, he uses the word probably.

Do you guys think the change means anything at all? Was i just looking too much into it.